I only know one of her song -- 叶子
We were still talking about her last Saturday and she passed away on Monday, 06 Apr 09 @ the age of 34 -- Breast Cancer. She was supposed to get married next year... ...
Her death kinda sadden me though I am no fan of hers. Anyway, can read more about her on http://blog.sina.com.cn/asangblog
Thank you for all the suggestions. After all the brain storming, we have settled for a fishy surprise celebration @ Fish & Co (Glass House), which is located @ Dhoby Ghaut.
We are planning to "borrow" the musical instrument, either the guitar or keyboard, from the band and play/sing him a b'day song. Then, we will invite him to sing us a song
After dinner, we can either proceed to family KTV (i.e Party World or Gold Dust Club or a KTV Pub in Boat Quay).
Okay, the plan goes as this... ...
I proposed to get a cake from Angie's Choice and we share the cost among those who are going (Objections?)
As for dinner, we will split the bill equally (including him??) Instead of buying him a dinner, shall we get him a gift? Probably an Ang Bao would be good bcos he is rather fussy with gifts! If we are giving him an Ang Bao, may I suggest about $15-20/pax? (Objections??)
As of now, we have the following
Confirmed Going
- Rachel
- Kareen
- JS
- Johnson
- Judy
Not Attending
- Adam & the Tong's family
- Ken
Lastly, anyone not going but wants to contribute a share, are most welcome to do so
Thank you.
My block is undergoing some upgrading programme. In fact, the surrounding blocks are also taking turns to go through the upgrading programme. Mobile toilets and bathrooms are provided at the void decks of all the upgrading blocks, mainly because some toilets will be renovated and there is no water supply from 8am to 6pm for a few weeks/each unit.
I noticed that for some residents, before their renovation even took place, they were already going down for showers and washing of clothes. *OMG* To train themselves to get used to using public bathrooms or to save water?? (-_-") Some residents even took the opportunity to wash their cars! Residents who reside in other blocks also came.
Since water supply is available in the evening after 6pm and temporary bathrooms are built in the toilets for residents usage, residents should be bathing at home yah? I noticed residents using the mobile bathrooms in the night, despite that there is no shower heater! This applies to aunties and uncles as well. Aren't they afraid of rheumatism?
It leaves me pondering if I would practice that too?
It is a memorable event which I must definitely note down!!!
About 2 weeks ago, we had our weekly MJ sessions, which would usually ends around early morning. On that particular day. we decided to end the session after playing only for a few hours (probably due to the humid weather lately) and decided to have supper @ McDonald (to enjoy the aircon; not for the food!)
This was funny. We weren't exactly hungry, therefore, we ordered a Fish and McSpicy + 9 pcs Nuggets & Fries to share. We cut the burger into 4 halves. Neighbouring diners must be thinking how pathetic we are. *kekeke*
While we were having our supper and listening to me complaining about how bad McDonald is and how unwillingly I am to spend my $$ on, etc etc... ... a group of ladies, sitting next to us, were playing poker cards.
The four of us started chatting about our Genting experience on how the dealer distribute 3 Kings etc etc, and we got excited and headed to LC's place to play "Rolex". Using chips worth of 10c and 20c, we took turns to play the role of Dealers for "Rolex", 3 Kings, "Ban Luck" and even "Da xiao". LOL... ... it was so fun and we don't even feel tired at all!
The feeling was good and we played almost all the basic games we could find in a proper casino. We were like 4 gambling addicts... ... :)
On 1st Apr, I had to share the following news with my boyfriend:
- I couldn't find my wallet and had most probably left it in the taxi on my way to work. However, I couldn't recall which taxi I took and I had to call up all the taxi companies to ask for assistance to broadcast the message to their cabbies. / Obviously no results! Good thing I still have a bag of coins with me for food.
- A monitor caused a small explosion, probably because of over-heating, at the neighbouring office in the morning and we had to be evacuated from the building.
- I twisted my ankle on my way from the canteen in the afternoon and it was hurting so badly! I called him a few times + some smses to update him how painful my ankle was caused by the inflammation.
