I was surprised by myself.
In less than a day, I've made the decision to take up a shop and went to source for suitable suppliers and embarked onto the pathway of an entrepreneur... ...
Everything was like "chop chop curry pok"! 3 days after I have made the decision, our business started and today is our first day!!!
It's not going to be easy but I am hopeful!
It's our 6th anniversary. I didn't know what to get for my boyfriend as valentine's day was just over and he had already received some gifts. After thinking hard, I decided to make some cup cakes for him!
Together with Baking Chef Karen's expertise advice and help, I managed to make some decent cupcakes for my dearest boyfriend. I brought the cupcakes to his office and he shared it with his colleagues :) *again, he didn't to take a picture of the cupcakes*
I am easily satisfied with my own achievements. Hehe... so i am proud that I could make cupcakes that are edible :p Still, I really have to thank Karen for having to wake up so early and spent time coaching and helping me :)
After sending the little gift to his office, I made my way to take a bus to Suntec and had a bowl of Ramen @ the Food court. After enjoying my lunch, I went SHOPPING!!! hehehe... ...
Many hours passed and I began to feel tired, wanted to catch a movie but the screening only start @ 4+ in the evening. I made myself comfortable in a sofa seat at a corner in GV and played with the PSP till I am tired then I took a nap. Around 6pm, Oliver came and joined me while LC came around 7+. My Dear Dear also made allowance and attended only 1.5 hrs of class and came to join us for dinner.
After dinner, I went back with my boyfriend to bring his barang barang to my place as we were departing for Genting the next day. However, when we got out from his house, it started to pour heavily and no cab stopped for us, though there are no passengers. Poor dear dear was drenched! Luckily, a cabby stopped at the petrol station for a break and was willing to send us home :) Good thing that Oliver & LC didn't come with us or all of us would be drenched!
*haha* When we arrived at the carpark, both of us were so cartoon, yah? ;)
Home Sweet Home and turned in early as we got to wake up @ 5am the next day
My boyfriend made a reservation for dinner @ The Line. It was their Seafood night with free flow of Wine, Beer, Soft drinks & Juices!
Fish Maw Soup & White Wine
Lobsters+Oysters+Scallops+Prawns+Clams+Crabs+whatever seafood you named!
Seafood Dim Sum
Scallops in Mushroom Cheese+Cereals Prawn+Grilled Prawns & Salmon+Seafood Fried Rice
Drunkard Prawn with Chinese Wine
(The Chef took the live prawns and dumped them into the boiling water,
added alot of wine and served it to us! *woohoo*)
Indian Gourmet
Chilli Crab+Bun
Crepe with Mango fillings *yummy*
L@@K at the selection of desserts *mouth watering*
Our Desserts
Johnny and his 'kuei kuei'
Yummy Tiramisu
My Paper Prata or Hat Prata(?)
Fruits Fruits Fruits
It has been really long since I last post an entry here... ...
Hasn't got the time and equipment (my lappy died on me!) to do so but I supposed I do have many to update. Shall do it soon :)
Alright *havent been using this word for a long time* I am going to Sentosa today (though it's drizzling)!!! Will definitely post the pictures up here after the outing :)
Hullo Carebears!
It has been a long time since we had an outing.
Shall we hold a picnic @ the Marina Barrage next Sat (28 Feb 09) afternoon?
Johnson & I been there once and that place is cool. We can fly kite, play games and makan. If majority of us are okay with it, we should start planning now.
Please revert your interest by 24 Feb 09 (Tues). Thank you! (^_^)
I suddenly have the urge to get into his Facebook this morning and I discovered that he started to send messages to the lady since 17 Sep 08! That was the day we went to register for our ROM date! It led me to think if she is one of the factor for not wanting to ROM with me. He told me that she was not one of the causes – I hope it is true.
Sighz... ... I still don't feel secure. I am still worried that he still likes her. I can't really stop him from contacting her if he really want to do it (cos I wouldn't know if he had want to hide it from me). All I can do now is to salvage this relationship and pray to god for help. I am also praying hard that he won't email or msg the lady Valentine's Day greeting. I hope he will really keep his promise to me and cut off contact with her.
I should not bring up this lady anymore. At times, I dunno if I am stupid or clever. I wondered how things are going to be like if I hadn't confront him. I really hope that we can start afresh and bring the relationship back on track.
Today I told myself that I will try not to expose him anymore if I saw any mails or messages between them. If he has promised me to cut off contact but secretly still want to continue “making” friends with her, it would mean the end for both of us. Even now, if he wants to set up a new email acc solely for communicating with her, he could do it w/o my knowledge. If this really happened, it would be very sad. Sighz...
I am still pondering over the qtn - Am I easily replaced?
I proposed to him that we could go for counselling on how to tackle the current problems and he agreed. I was happy with his reaction. Even if it was just to bluff me, I am still happy.
