Lunch Time

Yesterday's lunch time was kinda short. Time duration is always short when you enjoyed it - that is human nature.

Anyway, I had lunch with Chris yesterday. The last time I dine with him was a year ago.

Chatting with him has always been relaxing and enjoyable. At the same time, I missed the times when we used to work together :) Sometimes I really missed my old department but it is no longer a nice place anymore and I should never go back there agn unless things have change for the better.

We talked about his job (same thing.. busy busy BUSY!). That is the similarity in all jobs, isn't it huh? *haha* Talked about Mavis, the current education standard, etc etc.

Surprised Chris told me he just got married and shifted to Yishun Ave 11 (while I am staying in Yishun St 11). He didn't invite us because he wanted it to be simple. Anyway, happy for him.

Exams Exams Exams... ...

Exams for the 1st term is finally over. 2 modules down. 13 more to go *Jia You*

I have no idea how well or badly *crossed fingers* i fare for my ES & QS paper. All I pray is to let me pass them *Praying hard*

ES was not exactly difficult for me. So far, language, especially written ones, has never been a difficulty for me. However, you have absolutely no idea how stressful I was, especially for QS paper.

Anyway, I took 2 days exam leave for each paper. Hence, for the past 2 weeks, I only worked for 3 days a week == shiok - but it's over :(

I studied the whole ES Textbook and did all the revision worksheets and a mock exam paper given by Gladys. Glad that I did them because quite a couple of them came out in the exam paper. Actually I hope to score well for my ES.

Honestly, I didn't know how to go about revising my QS. I have 0% of confidence for this subject. Not because I didn't attend or pay attention in class but because I have been "achieving wonderful" F9s for similar subjects *Sweat*

I printed out all the notes and a set of mock exam paper from the lecturer's website. Tried to understand them and do as much qtns as possible. Requirement was to complete 5 out of 7 qtns, hence, I focused on 5 topics only.

Thanks to one of my classmates for sharing past years QS exam papers with us (and i attempted all of them) -- because lecturer didn't provide us with even one set. Initially, I had absolutely no idea how the exam paper would look like.

You wun believe it. I was so stressed up with the revision because I cannot seems to remember anything and I cried lo. ~shame shame~ *haha* On the last day of my revision, I stayed up til almost 2am to finalise my revision before i go to bed and woke up 7am the next day to go for exam :) *hardworking hor :p*

Glad that everything is over. Most importantly, I got to thank Johnson for coming over to my place after work to coach me for that 2 days, as well as help from the Buddhas *I am not joking* Seriously, it was miracle. (^_^)

Smelly Ah Lian

I met this "smell" Ah Lian @ Marina Square Arcade. I was following behind her when she suddenly stopped walking and at the same time, I was making a right turn, my big beautiful bronze bag "touch" her.

Being polite, imy usual reaction was to immediately turn over to her and apologise BUT I regretted so much after i uttered "Sorry" because I found her staring hard at me as if I had threw a stone at her! *TMD*

She stood still and giving me the kind of look that she is ready to pick up a fight. I ignored her and turned away - still feeling stupid that I had apologised to an animal!

Under such circumstances, I would just ignore such bitch. Why should I waste my breath and energy to say anything to it as it wouldn't understand!

At the same time, I thought to myself... ... what if I didn't realise that my big pretty bronze bag "touched" her and hadn't apologise? What would her reaction be?

On the other hand... ... what would have happened if I also stood still and stared at her *appearing as low class as her liao -- unacceptable behaviour!*

Well, sometimes I think I have joined the wrong organisation. If I had joined the Singapore Police Force, what would have happened to her if she try her luck to provoke me? Perhaps, I should ask for an inter-ministry transfer huh... ... Catch all these naughty children a lesson. *wahahaha*