Without $$$ caused I lost my wallet and with a twisted ankle, how could I go home?? My bf volunteered to come and pick me up from work and send me home.
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HAHAHA... ... April's Fool!!! kekeke... ...
I haven't really been able to post much lately because my lappy died on me during the CNY Lohei in school! I was preparing some powerpoint slides before the start of the event. When I was supposed to screen the slides, there's an error msg indicating that OS cannot be found! WTF! Good thing our computer doctor was there and he used a software to logon to my lappy and took out the slides and used his lappy to project it! *Whew* He was also the one who told me that my hardisk had DIED on me! *%#$@ but then he provided me with my options and solutions :) It's always good to have doctor friends!
Anyway, here I goes:
I was busy with my annual CNY Reception in Jan and having to cover my colleague who was down with eyes infection (thanks to me!) for 3 weeks+++. Good thing that I have KJ to share the workload. In any case, life has been easier without the presence of my colleague (though I can't be on leave).
In early Jan, I was also busy with the packing and unpacking of my “luggage”. I only started packing my barang barang one day before the mover came to transport our stuff over. Threw away quite a lot of stuff but there are still a lot more *hehe*
As my colleague was on leave, I took time off on the day of my “official” moving in. After going through the customs for moving into our new flat, I took a cab and sent mavis to school before I go to work. As part of the custom, we are supposed to have our dinner @ home on the first day as well, so I went home and had dinner with my family. *Nice*
After dinner, I had to unpack my boxes of clothes and put them nicely into my new wardrobe. *Tired* Good thing that it was a Friday but still... I had to go for alumni meeting at school the next day.
On the eve of Chinese New Year's eve, I went out with my boyfriend and friends to buy CNY clothes and stuff. I couldn't buy any earlier because I didn't want to have too many things to pack and move over to my new flat. We shop and shop and shop till tired out. At 10+, we went AMK NTUC to shop and it was filled with “mountains of people” and we met Anges among the “mountains”. :p In the end, we didn't buy anything and decided to get it from Carrefour the next day. We went to the McDonald for a drink and hang out till 2+ in the morning.
On Eve of CNY, I reached home around 4+ to 5pm, settled down and start to unpack the remaining of my barang barang. I promised my mom that I would clear my boxes of barang barang by eve of CNY :p FYI, I only unpack my boxes of clothings when I moved in! I over estimated myself (-_-”) I only managed to finish clearing my barang barang around 10.30pm! *Phew*
On the first day of CNY, Grace and her daughter, Yixuan, came. I haven't had guests to my house on the first day of CNY for years! Yixuan brought along her little sweety, Snowy. I chatted with Yixuan and I like her. She's well mannered too.
I also played with her little Snowy. Though I had hamsters more than a decade ago, I didn't dare to touch them anymore! Yixuan gave me the opportunity to be able to hold them in my palms again :)
In early Feb, I attended the Alumni CNY Lohei and helped out alittle in some aspects. Jeffery was at the Lohei. One of my ex-classmates, Zhida, was there too, least expected him to be there. Junming RSVP that he would be going as well but he didn't turn up, despite my SMS reminder a day before the event.
Our new friend, Sumo Claudia, was there. She was adorable and strong :) May she grow up well.
Got the chance to sample the catering from ISS during the Lohei and decided that I should order their catering for my event too :) Good choice I supposed. *hehe*
There are going to be some changes within the committee. I supposed we'll either become strong or fall flat. Initially, I was considering to opt out of the committee after the CNY event – got to “postpone” my decision.
My friends & I planned a surprised b'day dinner for LC @ Pearl River Restaurant. The food was okay, the staff was reasonably well. I liked the cake very much because it looked so mischievious! Many strangers commented that the cake was nice! After dinner, we went Yello Jello!