Suddenly I became very negative. I kept having the fear that he will leave me and I just keep sighing. If he really decides to leave me... ... I cannot imagine how to survive w/o him as he has been in my life for the past 5 years.
If I had known but not confronted him, how would the situation be like? Given my personality, I cannot control such emotions and once I find out, I got to talk it out. This whole thing somehow led me to think song – xiang shui you du. All these also triggered my memory to recall a story about a man and his wife who was a civil servant... It was a good ending for her and I hope it would be a good one for me too.
No mood to work. Keep looking forward to knock off and meeting him. It's like we've just started our relationship and I am yearning to meet him every minute! I hope this is a good thing.
I think he was right. He said that I have been behaving in a paranoid manner since day 1. I feel very tense up and cold. I fear. I fear of losing him. Though he promised that he will not contact her again but I am worried that he will not keep his promise.
Whenever my phone rings or there's a msg coming in, I hope that it is from him. I feel upset and disappointed when I know that he wasn't the one on the other line. I went into Facebook last night and saw her pictures. She wasn't the very pretty kinda lady but is good enuff to capture his attention. Adventurous and sporty and not too skinny – just right. I am just too fat and boring for him, I supposed.
All that is occupying my mind is how to convince his family to accept mavis and I, what we should do to get married, etc... I also kept thinking about us. Too many memories, too many stuff in these 5 years and I still love him very much, I cant let go :(
Every now and then I feel my heart shiver. I feel cold. This is terrible. Each time I prayed, I asked god to let us be together and bai tou dao lao.
Just now while I was working, I thought of this: because he sees no future in us, he decided to open his options to others. I asked myself “I am easily replaced?” Very sad.
I dared not say too much or asked too much because one email from me can made him change his mind to not marry me and I feared that another email of sentence from me would allow him to decide to leave me for good *sob sob*
It has been 5 years, nearing to 6 since we had been together on 5 Mar 03.
We had really been through alot during this 6-years and we were still together. However, I am very worried that everything is going to change soon... ...
I have least expected him to have a change of heart. He had always assured me about how faithful he is but I just found out that he is wooing a colleague of his - Chan Yit Ying. Nice name. From his description, she is a very adventurous and sporty lady -- his type of coffee. I also found out that he had left "things" (which I assumed were gifts) on her desk more than once. He also expressed his feelings to her.
I was terribly upset when I read those emails yesterday. I burst out crying immediately. I just cannot control my emotions and kept crying while I was at work. I kept asking myself if 6 years are going to end just like that.
When I confronted him, he was alittle stunt. He didn't want to admit about it initially. However, when I mentioned her name, he said he has not done anything wrong to me and treat her like a colleague. I know he was lying.
I didn't go to class and when to meet up with him after work. I have got no mood to work. I almost wanna take 1/2 day and go look for him.
My feet were soft, heart were sinking and I hope that all were just a joke. I hope that it was just a dream.
Since we were back together on 1st day of CNY, I told myself that he is the one I am going to settle down with and I wanna be with him til death do us part.
He told me he can't see any future ahead of us! That sentence hurt me very much. I have said many hurtful words to him too and I think this is my retribution. BUT can I beg God please dun take him away from me. I can't survive without him. He has occupied the other half of my life. W/O him, my life is empty and I would be half dead.
It was really a big blow to me and I couldn't eat or sleep for the whole of last night. I fear of losing him. I kept thinking how to make everything work out well. to a certain extend, i am desperate over him.
On my way to meet him, I kept crying (yes on the bus). It was embarrassing but I dun give a damn. What is more impt than losing my loved ones? I also kept thinking what should we say when we meet. I feared that it would be our last meeting.
I took him to the seat round the fountain @ suntec where we sat and began our relationship 5 years 11 mths and 4 days ago. I thought if he wants to end the relationship (though I would be very much reluctant to, it would be at that pl too.) After break-up, I will always go there because suntec itself is a place filled with our memories.
When we sat there, he told me that he doesn't like the lady. It wasn't even a crush. He was just trying to make friends with her and open himself to more options cos he doesn't see a future in us.
He also told me that he is old enuff to set up a family and since that he doesn't see a future in us and all the hurtful words i said to him since sept 08 (wre all our probs arised), we should part.
In this relationship, i had cried once @ ITE Bishan when we quarrelled (for the 1st time) and he came to look for me. Then I cried again terribly when he was going overseas for studies. Then I cried again terribly when he told his friends he had long wanted to break off with me. Next, it was about our marriage in sep and oct where i had cried damn terribly. yesterday was the 5th time i cried and feeling damn terribly than ever. I hope there will be no more tears in this relationship and if there were ever tears, i hope it would be tears of laughter shared between us from now where we have decided to start all over again.
I have really tried to change my attitube towards his family and I am even willing to move in to stay with him, together with mavis. I also told him that I will go with him together to speak to his family about our marriage and mavis when the time comes. God, please let both of us work things out.