Full of Thoughts

Lately, my mind has been filled with lotsa thoughts (i.e. about human beings, non-living things, relationships, etc etc) and I have been wanting to pen (Oops, i mean blog) down my thoughts. However, I have been so busy and tired + unwell (for almost a week) and that explains why I have not been doing much here (though I frequently viewed new entries uploaded by you, you, you and you :p) -- As the days passes, "newer"thoughts rushed into my mind, causing the "older" thoughts to be pushed behind and eventually I cannot remember the thoughts which I wanted to blog. *HAHAHA*

Hmm... ... instead of sharing with my thoughts, would an update of my whereabouts be more interesting *but who cares about my whereabouts!*

Yesterday, Mavis & I saw the publicity of winning a car thru Lucky Draws @ Carrefour. Mavis then said that if we won that car, she could drive me to work. In my mind, I was thinking if I won the car, I would sell it away for monies. Another thought came "Where would I have such luck to win that car?" -- The devil in me was talking!

Yup, I did win some small prizes (i.e. Free 1-month supply of pizza from Pizza hut, $50 World of Sports Vouchers, Free movie tickets, etc etc) in lucky draws and contests before but I have never won anything big. Suddenly I just feel pessimism about everything and Lilian came into my thoughts.

Lilian often complained to me that nothing goes right for her in life. She could not get a job and has never strike 4D (at least I did strike a few times - though small prizes) and has never won a prize in lucky draws etc and I told her that it's because the time is not right yet and there are good things which had happened to her but she didn't realise. I also told her to be more optimism about life so that things would appear beautiful and good yet here I am feeling pessimistic :( *Devil in me is in action agn*

Sometimes I feel that human relations are tiring to manage. I tend to observe people and tried to interpret them when I first know them. Of course I won't deduce the person during the first few meetings, it would be unfair.

Working environment in office is becoming better ever since Patrina left. Not that she's evil but she is a very strict person and due to some mis-comm and understanding, she is not on talking terms with CC. HOWEVER, the environment would be even better if someone elses leave (okie... it's bad to "make" people leave their job so I will rephrase my sentence -- ... ... if she change into a better person)!

Yes... the person is a SHE! Not nice to mention names in case some idiotic asshole incidentally saw my blog and gossip about it and news spread then ... ... *leave it for you to imagine*

Okay as I was saying... ... if she could just stop trying to "poke/stab" me and leave me alone, I would be happier! I cannot understand why she just couldn't leave me alone when I am just a harmless pig trying to earn a living under the same roof. I dun snatch her portion of salary, I dun snatch her portion of PB or Bonus. Wat's her freaking problem?? *Humph*

Lately I also thought about love relationships. There are some people who thinks that they have been in many relationships and they have already mastered the technics in it and could handle well... ... but I thought "how many experiences are enough?" *haha*

I pondered if there will still be sparks in long-term relationships. Would you still hear your heart beat when you meet your husband / boyfriend of many years? Or would things just move on plainly and wouldn't that be boring? If so, what should you do to make things interesting? Sparks sparks sparks... ... where and how to find?

If feelings get bored and tasteless in long-term relationships, then how do married couples maintain their marriage? Does that explain the high rate of divorce cases? :p

In my opinion, divorce cases are mostly because the men refused to keep their "appetite to one dish". Unfaithful bastards! I wondered if my future husband would be one of them?

Some people just enjoyed new stuff. They cannot stay on to an item for too long -- it appears to human relationship as well. So if one finds his relationship with gf is boring after some time, then how is he going to get married and settle down?

Lousy Conversation on the MSN

On the eve of Deepavali (or already Deepavali as it was 1 plus in the early morning), I was doing doing my project on the laptop. While working on my project, someone in my MSN contact list sent me a msg.

His nick is "the more u love; the more u hurt". Sounds like some innocent fellow who has been hurt by love and some gals would then shower him with attention and care + concern. This person has been on my contact list for many months but I din really reply to his "hi" and would usually ignore him when he msg "intro, pse".