My family had a one-day trip, less my sis who was unwell, to Muar. We bought 30 pcs of Muar Otak home and savour every slice of it *YUMMY*
Joined my boyfriend & his family for dinner to celebrate his granny's birthday. So many candles. Hmm... if I wonder if I would like all the candles or just a big one :) I think I want to light 30 small candles on my cake this year -- would it be beautiful?
I also joined his family for the Ke's annual dinner @ Shuang Xi Lou. I'm quite a vinegar cum tobasco person lately. When I'm at a Chinese restaurant, I would ask for vinegar to go along with anything. When I'm at an ang-mo restaurant, I would ask for tobasco sauce to go along with my food.
Organised an outing with the Carebear group - Picnic @ Marina Barrage. The last picnic we had was a year ago @ Sentosa. Anyway, this picnic sesssion wasn't too fruitful due to the rainy season. Learnt my lesson and will take note NOT TO have picnic during Qing Ming & 7th Month!
After the picnic, we went to the airport for a drink. I supposed that we were too big a group, had difficulty getting a place to settle all of us. we shifted from T3 to T2 and settled down inappropriately at a coffee joint.
I was surprised by myself.
In less than a day, I've made the decision to take up a shop and went to source for suitable suppliers and embarked onto the pathway of an entrepreneur... ...
Everything was like "chop chop curry pok"! 3 days after I have made the decision, our business started and today is our first day!!!
It's not going to be easy but I am hopeful!
It's our 6th anniversary. I didn't know what to get for my boyfriend as valentine's day was just over and he had already received some gifts. After thinking hard, I decided to make some cup cakes for him!
Together with Baking Chef Karen's expertise advice and help, I managed to make some decent cupcakes for my dearest boyfriend. I brought the cupcakes to his office and he shared it with his colleagues :) *again, he didn't to take a picture of the cupcakes*
I am easily satisfied with my own achievements. Hehe... so i am proud that I could make cupcakes that are edible :p Still, I really have to thank Karen for having to wake up so early and spent time coaching and helping me :)
After sending the little gift to his office, I made my way to take a bus to Suntec and had a bowl of Ramen @ the Food court. After enjoying my lunch, I went SHOPPING!!! hehehe... ...
Many hours passed and I began to feel tired, wanted to catch a movie but the screening only start @ 4+ in the evening. I made myself comfortable in a sofa seat at a corner in GV and played with the PSP till I am tired then I took a nap. Around 6pm, Oliver came and joined me while LC came around 7+. My Dear Dear also made allowance and attended only 1.5 hrs of class and came to join us for dinner.
After dinner, I went back with my boyfriend to bring his barang barang to my place as we were departing for Genting the next day. However, when we got out from his house, it started to pour heavily and no cab stopped for us, though there are no passengers. Poor dear dear was drenched! Luckily, a cabby stopped at the petrol station for a break and was willing to send us home :) Good thing that Oliver & LC didn't come with us or all of us would be drenched!
*haha* When we arrived at the carpark, both of us were so cartoon, yah? ;)
Home Sweet Home and turned in early as we got to wake up @ 5am the next day
My boyfriend made a reservation for dinner @ The Line. It was their Seafood night with free flow of Wine, Beer, Soft drinks & Juices!
Fish Maw Soup & White Wine
Lobsters+Oysters+Scallops+Prawns+Clams+Crabs+whatever seafood you named!
Seafood Dim Sum
Scallops in Mushroom Cheese+Cereals Prawn+Grilled Prawns & Salmon+Seafood Fried Rice
Drunkard Prawn with Chinese Wine
(The Chef took the live prawns and dumped them into the boiling water,
added alot of wine and served it to us! *woohoo*)
Indian Gourmet
Chilli Crab+Bun
Crepe with Mango fillings *yummy*
L@@K at the selection of desserts *mouth watering*
Our Desserts
Johnny and his 'kuei kuei'
Yummy Tiramisu
My Paper Prata or Hat Prata(?)
Fruits Fruits Fruits
It has been really long since I last post an entry here... ...