He also promised me not to contact that lady anymore and I really hope that he will keep his promise.
My Doctor told me that my sored eyes will not spread by "seeing". The virus will only be spreaded if you touch the affected areas and not wash your hands after that and of course, sharing of towels kinda stuff.
I dunno if mine was sored eyes but it was quite bad and it has been 2 weeks, I am still in the midst of recovery -- though it is getting better day after day. Or was it eye infection? Is eye infection and sored eyes under the same category?
It was kinda scary to me when my vision was kinda affected -- blurred. You won't understand how I feel unless you have the same experience as I do :) At one point, I was thinking if this is some new deadly virus and I am going to become blind or perhaps die at a very slow rate. Hmm... ... *My imaginations can run really wild!*
Anyway, this virus has somehow spreaded to Johnson on Tues and his sored eyes or infected eyes is somehow quite jialat. He had MC but due to many important meetings to attend, he had to continue working and strained his eyes even more. He had seen the doctor again yesterday and hopefully he will recover soon.
I supposed the same virus has also spread to my colleague who had also seen the doctor twice and was very worried about her eyes. She has been given MC from last Thurs till next Tues. Poor me -- I would have gotten longer MCs too but I couldn't go away due to the deadline of my event.
KJ had to go on 5 days medical leave too due to his wisdom tooth surgery!
The virus had somehow also spread to my little princess yesterday! She woke up with her eyes alittle red and then became very red later in the day. *Oh dear* Doctor gave her 2 days MC as well but I couldn't go away on Monday because there is no one around in office!!! Timing for all these is just so bad.
I dunno why they all kanna the virus. I was already in the midst of recovery and my eyes were like not really red anymore but they are catching the virus.
It was been like 2 weeks or so when he had last seen my little princess. I guess she probably kanna the sored eyes due to the dust. So much dust due to all the shifting and moving, packing and unpacking... ...
As for Johnson and my colleague -- no idea how they kanna the virus. Was it mine? If so, why did the doctor say that it would not spread thru "Seeing"???
I am having mood swings again. I am starting to have thoughts on breaking up with him again. At times I asked if I am happy with him. I asked if things would turn out better or worst after marriage. I asked if it is a good thing that we didn't get married.
I am beginning to see all my friends (with partners) getting married. Even the last one, among the few friends, had been taken off the shelf. I'm the only one left and I am the only one being mocked about.
Ha. When people used to tell me about how selfish their boyfriends / hubbies were, I used to criticise them and thank god that Johnson is not selfish.
When I used to listen to people saying that their boyfriends refused to settle down, etc, I will wondered why these people are like that and thank god that Johnson is not so.
So many things happened around me and I always thank god that Johnson is not like them BUT I am so wrong. Either I am wrong in judgement or that I am experiencing my retribution -- I am experiencing all that I have heard about from friends around me!!!
Few days ago when I was deleting messages from my hp, I saw those SMSes he sent me. He claimed that I should just sit back and wait for him to propose and that he will do it when the time comes. He told me not to rush and he will plan for it BUT WHAT's noW??? Everything got back to zero though he proposed.
Fortune teller said that once I got married and divorced, I won't have a 2nd marriage. That's probably truth. Initially, I was still very confident to proof the fortune teller wrong!
Whenever I had these mood change, I would think that I should not continue to be with him and that I should just quietly let go. Sighz...
I ever said that if he didn't propose to me by last year, I would break off with him but he did. Just that we didn't get married.
Everyone feels that he is very good to me. How do they define "good"? Am I not good for him? If that's the case then shouldn't we just end off instead of wasting each other's time?
I need companion. He's the only one who can give me most of his time. If I were to break off with him, I would have to be all alone again. How sad. Is it more saddening to stay on just for companionship and feel unhappy within myself at the same time?
I think everyone in my family is happy except me!
My sis has a room, though Yogi is in there too. Mavis has a room of her own. My brother has his own room. The tenant will get to stay in a room by herself @ a cheap rate of $300. What about me? I had to share a room with my mom!
No privacy! Johnson got to continuing sleeping on the mattress laid on the floor when he comes over. I got to share my cupboard, wardrobes, etc with my mom! I am so fed-up!!!
What's more... I have to pay for the renovation, the furniture (including for that tenant!) and to HDB for all the nitty gritty fees. I will be paying a bigger portion of the monthly instalment as compared to my sister BUT I DUN GET A BIGGER PORTION OF EVERTHING AT HOME!!!
I am really really pissed off with my mom for wanting to sub-let a room out to an outsider!!! Why do I have to buy a 5-room flat then??? *Sighz*
My brother took away the TV that was supposed to be placed in my room. The fan that is supposed to be in the living room was taken away by my brother. Mavis had no fan in her room so she needed a fan and she took sis' fan to use. Sis took my fan and again everyone had a fan except ME!!! I HAD TO SLEEP W/O A FAN ON MY FIRST NITE IN THE HOUSE!!!