The conversation went on as follow:

the more u love the more u hurt says:

Hi, what happened to u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:

huh? what you mean?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
Nothing. were u from pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
what were i from?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
do u mean wre is it?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
where u stay

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
very strange lei..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
intro again loh ok

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
u make it sound like as if we are in some irc chat and that we are total strangers.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
haaa u inrto again lhoh ok.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
mind?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
(alittle irritated by him) and why dun u intro first?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
26 m johor
u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
me 26/f/sin

the more u love the more u hurt says:
icic. mind show ur pic pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
yes i do

the more u love the more u hurt says:
nvm

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
(I purposely replied) u havent seen my picture on msn before?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
nope i think

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u got bf ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
why is it so impt to see the other party's picture before chatting

the more u love the more u hurt says:
hAAAA

the more u love the more u hurt says:
you got bf

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
how does that ans affects this conversation?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
so do u have a gf?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
break alr

the more u love the more u hurt says:
2 year loh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
single lonely guy i am

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u want me ??? got gal to intro . i got 2 year no gf loh no touch gal loh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
touch gal? (disgusted by his reply!)

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
touch in what sense huh?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
yes

the more u love the more u hurt says:
ml with gal (he meant "make love")

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha.. so that's all typical guys looked for in a relationship huh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u got gal inrto ??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
actually they dun have to look for gfs to touch...
pay $$ and can get liao mah

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
nope. You are not suitable for my gfs!!

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
anyway, i have been wif my bf for 4 years plus

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
and am still together with him

the more u love the more u hurt says:
aiyo pay monry i beter diy lah

the more u love the more u hurt says:
you try 1 9 stand b4 ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
what's the diff? girl also mah

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
how can u be sure that the girlfriend u have is a decent gal..
she might have slept arnd with many different guys before..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u tried b4 loh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
got gal intro to me i want try (bastard!)

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
it's your choice to assume, I dun see the need to clarify too much

the more u love the more u hurt says:
sry

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u got gal to intro ??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha... i dun think I have gals of your choice

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u leh wann try

the more u love the more u hurt says:
hungry wolfe here (Fucking idiot!)

the more u love the more u hurt says:
guy sex??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
woah.. how "exciting" huh!! I dun have to tried it because I have never been deprived from it

the more u love the more u hurt says:
why leh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
bcos unlike people like you, I am not deprived from it..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
sry

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
sry means apologies?

Well, you dun have to cos you dun owe me anything
we are in the 20s, people ask and do whatever they like as long as they dun violate the law
I can chose to ignore people/conversations I dun like!

the more u love the more u hurt says:
haaaa

the more u love the more u hurt says:
mind show ur pic

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
yes i mind

the more u love the more u hurt says:
me 180 70
u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
I dun think i am obliged to tell u.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
icic. ok

the more u love the more u hurt says:
can be friend with you?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
can i have ur phone number pls ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha... calling me from JB?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
how ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
isnt it far?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
yes but i don't mind
sms also can

the more u love the more u hurt says:
pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
nope.. i dun think my bf would like it

the more u love the more u hurt says:
why leh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
no particular reason

the more u love the more u hurt says:
that mean u canot give me ur phone number loh ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
not cannot.. it's more of a I dun feel comfortable and I dun want!

-- then he cannot tahan my kuai-lan attitube and he went offline! haha --

I cannot stand such desperado! So desperate.. go and find means to relieve yourself and not come online to look for preys. Freak!!

Anyway, I deleted and blocked him from my contact list! :p

Schools, Exams, Projects

Today is the last lesson of my ES! Time flies. 15 lessons have passed. I was absent for once and left 1/2 thru the lesson on another occasion. English has always been fun for me because it's something which I use everyday. Lecturer, Gladys Fang, has been good to us throughout the 15 lessons. At the end of the course, I gave her a good evaluation. Hopefully, she will be coaching us on other related HRM subjects.

Lessons over would mean that exam is coming.

Yea... exam is scheduled on 01 Dec 07 @ 0900 hrs in school! *Stress*

I think I should be able to pass my ES but I dunno if I would be able to score well (meaning grade A or at least a B). However, things doesn't look good when I got back my project marks today. We got 17 out of 30 for our ES Project -- the Natty's Convenience Store!