Hasn't got the time and equipment (my lappy died on me!) to do so but I supposed I do have many to update. Shall do it soon :)
Alright *havent been using this word for a long time* I am going to Sentosa today (though it's drizzling)!!! Will definitely post the pictures up here after the outing :)
Hullo Carebears!
It has been a long time since we had an outing.
Shall we hold a picnic @ the Marina Barrage next Sat (28 Feb 09) afternoon?
Johnson & I been there once and that place is cool. We can fly kite, play games and makan. If majority of us are okay with it, we should start planning now.
Please revert your interest by 24 Feb 09 (Tues). Thank you! (^_^)
I suddenly have the urge to get into his Facebook this morning and I discovered that he started to send messages to the lady since 17 Sep 08! That was the day we went to register for our ROM date! It led me to think if she is one of the factor for not wanting to ROM with me. He told me that she was not one of the causes – I hope it is true.
Sighz... ... I still don't feel secure. I am still worried that he still likes her. I can't really stop him from contacting her if he really want to do it (cos I wouldn't know if he had want to hide it from me). All I can do now is to salvage this relationship and pray to god for help. I am also praying hard that he won't email or msg the lady Valentine's Day greeting. I hope he will really keep his promise to me and cut off contact with her.
I should not bring up this lady anymore. At times, I dunno if I am stupid or clever. I wondered how things are going to be like if I hadn't confront him. I really hope that we can start afresh and bring the relationship back on track.
Today I told myself that I will try not to expose him anymore if I saw any mails or messages between them. If he has promised me to cut off contact but secretly still want to continue “making” friends with her, it would mean the end for both of us. Even now, if he wants to set up a new email acc solely for communicating with her, he could do it w/o my knowledge. If this really happened, it would be very sad. Sighz...
I am still pondering over the qtn - Am I easily replaced?
I proposed to him that we could go for counselling on how to tackle the current problems and he agreed. I was happy with his reaction. Even if it was just to bluff me, I am still happy.
Suddenly I became very negative. I kept having the fear that he will leave me and I just keep sighing. If he really decides to leave me... ... I cannot imagine how to survive w/o him as he has been in my life for the past 5 years.
If I had known but not confronted him, how would the situation be like? Given my personality, I cannot control such emotions and once I find out, I got to talk it out. This whole thing somehow led me to think song – xiang shui you du. All these also triggered my memory to recall a story about a man and his wife who was a civil servant... It was a good ending for her and I hope it would be a good one for me too.
No mood to work. Keep looking forward to knock off and meeting him. It's like we've just started our relationship and I am yearning to meet him every minute! I hope this is a good thing.
I think he was right. He said that I have been behaving in a paranoid manner since day 1. I feel very tense up and cold. I fear. I fear of losing him. Though he promised that he will not contact her again but I am worried that he will not keep his promise.
Whenever my phone rings or there's a msg coming in, I hope that it is from him. I feel upset and disappointed when I know that he wasn't the one on the other line. I went into Facebook last night and saw her pictures. She wasn't the very pretty kinda lady but is good enuff to capture his attention. Adventurous and sporty and not too skinny – just right. I am just too fat and boring for him, I supposed.
All that is occupying my mind is how to convince his family to accept mavis and I, what we should do to get married, etc... I also kept thinking about us. Too many memories, too many stuff in these 5 years and I still love him very much, I cant let go :(
Every now and then I feel my heart shiver. I feel cold. This is terrible. Each time I prayed, I asked god to let us be together and bai tou dao lao.
Just now while I was working, I thought of this: because he sees no future in us, he decided to open his options to others. I asked myself “I am easily replaced?” Very sad.
I dared not say too much or asked too much because one email from me can made him change his mind to not marry me and I feared that another email of sentence from me would allow him to decide to leave me for good *sob sob*
It has been 5 years, nearing to 6 since we had been together on 5 Mar 03.
We had really been through alot during this 6-years and we were still together. However, I am very worried that everything is going to change soon... ...