WHY? This is very unfair, isn't it? My brother who is not contributing much to the household gets everything in his room. Even the computer in his room was actually meant for me from my uncle!
I cannot share these unhappiness with anyone else. Not even Johnson! So what if I let him know I am unhappy. There won't be any solution and he might even make bad remarks about my family or even if he dun speak up, he thinks bad remarks!
People will comment (prob behind my back) that I am stupid to let them stay in my flat if they got to know these. BUT CAN I DUN LET THEM STAY?? Where should they stay?
If Johnson had gotten married with me, I will probably not have to share room with someone else.
If one day I were to be too unhappy about all these, I will quarrel with my family members and it is going to be very bad.
I wondered if my mom ever thought if I am happy and what do I want?
I was clearing my stuff on Wednesday night and happened to clear a box, that was kept in the store room--out of my reach, where I kept the stuff I used during my secondary school days... ...
I found quite a bit of stuff which I had long forgotten. My mom saw them and said that I have long graduated from secondary school and it's time to throw away those stuff (e.g. O'level 10-year Series, Projects, Text books, etc)
There was this particular group project about “Friends” and it was named "The 6 Musketeers". I can't recall much. As I browsed thru the pages (all photos and captions), I was trying to find out why this proj was done, what it was all about, which subject was it meant for, etc etc. All I could tell was it is a CME Proj (what the hell is CME? Civils Moral?) done in Sec 3 -- *hehe* However, one thing for sure – I was the one doing the compiling and design etc cos it was so "my" style! Though it was a group project of 4 pax (-_-”)
Though I can't recall much, the photos kinda remind me of my fav song -- Memories and I began to hum quietly to myself... ...
Midnight - not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory,
She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet,
And the wind begins to moan.
Memory - all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days,
I was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.
Every street light seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and the streetlamp gutters,
and soon it will be morning.
Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise.
I must think of a new life,
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too,
And a new day will begin.
Burnt out ends of smokey days,
the stale cold smell of morning.
The streetlamp dies, another night is over,
another day is dawning.
Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun.
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.
Another thought also hit me while I was browsing at the photographs -- Friendship.
There were 6 musketeers. It was a proj among 4 of us in the class, cannot recall why we added the other 2 into the picture as well. Worst - one of them is more of an acquaintance rather than friends but we were the so-called good friends in the project!!! (-_-")
Among the 6 of us, one of them hated me (and I wonder if he still hates me?). The other 2 were added into my acquaintance list many years ago while the initial acquaintance remained as an acquaintance. The last one had also been added into my list of acquaintance! That total up to 5 musketeers. WOW... I should have a rather long list of acquaintance by now.
I just realised -- everything (and I really mean every damn thing) needs to be taken care of (or maintain) and of cos fate plays a part too, if you believe it :)
I also began to believe that there is no such things as "Forever Friends" like what we used to write in those autograph books when we were very young. I supposed a more realistic word would probably be "be friends for as long as fate decides" or "as we could".
The last thing that I hope were to go away would be memories... ...
Before I embarke on today's topic, I wanna give an update about myself (Yes, I am self-centred!). My eyes should be in the recovery stage -- though still blurred vision and uncomfortable at times. I hope I would recover by Sunday, else I would have to visit the Doctor again.
Busy with CNY stuff at work -- invitations have been increased from 700+ to 1000++ guests (-_-") Hope that KJ & I could complete this project successfully.
I'm the kinda who will think about many things while doing other stuff. Therefore... ...
While I was ironing my daughter's uniform yesterday, I was thinking about the movie "YES MAN". I had multiply thoughts at the same time. Am I a YES MAN? Why should I be one?? How could I be a better YES MAN but not to "harm" myself??? How would I being a YES MAN benefit from it????? Who is a YES MAN? Is so and so a YES MAN?? Is "A" a YES MAN? Is "B" a YES MAN?? "hmm.. maybe!" (and my thoughts just continued while I was ironing) and then I asked myself "Is Cas a YES MAN?" My mind told me that she is a YES MAN (most of the time) but another voice told me she might turn into a NO MAN when more "not-so-good" situations take place in her life or maybe she has already partially become a NO MAN (??).
What I am trying to say... ...
Cas is usually fine with almost everything (of course she has her own stand and will speak up when need arises) but then on and off people took advantage of her YES MAN attitube and then she became fed-up and she will want to turn nasty and maintain a NO MAN attitube. -- then I thought.. that would be sad huh. *I frowned to myself and continued ironing* I told myself I must ask her one of these days... ...
I received XS's SMS this morning to inform that her sis is unable to rep Kenny. The next person that came into my mind was Cas (We had actually asked her to join us for the movie but she didn't want to because she did not watch Part 1.) Therefore, I decided to try my luck and smsed her, thinking that she will reject me and she promptly replied "OK!"