*sob sob* Very disappointed. I really put in lotsa effort for this project. Yet, we only managed to score 17. Gladys was lenient in her marking. Initially, it was just 15 but she added 1 more mark in 2 different sessions and that made us achieved 2 marks more.

Many groups scored better than us. So sad.

I told Gladys we were disappointed - which I really was and I nearly cried when I told her "Very disappointing with our marks"

Anyway, everything is over. Gotta concentrate on my ES exam paper. No point brooding over what has already taken place.

Now we are rushing our QS project, which has not even started and I have 0% confidence for it. As for the exam, it's on 08 Dec 07!!! I sucks in mathematics. How to pass lidat that? Sighz... ... Cannot fail lor. If I failed to make it, I am really useless. Also I have to pay repay $3,600 (or maybe more) to the organisation for sponsoring my studies :(

There is nothing wrong to love someone but ... ...

I always believe that there is nothing wrong about loving someone, even though the person is attached. There is also nothing wrong about expressing your love to someone who is already attached. However, it is not right to ask the person you love to break off with the current girlfriend!!!

How can a girl be so shameless to ask the guy she likes to break off with his current girlfriend?? Do you ever have such a friend who fits my description?

2 Sundays ago, I've experienced a shameless gal who fits my description perfectly!

She is Sue, the China girl I met in Australia. She was Johnson's housemate. Sometimes, women's 6th sense is just so accurate. After dinner, I just mentioned to Johnson about her and she msn-ed him while we were using the laptop.

After telling Johnson that she had just finished watching a drama with her friend and that exam is near the corner, she asked "Hey, when are you going to break off with Judy and be with me! Break off with her and be with me lah"

I was so shock and angry when I read the msg. Showed it to Johnson and he said she was kidding. How could anyone say such thing as a joke? Even if it is a joke, it is not funny!!!

Of course, being a Mr Nice Guy, Johnson didn't tell her off and just asked me to ignore her. I cannot scold her because Johnson would definitely not approve it. In order to stay calm and see what more she has to say, I replied on Johnson's behalf -- with his knowledge, of course.

I replied "huh? You joking?"

Her replied "No. I am serious. Break off with her and be with me."

My reply (given by Johnson) "Crazy"

She began saying that she is serious and that she actually told her dad about him and her dad encouraged her to be a 3rd party and "snatch" him away from me! She also added that she regretted not doing it then when he was in Aus.

Seeing that there was no reply on our end, she continued to say that I am not worthy of Johnson and that I am very bad-tempered. Johnson deserved someone better! *TMD... is she trying to tell Johnson that she is more worthy than me?!* I may be a divorcee with a child which make me less worthy but I will not go around stealing people's boyfriend, even though I love the guy!

I tried to tell her that they are countries apart and it's not possible to develop a relationship ang guess what's her reply? She asked him to return to Aus after he has completed his MBA. I said "No" and she replied "What if I go to Singapore?" -- Woah lao.. so thick-skin!! I asked Johnson what's her real intention of coming to Singapore? To be a Dragon-girl (xiao long nu) is it?

She also told Johnson that she actually wanted to kiss him when they were in Brisbane but didn't do it because she didn't know what he think of her and how he will feel. *TMD.. if she really kissed Johnson, I doubt he will tell me!*

She also mentioned that when she heard that Johnson dine alone during Mid-Autumn festival, she feel so sad for him and wished that she was here to keep him accompany! *Freak! How come I didn't know that he dine alone on Mid-Autumn?" I asked if he wants to come my place for dinner but he didn't want because every year his family would dine together*

Of course I qtned him immediately then I found out that he ate alone at home during Mid-Autumn because his family members had taken dinner before he comes home. But how come he didn't tell me!!! *Humph* Knowing it from someone makes me feel that I am a lousy girlfriend!