I have least expected him to have a change of heart. He had always assured me about how faithful he is but I just found out that he is wooing a colleague of his - Chan Yit Ying. Nice name. From his description, she is a very adventurous and sporty lady -- his type of coffee. I also found out that he had left "things" (which I assumed were gifts) on her desk more than once. He also expressed his feelings to her.
I was terribly upset when I read those emails yesterday. I burst out crying immediately. I just cannot control my emotions and kept crying while I was at work. I kept asking myself if 6 years are going to end just like that.
When I confronted him, he was alittle stunt. He didn't want to admit about it initially. However, when I mentioned her name, he said he has not done anything wrong to me and treat her like a colleague. I know he was lying.
I didn't go to class and when to meet up with him after work. I have got no mood to work. I almost wanna take 1/2 day and go look for him.
My feet were soft, heart were sinking and I hope that all were just a joke. I hope that it was just a dream.
Since we were back together on 1st day of CNY, I told myself that he is the one I am going to settle down with and I wanna be with him til death do us part.
He told me he can't see any future ahead of us! That sentence hurt me very much. I have said many hurtful words to him too and I think this is my retribution. BUT can I beg God please dun take him away from me. I can't survive without him. He has occupied the other half of my life. W/O him, my life is empty and I would be half dead.
It was really a big blow to me and I couldn't eat or sleep for the whole of last night. I fear of losing him. I kept thinking how to make everything work out well. to a certain extend, i am desperate over him.
On my way to meet him, I kept crying (yes on the bus). It was embarrassing but I dun give a damn. What is more impt than losing my loved ones? I also kept thinking what should we say when we meet. I feared that it would be our last meeting.
I took him to the seat round the fountain @ suntec where we sat and began our relationship 5 years 11 mths and 4 days ago. I thought if he wants to end the relationship (though I would be very much reluctant to, it would be at that pl too.) After break-up, I will always go there because suntec itself is a place filled with our memories.
When we sat there, he told me that he doesn't like the lady. It wasn't even a crush. He was just trying to make friends with her and open himself to more options cos he doesn't see a future in us.
He also told me that he is old enuff to set up a family and since that he doesn't see a future in us and all the hurtful words i said to him since sept 08 (wre all our probs arised), we should part.
In this relationship, i had cried once @ ITE Bishan when we quarrelled (for the 1st time) and he came to look for me. Then I cried again terribly when he was going overseas for studies. Then I cried again terribly when he told his friends he had long wanted to break off with me. Next, it was about our marriage in sep and oct where i had cried damn terribly. yesterday was the 5th time i cried and feeling damn terribly than ever. I hope there will be no more tears in this relationship and if there were ever tears, i hope it would be tears of laughter shared between us from now where we have decided to start all over again.
I have really tried to change my attitube towards his family and I am even willing to move in to stay with him, together with mavis. I also told him that I will go with him together to speak to his family about our marriage and mavis when the time comes. God, please let both of us work things out.
He also promised me not to contact that lady anymore and I really hope that he will keep his promise.
My Doctor told me that my sored eyes will not spread by "seeing". The virus will only be spreaded if you touch the affected areas and not wash your hands after that and of course, sharing of towels kinda stuff.
I dunno if mine was sored eyes but it was quite bad and it has been 2 weeks, I am still in the midst of recovery -- though it is getting better day after day. Or was it eye infection? Is eye infection and sored eyes under the same category?
It was kinda scary to me when my vision was kinda affected -- blurred. You won't understand how I feel unless you have the same experience as I do :) At one point, I was thinking if this is some new deadly virus and I am going to become blind or perhaps die at a very slow rate. Hmm... ... *My imaginations can run really wild!*
Anyway, this virus has somehow spreaded to Johnson on Tues and his sored eyes or infected eyes is somehow quite jialat. He had MC but due to many important meetings to attend, he had to continue working and strained his eyes even more. He had seen the doctor again yesterday and hopefully he will recover soon.
I supposed the same virus has also spread to my colleague who had also seen the doctor twice and was very worried about her eyes. She has been given MC from last Thurs till next Tues. Poor me -- I would have gotten longer MCs too but I couldn't go away due to the deadline of my event.