這篇文章分享給每一個在 為夢想努力奮鬥的你，提醒我們在努力追求夢想的同時，
千萬不要忘了最初的本心。
心若改變，你的態度跟著改變；
態度改變，你的習慣跟著改變；
習慣改變，你的性格跟著改變；
性格改變，你的人生跟著改變。
有個老魔鬼看到人間的生活過得太幸福了，他 說：「我們要去擾亂一下，要不然魔鬼就不存在了。」
他先派了一個小魔鬼去擾亂一個農夫。因為他看到那農夫每天辛勤地工作，可是所得卻少得可憐，但他還是那麼快樂，非常知足。
小魔鬼就開始想，要怎樣才能把農夫變壞呢？他就把農夫的田地變得很硬，讓農夫知難而退。
那農夫敲半天，做得好辛苦，但他只是休息一下，還是繼續敲，沒有一點抱怨。小魔鬼看到計策失敗，只好摸摸鼻子回去了。
老魔鬼又派了第二個去。第二個小魔鬼想，既然讓他更加辛苦也沒有用，那就拿走他所擁有的東西偷走，他想，農夫做得那麼辛苦，又累又餓，卻連麵包跟水都不見了，這下子他一定會暴跳如雷。
農夫又渴又餓地到樹下休息，想不到麵包跟水都不見了!「不曉得是哪個可憐的人比我更需要那塊麵包跟水? 如果這些東西就能讓他得溫飽的話，那就好了。」又失敗了, 小魔鬼又棄甲而逃
老魔鬼覺得奇怪，難道沒有任何辦法能使這農夫變壞？就在這時第三個小魔鬼出來了。他對老魔鬼講：「我有辦法，一定能把他變壞。」
小魔鬼先去跟農夫做朋友，農夫很高興地和他作了朋友。因為魔鬼有預知的能力，他就告訴農夫，明年會有乾旱，教農夫把稻種在濕地上，農夫便照做。結果第二年別人沒有收成，只有農夫的收成滿坑滿谷，他就因此而富裕起來了。
小魔鬼又每年都對農夫說當年適合種什麼，三年下來，這農夫就變得非常富有。
他又教農夫把米拿去釀酒販賣，賺取更多的錢。慢慢地，農夫開始不工作了，靠著經濟販賣的方式，就能獲得大量金錢。
有一天，老魔鬼來了，小魔鬼就告訴老魔鬼說：「您看！我現在要展現我的成果。這農夫現在已經有豬的血液了。」只見農夫辦了個晚宴，所有富有的人都來參加；喝最好的酒，吃最精美的餐點，還有好多的僕人侍候。他們非常浪費地吃喝，衣裳零亂，醉得不省人事，開始變得像豬一樣癡肥愚蠢。
「您還會看到他身上有著狼的血液。」小魔鬼又說。
這時，一個僕人端著葡萄酒出來，不小心跌了一跤。
農夫就開始罵他：「你做事這麼不小心！」
「唉！主人，我們到現在都沒有吃飯，餓得渾身無力。」
事情沒有做完，你們怎麼可以吃飯！」
老魔鬼見了，高興地對小魔鬼說：「唉！ 你太了不起！你是怎麼辦到的？」
小魔鬼說：「我只不過是讓他擁有比他需要的更多而已，這樣就可以引發他人性中的貪婪。」
It was so bad that it affect my vision and it actually hurts alot when I tried to work on the computer and it just keep tearing.
It was so painful and sored and affected the other eyes as well and I was left with no choice but to see a doctor. Doctor said that my infection was very bad and if it doesn't get any better w/in 2 days, I should go back to him for referral to a Eye Specialist. 
Today is the 2nd day of my MC. I thought it would be better after all the eye drops etc but doesn't really seems so. Hmm... ... *What is happening?* I woke up early today to prepare for work but like just like ytd, I didn't make it to work. The irritation was just soooooooo bad and it is affecting my mood!!!
Arrrrrggggggg... ...