She also criticised that how can there be no TV and Internet @ my home! Johnson always complained that coming to my house is boring because he can't watch the TV or use the internet as my brother is always watching the TV and using the Computer @ the same time. BUT why did Johnson have to tell her that? Who is she to criticise me?! She is feel sad for Johnson to be so bored at my house huh!!!

I was so angry with Johnson for sharing so much with her!!!

The next day, she msn Johnson again while I was using the laptop. The shameless gal was online too and msg Johnson agn. Her first sentence was "Hey man, when are you going to break up with Judy?"

Of course I was angry when I read that. I didn't want to reply and see what she has got to say. Guess what... ... she even "taught" Johnson how to break off with me! She told him "Just tell Judy that you are not going to marry her and she will definitely break off with you!"

OMG!!! So aggressive and shameless!!! In the first place, Johnson did not even say he likes her and she is telling him so much. Little did she know that I am aware of all these which is happening. She is really making a fool out of herself... ...

My dear Mavis

My dear daughter was down with Chickenpox! When I came home @ 10 plus on Friday night, she highlighted to me that she has got red-spots like blister on her hands, face and legs. Initially, we were worried that it might be HFMD!

We observed that her situation was not that "emergency', hence, I took her to the doctor on Sat morning and doctor diagnosed her for Chickenpox. Thank God that it was not HFMD! However, Chickenpox still doesn't seems to be a good thing.

Mummy just started working and she can't possibly stop work for 2 weeks to stay home to take care of Mavis. *Many people are eyeing on her job* I am only left with 1 day Childcare leave and 4 days of annual leave. Not even enough for 2 weeks and I can't possibly clear all days at a time. In Nov, I still got to bring Mavis for her school Orientation. Neither I could afford to go on No-Pay leave! On Monday & Wednesday, I can't knock off early to go home as I got to go for class and will only be home @ 11 plus in the night. Sighz... ...

Now got to depend on my brother to take care of her when we were not around. Still, I dun feel assured enuff leaving her to my brother.

Now I only pray that she recover soon and well again. Seeing her in pain is as good as me suffering then I would rather I bear the pain for her.

Unhappy... ...

I'm kinda falling into depression again. *Sighz*

Few days ago, Kareen SMSed me to help her check if 16 Apr 08 is a good date for her ROM. Upon receiving the news, my thoughts ran "a few miles". Of course I am not unhappy about her getting married. Neither am I jealous about her getting married. I am falling into depression once again because Johnson refused to ROM with me yet!

He kept saying:

• We are not financially ready! [Doesn't we already have a stable job & income?]
• We are still young! [I am 27 this year and many of my friends are already getting married!! He may still be young but ... ... *sob sob*]
• He is not financially stable to show his dad that he is capable of taking care of Mavis & I [I've been taking care of Mavis all these years!]
• Our current situation is good enough, why the rush to get married!

*Sighz* We have been quarrelling over this issue for umpteen times and I am really sick of it. I even told him that I am not going to bring up this topic again SO I am really not going to bring up this topic agn!

I was chatting with Chiew Hua on MSN on Friday night and I shared with her this topic. There are only so few people I could talk about. I am embarrassed to share this with other people. Who can I share my probs with. Just Rachel & Oliver! I dare not tell others cos I think others will mock @ me! *sob sob*

Anyway, I was saying - I told Chiew Hua about my current situation and she was also supportive of us getting ROM! I am not asking Johnson to spend tons of money NOW to get married. I merely wanted an ROM. What's his prob!

We have been together for freaking 4 years plus and his family is not aware of my marital status!!! How long is he going to delay? Sighz... ... even my mom was pushing us to ROM few months ago.

The more I write, the more unstable my emotions are. *Sob sob* but who cares!

I can't share this on my Multiply! I could only write about my emotions in this little column! Sighz... ... Nobody could tell me what I could do!

I purposely told him that Kareen is going to ROM but he got no reaction.
Tonight while we were having steamboat, in his presence, Casper told me that another schoolmate of ours is getting married but he got no reaction.

Sighz... ...

22 Aug 2007

Today is a friend's b'day.