KJ had to go on 5 days medical leave too due to his wisdom tooth surgery!
The virus had somehow also spread to my little princess yesterday! She woke up with her eyes alittle red and then became very red later in the day. *Oh dear* Doctor gave her 2 days MC as well but I couldn't go away on Monday because there is no one around in office!!! Timing for all these is just so bad.
I dunno why they all kanna the virus. I was already in the midst of recovery and my eyes were like not really red anymore but they are catching the virus.
It was been like 2 weeks or so when he had last seen my little princess. I guess she probably kanna the sored eyes due to the dust. So much dust due to all the shifting and moving, packing and unpacking... ...
As for Johnson and my colleague -- no idea how they kanna the virus. Was it mine? If so, why did the doctor say that it would not spread thru "Seeing"???
I am having mood swings again. I am starting to have thoughts on breaking up with him again. At times I asked if I am happy with him. I asked if things would turn out better or worst after marriage. I asked if it is a good thing that we didn't get married.
I am beginning to see all my friends (with partners) getting married. Even the last one, among the few friends, had been taken off the shelf. I'm the only one left and I am the only one being mocked about.
Ha. When people used to tell me about how selfish their boyfriends / hubbies were, I used to criticise them and thank god that Johnson is not selfish.
When I used to listen to people saying that their boyfriends refused to settle down, etc, I will wondered why these people are like that and thank god that Johnson is not so.
So many things happened around me and I always thank god that Johnson is not like them BUT I am so wrong. Either I am wrong in judgement or that I am experiencing my retribution -- I am experiencing all that I have heard about from friends around me!!!
Few days ago when I was deleting messages from my hp, I saw those SMSes he sent me. He claimed that I should just sit back and wait for him to propose and that he will do it when the time comes. He told me not to rush and he will plan for it BUT WHAT's noW??? Everything got back to zero though he proposed.
Fortune teller said that once I got married and divorced, I won't have a 2nd marriage. That's probably truth. Initially, I was still very confident to proof the fortune teller wrong!
Whenever I had these mood change, I would think that I should not continue to be with him and that I should just quietly let go. Sighz...
I ever said that if he didn't propose to me by last year, I would break off with him but he did. Just that we didn't get married.
Everyone feels that he is very good to me. How do they define "good"? Am I not good for him? If that's the case then shouldn't we just end off instead of wasting each other's time?
I need companion. He's the only one who can give me most of his time. If I were to break off with him, I would have to be all alone again. How sad. Is it more saddening to stay on just for companionship and feel unhappy within myself at the same time?
I think everyone in my family is happy except me!
My sis has a room, though Yogi is in there too. Mavis has a room of her own. My brother has his own room. The tenant will get to stay in a room by herself @ a cheap rate of $300. What about me? I had to share a room with my mom!
No privacy! Johnson got to continuing sleeping on the mattress laid on the floor when he comes over. I got to share my cupboard, wardrobes, etc with my mom! I am so fed-up!!!
What's more... I have to pay for the renovation, the furniture (including for that tenant!) and to HDB for all the nitty gritty fees. I will be paying a bigger portion of the monthly instalment as compared to my sister BUT I DUN GET A BIGGER PORTION OF EVERTHING AT HOME!!!
I am really really pissed off with my mom for wanting to sub-let a room out to an outsider!!! Why do I have to buy a 5-room flat then??? *Sighz*
My brother took away the TV that was supposed to be placed in my room. The fan that is supposed to be in the living room was taken away by my brother. Mavis had no fan in her room so she needed a fan and she took sis' fan to use. Sis took my fan and again everyone had a fan except ME!!! I HAD TO SLEEP W/O A FAN ON MY FIRST NITE IN THE HOUSE!!!
WHY? This is very unfair, isn't it? My brother who is not contributing much to the household gets everything in his room. Even the computer in his room was actually meant for me from my uncle!