儿时，小男孩家很穷，吃饭时，饭常常不够吃，母亲就把自己碗里的饭分给孩子吃。母亲说，孩子们，快吃吧，我不饿！――母亲撒的第一个谎
男孩长身体的时候，勤劳的母亲常用周日休息时间去县郊农村河沟里捞些鱼来给孩子们补钙。鱼很好吃，鱼汤也很鲜。孩子们吃鱼的时候，母亲就在一旁啃鱼骨头，用舌头舔鱼骨头上的肉渍。男孩心疼，就把自己碗里的鱼夹到母亲碗里，请母亲吃鱼。母亲不吃，母亲又用筷子把鱼夹回男孩的碗里。母亲说，孩子，快吃吧，我不爱吃鱼！――母亲撒的第二个谎。
上初中了，为了缴够男孩和哥姐的学费，当缝纫工的母亲就去居委会领些火柴盒拿回家来，晚上糊了挣点分分钱补点家用。有个冬天，男孩半夜醒来，看到母亲还躬着身子在油灯下糊火柴盒。男孩说，母亲，睡了吧，明早您还要上班呢。母亲笑笑，说，孩子，快睡吧，我不困！――母亲撒的第三个谎
高考那年，母亲请了假天天站在考点门口为参加高考的男孩助阵。时逢盛夏，烈日当头，固执的母亲在烈日下一站就是几个小时。考试结束的铃声响了，母亲迎上去递过一杯用罐头瓶泡好的浓茶叮嘱孩子喝了，茶亦浓，情更浓。望着母亲干裂的嘴唇和满头的汗珠，男孩将手中的罐头瓶反递过去请母亲喝。母亲说，孩子，快喝吧，我不渴！――母亲撒的第四个谎。
父亲病逝之后，母亲又当爹又当娘，靠着自己在缝纫社里那点微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着几个孩子，供他们念书，日子过得苦不堪言。胡同路口电线杆下修表的李叔叔知道后，大事小事就找岔过来打个帮手，搬搬煤，挑挑水，送些钱粮来帮补男孩的家里。人非草木，孰能无情。左邻右舍对此看在眼里，记在心里，都劝母亲再嫁，何必苦了自己。然而母亲多年来却守身如玉，始终不嫁，别人再劝，母亲也断然不听，母亲说，我不爱！――母亲撒的第五个谎
男孩和她的哥姐大学毕业参加工作后，下了岗的母亲就在附近农贸市场摆了个小摊维持生活。身在外地工作的孩子们知道后就常常寄钱回来补贴母亲，母亲坚决不要，并将钱退了回去。母亲说，我有钱！――母亲撒的第六个谎
男孩留校任教两年，后又考取了美国一所名牌大学的博士生，毕业后留在美国一家科研机构工作，待遇相当丰厚，条件好了，身在异国的男孩想把母亲接来享享清福却被老人回绝了。母亲说，我不习惯！――母亲撒的第七个谎
晚年，母亲患了胃癌，住进了医院，远在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飞机赶回来时，术后的母亲已是奄奄一息了。母亲老了，望着被病魔折磨得死去活来的母亲，男孩悲痛欲绝，潸然泪下。母亲却说，孩子，别哭，我不疼。――母亲撒的第八个谎
不论你多富有,不管你多大,到什么时候也离不开咱的妈....
Left office at almost 2pm though I should have knock off @ 12.30pm but I was not the last to leave. Pat was still in office rushing her PMR. 31 Dec 08 is a deadline for many things :)
I stayed back because inputs for CNY addition data only came in @ 12+. However, it was a good thing because at least I get to upload the data into my list and feel at ease that I didn't have to come back on 2 Jan 09.
My bf came to pick me up and we went for lunch @ Vivo Food Republic. The Claypot Laska stall had changed and isn't tasty anymore. *Yucks* Must remember do not eat there again!!!
Meet up with the whole group of Bears @ Holland V after dinner for New Year Count Down. We wanted to go Sentosa initially but decided not to due to the possible traffic congestion.
The last thing I remember @ the bar was me popping 2 crackers (??) @ 0000 hrs and shouted "Happy New Year" and I K.O! That's the results for Free Flow -- I must rest for a while before I start drinking again. Try talking to me about wine and I guess I will puke into you... ... (I'll try to even if I dun have e feeling ;p)
Missed my meeting in the morning *oops* Only managed to force myself up from the bed @ 12+ (or was it 1pm?) and meet up with Lichin & my bf for Porridge. Went Vivo again and bought a pair of shoes on this new year! Had dinner with Casper, Oliver & Johnson @ some Korea restaurant in Novena Sq. I'm still kinda in a daze cos I was still kinda suffering from hang ove... ...
Brought Mavis and my mom to Jurong Point in the afternoon. That place is really sooooo cool. However, we left rather early around 7+ cos mom had to rush to the new place to open the door for Yogi *Irritated*
Went home and played Dinner Dash on my PC till 4+ in the morning :p I could have lasted longer if not because my left eye were irritated for heaven knows why.
Sent my mom to Serangoon North to run some errands in the morning then I had brunch @ Beach Road. Realised that my eye is actually sored. Gotta don on my shades and went to the Pharmacy and was advised to get some antiseptic eye drops.
Watched Bed Time Stories by Adam Sandler and went to M. Barage. Oh... how did I forget that I watch YES Man by Jim Carrey during the Christmas season too. I like these 2 guys. They are just soooooo funny. Jim Carrey has aged over these years. Hey and the show YES Man is indeed a very meanful show. I hope people would be able to understand the meaning and practice it in life :)
M. Barage is a very beautiful place. Though crowded but that place gives me a very comfortable feeling. Many people went there for picnic and some were flying their kites. The scene is just so beautiful. I wanna organise an outing to that place!!! :)
Had Fish Soup dinner with Adam and friends and joined them @ Rhythm, followed by Home Sweet Home.
