Unhappiness

I think everyone in my family is happy except me!

My sis has a room, though Yogi is in there too. Mavis has a room of her own. My brother has his own room. The tenant will get to stay in a room by herself @ a cheap rate of $300. What about me? I had to share a room with my mom!

No privacy! Johnson got to continuing sleeping on the mattress laid on the floor when he comes over. I got to share my cupboard, wardrobes, etc with my mom! I am so fed-up!!!

What's more... I have to pay for the renovation, the furniture (including for that tenant!) and to HDB for all the nitty gritty fees. I will be paying a bigger portion of the monthly instalment as compared to my sister BUT I DUN GET A BIGGER PORTION OF EVERTHING AT HOME!!!

I am really really pissed off with my mom for wanting to sub-let a room out to an outsider!!! Why do I have to buy a 5-room flat then??? *Sighz*

My brother took away the TV that was supposed to be placed in my room. The fan that is supposed to be in the living room was taken away by my brother. Mavis had no fan in her room so she needed a fan and she took sis' fan to use. Sis took my fan and again everyone had a fan except ME!!! I HAD TO SLEEP W/O A FAN ON MY FIRST NITE IN THE HOUSE!!!

WHY? This is very unfair, isn't it? My brother who is not contributing much to the household gets everything in his room. Even the computer in his room was actually meant for me from my uncle!

I cannot share these unhappiness with anyone else. Not even Johnson! So what if I let him know I am unhappy. There won't be any solution and he might even make bad remarks about my family or even if he dun speak up, he thinks bad remarks!

People will comment (prob behind my back) that I am stupid to let them stay in my flat if they got to know these. BUT CAN I DUN LET THEM STAY?? Where should they stay?

If Johnson had gotten married with me, I will probably not have to share room with someone else.

If one day I were to be too unhappy about all these, I will quarrel with my family members and it is going to be very bad.

I wondered if my mom ever thought if I am happy and what do I want?