I cannot share these unhappiness with anyone else. Not even Johnson! So what if I let him know I am unhappy. There won't be any solution and he might even make bad remarks about my family or even if he dun speak up, he thinks bad remarks!
People will comment (prob behind my back) that I am stupid to let them stay in my flat if they got to know these. BUT CAN I DUN LET THEM STAY?? Where should they stay?
If Johnson had gotten married with me, I will probably not have to share room with someone else.
If one day I were to be too unhappy about all these, I will quarrel with my family members and it is going to be very bad.
I wondered if my mom ever thought if I am happy and what do I want?
I was clearing my stuff on Wednesday night and happened to clear a box, that was kept in the store room--out of my reach, where I kept the stuff I used during my secondary school days... ...
I found quite a bit of stuff which I had long forgotten. My mom saw them and said that I have long graduated from secondary school and it's time to throw away those stuff (e.g. O'level 10-year Series, Projects, Text books, etc)
There was this particular group project about “Friends” and it was named "The 6 Musketeers". I can't recall much. As I browsed thru the pages (all photos and captions), I was trying to find out why this proj was done, what it was all about, which subject was it meant for, etc etc. All I could tell was it is a CME Proj (what the hell is CME? Civils Moral?) done in Sec 3 -- *hehe* However, one thing for sure – I was the one doing the compiling and design etc cos it was so "my" style! Though it was a group project of 4 pax (-_-”)
Though I can't recall much, the photos kinda remind me of my fav song -- Memories and I began to hum quietly to myself... ...
Midnight - not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory,
She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet,
And the wind begins to moan.
Memory - all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days,
I was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.
Every street light seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and the streetlamp gutters,
and soon it will be morning.
Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise.
I must think of a new life,
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too,
And a new day will begin.
Burnt out ends of smokey days,
the stale cold smell of morning.
The streetlamp dies, another night is over,
another day is dawning.
Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun.
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.
Another thought also hit me while I was browsing at the photographs -- Friendship.
There were 6 musketeers. It was a proj among 4 of us in the class, cannot recall why we added the other 2 into the picture as well. Worst - one of them is more of an acquaintance rather than friends but we were the so-called good friends in the project!!! (-_-")
Among the 6 of us, one of them hated me (and I wonder if he still hates me?). The other 2 were added into my acquaintance list many years ago while the initial acquaintance remained as an acquaintance. The last one had also been added into my list of acquaintance! That total up to 5 musketeers. WOW... I should have a rather long list of acquaintance by now.
I just realised -- everything (and I really mean every damn thing) needs to be taken care of (or maintain) and of cos fate plays a part too, if you believe it :)
I also began to believe that there is no such things as "Forever Friends" like what we used to write in those autograph books when we were very young. I supposed a more realistic word would probably be "be friends for as long as fate decides" or "as we could".
The last thing that I hope were to go away would be memories... ...
Before I embarke on today's topic, I wanna give an update about myself (Yes, I am self-centred!). My eyes should be in the recovery stage -- though still blurred vision and uncomfortable at times. I hope I would recover by Sunday, else I would have to visit the Doctor again.
Busy with CNY stuff at work -- invitations have been increased from 700+ to 1000++ guests (-_-") Hope that KJ & I could complete this project successfully.
I'm the kinda who will think about many things while doing other stuff. Therefore... ...
While I was ironing my daughter's uniform yesterday, I was thinking about the movie "YES MAN". I had multiply thoughts at the same time. Am I a YES MAN? Why should I be one?? How could I be a better YES MAN but not to "harm" myself??? How would I being a YES MAN benefit from it????? Who is a YES MAN? Is so and so a YES MAN?? Is "A" a YES MAN? Is "B" a YES MAN?? "hmm.. maybe!" (and my thoughts just continued while I was ironing) and then I asked myself "Is Cas a YES MAN?" My mind told me that she is a YES MAN (most of the time) but another voice told me she might turn into a NO MAN when more "not-so-good" situations take place in her life or maybe she has already partially become a NO MAN (??).