It's Sunday!!! Woke up @ 11+ and had a cup noodles for brunch. Watched TV and did some work on the computer. Meet up with Casper @ Tampines. Johnson picked us up after his wedding lunch @ Regent Hotel. We went Killiney Kopitiam for coffee and egg as tea break! :) and bought Casper to The Line for dinner as her Christmas gift.
Home Sweet Home. Prepared myself for 1st day of work in 2009!!!
The month of December seems like a gathering month for me. I had many oppuntunities to meet up with friends whom I have not seen or heard from for ages. Let me do a recap:
- I meet up with Steve & Lee Ling
- I attended Edmund's wedding and met Darren & Gerald.
- I attended Choon How's wedding and met up with almost the whole ex-PCDians! *Wow*
- I visited Ms Yeo on Christmas
I had a gathering with the Care bears
Due to current workload, preparation for my new flat & weeks spent scouting for Christmas gifts, December's schedule have been rather packed! I have got no time to do many other stuff like making an appointment to do a Hair Treatment which I needed very badly; no time to book a schedule for Mani/Pedi; etc etc. There are friends who have been asking me for dinner but my schedule just couldn't fit them in :(
I made an effort to meet up a friend for dinner last night. It has been more than a year ago since we had a good chat. Distance indeed have drift us apart but I am really happy and appreciates that she has been asking me to arrange time for dinner with her. I was very paisei and had promised to make time to for her after she sent me an SMS last week. Firstly, I kept calling her name wrongly and when I msg her, it was for other purposes – not to ask her out. 2ndly, she said “I thot you wanted to say “llooks like we gotta meet up soon” but ... ... :( -- my actually msg was “looks like we've got to look arnd agn”
Therefore, we meet up for dinner. We did some catching up and she shared with me about her religion and in almost every 5 sentences she said, at least 3 sentences mentioned about her religion. *haha* I am happy that she has found a religion that she has faith in. She also told me that she has changed a lot ever since she joined her religion. She quit smoking and had mellow down on her temper, which is a good thing.
At the same time, I could also feel that she was trying to introduce her religion to me :)
Anyway, I have some thoughts after my conversation with her... ...
She highlighted that she doesn't understand why people get so tense when they are invited to church. (Good question!)
She was previously a Buddhist/Taoist and she couldn't understand why there are so many different statues to worship? In Christianity, there is only one god and that is Jesus Christ. Isn't it clearer? The rest of the god were created by men! (This doesn't sound wrong. I have heard stories of some deities like Ma Zhu, she was previously a human yah? Guan Yu was previously a soldier and after he was killed, people worship him for some reason.) In fact, there are many of such stories.
She also highlighted that people pay too much attention to Christian. According to her, there are people who made comments such as “Why is this Christian allowed to smoke and drink?”, “Why is this christian behaving like this or like that? etc etc... ... She questioned why people doesn't query about how a buddhist behave? When a buddhist failed to carry himself appropriately, people would not make remarks such as “why this buddhist is behaving like that?”. Instead, people will comment “why is this person behaving like that?”
The month of December seems like a gathering month for me. I had many oppuntunities to meet up with friends whom I have not seen or heard from for ages. Let me do a recap:
- I meet up with Steve & Lee Ling
- I attended Edmund's wedding and met Darren & Gerald.
- I attended Choon How's wedding and met up with almost the whole ex-PCDians! *Wow*
- I visited Ms Yeo on Christmas
- I had a gathering with the Care bears
Due to current workload, preparation for my new flat & weeks spent scouting for Christmas gifts, December's schedule have been rather packed! I have got no time to do many other stuff like making an appointment to do a Hair Treatment which I needed very badly; no time to book a schedule for Mani/Pedi; etc etc. There are friends who have been asking me for dinner but my schedule just couldn't fit them in :(
I made an effort to meet up a friend for dinner last night. It has been more than a year ago since we have had a good chat. Distance indeed have drift us apart but I am really happy and appreciates that she has been asking me to arrange time for dinner with her. I was very paisei and had promised to make time to for her after she sent me an SMS last week. Firstly, I kept calling her name wrongly and when I msg her, it was for other purposes – not to ask her out. 2ndly, she said “I thot you wanted to say “llooks like we gotta meet up soon” but ... ... :( -- my actually msg was “looks like we've got to look arnd agn”
Therefore, we meet up for dinner. We did some catching up and she shared with me about her religion and in almost every 5 sentences she said, at least 3 sentences mentioned about her religion. *haha* I am happy that she has found a religion that she has faith in. She also told me that she has changed a lot ever since she joined her religion. She quit smoking and had mellow down on her temper, which is a good thing.
At the same time, I could also feel that she was trying to introduce her religion to me :)
Anyway, she left me with some thoughts after our meeting... ...
She highlighted that she doesn't understand why people get so tense when they are invited to church. (Good question! Personally, I am reluctant to go into a church because I feel that I am not ready for the religion and the people there are very pushy. Just like when you go for some trial services and they will keep talking you into joining them. If you tell them you need time to consider, they will press you for an answer and wanna know your doubts.)
She was previously a Buddhist/Taoist but while she was in the midst of switching her religion, she began to question why there are so many different statues to worship in Buddhism? In Christianity, there is only one god and that is Jesus Christ. Isn't it clearer? The rest of the god were created by men! (This doesn't sound wrong. I have heard stories of some deities like Ma Zhu, she was previously a human yah? Guan Yu was previously a soldier and after he was killed, people worship him for some reason. In fact, there are many of such stories.)
She also highlighted that people pay too much attention to Christian. According to her, there are people who made comments such as “Why is this Christian allowed to smoke and drink?”, “Why is this christian behaving like this or like that? etc etc... ... She questioned why people doesn't query about how a buddhist behave? When a buddhist failed to carry himself appropriately, people would not make remarks such as “why is this buddhist behaving like that?”. Instead, people will comment “why is this person behaving like that?” (I think I have ever made such a comment "Is Muslim allowed to drink?" I think it is not just about Christian. In fact, I have not heard about people commenting about why are Christian like this and like that. Personally, I thought she feel that way because she is very conscious about how people think of her religion.)
She commented that everyone only criticise about Christian. No one reject the other religion because the demon will not destroy their own kind. (hmm... I respect the other religions and I trust that others should do so too.)
Unlike previous years, this christmas was alittle different to me. It was some weird feeling which I can't describe.
It was raining Cats & Dogs in the morning. As usual, John sent me to work but I only reached office @ 9.15am (it's like 1h 15 mins late!!!), which means John reached office even later than me!!! We were stucked in the traffic along Mandai Road because some trees had fallen down and landed on the 3 lanes. None of the cars were able to move. Some drivers who didn't listen to Class 95 had no idea what caused the congestion. Hence, they got off their car with their umbrellas and made their way to the front to find out what happened. I definitely wouldn't get my butt off the car in such weather!
In fact, many people were late (not that they were stuck @ Mandai). Practically all the expressways have congestion. What's new? It was raining!!!
I am so tempted to take leave and just head home to sleep. Anyway, it was already so late... ... and I am so paisei to arrive late for work :(
MA came back from the medical centre shortly after I reached. He have had fever for many days and doesn't seems to recover even though he had seen the doctor and taken medication – Doctor from hospital said that he was suspected of Dengue! Guess he was still feeling unwell when he came to work so he made an appt to see the MO and was given 1-day MC.
I've served 3 MAs and he is the 1st one who goes on MC when boss is around. *heh* Anyway, boss stayed til about 3pm before going home. I bet he has forgotten that all employees are entitled to work for 4 hrs on Christmas Eve!!!
I went off around 12.30pm and took a ride from Hsi Lyiang to Ms Yeo's house. It has been almost 2 years since I last meet up with her. I have always wanted to pay her a visit during Mooncake festival but never had the time to do so. I was determined to visit her this Christmas and I did it! I bought some gifts for her and her family. We had a chat but I hope we could still chat longer. I have got so much to tell her and I still needed lotsa her advice. She has watched me entered into this society at the age of 19 and seeing me grew up till 28! When she recalled, she also feel that it has been many years and I have definitely changed a lot. She also commented that I have become prettier and I dress better :) Good to hear that. Recently at Choon How's wedding, Sue also complimented that I have become prettier. Why did they only realise now?? *haha.. shameless me* Before I left, we gave me a hug.
I still remember that the first time she gave me a hug was on our last working day and the feeling wasn't good. Saddness crept into me. The 2nd time when she gave me a hug before I took my leave, I was alittle relief but alittle sad at the same time too.
No one was around when I reached home. I began to wrap the remaining pressies and start preparing dinner when everyone came home. There were many more pressies this year for everyone :) I thank Buddha that life is slowly improving for us :)
Johnson helped to prepare the soup of the day while I re-heat the Smoked Chicken, Ham & Saugages. Dinner was good but it could be merrier if we had everyone joining us. Yogi had to return to Ipoh as his brother was getting married on that Sat. My brother had to meet his friends for Christmas dinner.
After dinner, it was Santa's time! Santa is supposed to give out pressies to everyone at home :) Mavis bought me a Piglet. *Hehe* I had actually pestered her to buy me one since my b'day in Nov this year! I love the Piglet very much because it is from my lovely Princess!!!
Little Joy had a pressie from us too. I believed she loves her new toy very much too :)
After Santa's time, each of us had a Magnum Ice Cream! *Yum Yum* We began to snack, drank beer (while Johnson had his Raspberry Volka *Yucks* and Mavis sipped on her F&N Grape) and watched TV.
Lastly, Thank you Santa Casper for taking the trouble to purposely make a trip over to my place on Christmas eve night to distribute pressies to us!!! :)