What I am trying to say... ...
Cas is usually fine with almost everything (of course she has her own stand and will speak up when need arises) but then on and off people took advantage of her YES MAN attitube and then she became fed-up and she will want to turn nasty and maintain a NO MAN attitube. -- then I thought.. that would be sad huh. *I frowned to myself and continued ironing* I told myself I must ask her one of these days... ...
I received XS's SMS this morning to inform that her sis is unable to rep Kenny. The next person that came into my mind was Cas (We had actually asked her to join us for the movie but she didn't want to because she did not watch Part 1.) Therefore, I decided to try my luck and smsed her, thinking that she will reject me and she promptly replied "OK!"
這篇文章分享給每一個在 為夢想努力奮鬥的你，提醒我們在努力追求夢想的同時，
千萬不要忘了最初的本心。
心若改變，你的態度跟著改變；
態度改變，你的習慣跟著改變；
習慣改變，你的性格跟著改變；
性格改變，你的人生跟著改變。
有個老魔鬼看到人間的生活過得太幸福了，他 說：「我們要去擾亂一下，要不然魔鬼就不存在了。」
他先派了一個小魔鬼去擾亂一個農夫。因為他看到那農夫每天辛勤地工作，可是所得卻少得可憐，但他還是那麼快樂，非常知足。
小魔鬼就開始想，要怎樣才能把農夫變壞呢？他就把農夫的田地變得很硬，讓農夫知難而退。
那農夫敲半天，做得好辛苦，但他只是休息一下，還是繼續敲，沒有一點抱怨。小魔鬼看到計策失敗，只好摸摸鼻子回去了。
老魔鬼又派了第二個去。第二個小魔鬼想，既然讓他更加辛苦也沒有用，那就拿走他所擁有的東西偷走，他想，農夫做得那麼辛苦，又累又餓，卻連麵包跟水都不見了，這下子他一定會暴跳如雷。
農夫又渴又餓地到樹下休息，想不到麵包跟水都不見了!「不曉得是哪個可憐的人比我更需要那塊麵包跟水? 如果這些東西就能讓他得溫飽的話，那就好了。」又失敗了, 小魔鬼又棄甲而逃
老魔鬼覺得奇怪，難道沒有任何辦法能使這農夫變壞？就在這時第三個小魔鬼出來了。他對老魔鬼講：「我有辦法，一定能把他變壞。」
小魔鬼先去跟農夫做朋友，農夫很高興地和他作了朋友。因為魔鬼有預知的能力，他就告訴農夫，明年會有乾旱，教農夫把稻種在濕地上，農夫便照做。結果第二年別人沒有收成，只有農夫的收成滿坑滿谷，他就因此而富裕起來了。
小魔鬼又每年都對農夫說當年適合種什麼，三年下來，這農夫就變得非常富有。
他又教農夫把米拿去釀酒販賣，賺取更多的錢。慢慢地，農夫開始不工作了，靠著經濟販賣的方式，就能獲得大量金錢。
有一天，老魔鬼來了，小魔鬼就告訴老魔鬼說：「您看！我現在要展現我的成果。這農夫現在已經有豬的血液了。」只見農夫辦了個晚宴，所有富有的人都來參加；喝最好的酒，吃最精美的餐點，還有好多的僕人侍候。他們非常浪費地吃喝，衣裳零亂，醉得不省人事，開始變得像豬一樣癡肥愚蠢。
「您還會看到他身上有著狼的血液。」小魔鬼又說。
這時，一個僕人端著葡萄酒出來，不小心跌了一跤。
農夫就開始罵他：「你做事這麼不小心！」
「唉！主人，我們到現在都沒有吃飯，餓得渾身無力。」
事情沒有做完，你們怎麼可以吃飯！」
老魔鬼見了，高興地對小魔鬼說：「唉！ 你太了不起！你是怎麼辦到的？」
小魔鬼說：「我只不過是讓他擁有比他需要的更多而已，這樣就可以引發他人性中的貪婪。」