I know her since I was 13 and it has been 13 years!

We used to be very close friends. Sit together during lesson time. Share all our happenings with each other everyday in school, even when the teachers were teaching! :)

However, changes start to take place after our secondary school days. I still remember -- on the 1st day of school in ITE, I feel so lonely w/o her and I shed some tears in the toilet *ssshhh* That was the bonding... ...

When I met her again 4 years later, she took me as a "hi-bye" friend. Sighz... ... We no longer talk and behave like when we were in school. The feelings were no longer there and that was when I know that things would never be the same agn. Someone elses have taken my place in her heart.

Nonetheless, every year of today, I would still send her a b'day wish via SMS - though it's a "one-sided affair".

If I ever stop sending her b'day wishes, it would be that day I took her off my mind... ...

06 Aug 07 [Sunny] - Yucky Day

Slept @ 11 plus last night and "forced" myself to wake up slightly earlier this morning so that I would not be late for work. Managed to take the earlier bus to work but waited more than 15 mins for bus 177 to bring me up the hill - resulting me to report work 10 mins later! It defeats the purpose of me putting in an effort to wake up early, isn't it? *sighz*

Don't know why I feel so tired. No mood to work :(
Did 1/2 day Registry work in the morning. While tidying the documents, I realised that there's a folder which came in on 24 Jul 07 but boss has yet to see it -- Admin lapse! Thought to myself for 1/2 hr about whether I should act blur and leave it back in the drawer or admit my fault and explain. *hehe* Guess what was my decision? -- I owned up my mistake lo :)

Judy went for lunch with Jennifer, Jessie & Hema at the canteen. While lunching, Jessie shared with us her 100K project - It's some Christian prayers thingy. While all these was taking place, I noticed that she has got a diamond ring on the left hand, 4th finger. *Woah* Enagagement ring ar I exclaimed! She was smiling sweetly and replied "it was a proposal ring." Eric proposed to her 2 Thursdays ago before his departure back to Taiwan. :) So sweet.

After sharing with us how Eric proposed to her, she asked "when would it be your turn?" Sighz... ... I didn't really like to answer such qtns, cos I dun have answers for them. Anyway, she told me that Men need to be "stressed". She also "stressed" to Eric that it's time for them to settle down. *hehe* Good that Eric reacted to her stress! I may not be that lucky.

Actually, Jessie doesn't appear to be one who wants to settle down so soon. I thought she is quite career-minded and would only want to settle down after 30. Well.. I was so wrong!

Today our Photographer from Pioneer came to take photos for boss. While waiting for boss to be out from his earlier meeting, they chatted and heard that he didn't sleep last night because he was out searching for his mom-in-law.

His mom-in-law was suffering from senile and went missing yesterday. Seeing him at work today.. I thought his search was not in vain. In fact, he still couldn't locate her. Jialat!

After hearing his story, the 4 women (Patricia, Lynn, Chief Clerk & Judy) were discussing about people who suffered from senile. Chief Clerk also shared her experience about her dad, who was also senile, went missing on 3 occasions. Then the 4 women started to ponder if we were also suffered from senile when we aged! Sighz.. hopefully I wun be a burden to my family.

When you are feeling bad, non-living things will also go against you. I spent 1/2 afternoon trying to submit the recent overseas reimbursement for MA. That stupid system kept hanging and shut down on its own. The most sickening part was that the system just hung when I was at the last transaction to submit the claim! Even a stupid system bully me when I am feeling lousy!

Idiotic!

After what happened on Wednesday, I am still very upset with that stupid Foo Win Tet! He really can feign ignorance and test my patience. I am so fed-up with him that I talked very rudely to him. Most of my statements were either rude or filled with sacarcism! And I still think I am not harsh enuff. I am thinking if there is any other methods for me to GET BACK @ him! *Humph* See.. never offend Women! They are scary animals!

Another idiotic guy is my MA. WBD! In case you didn't know what is it - it's Wang Ba Dan! Anyway, back to the point - He is not an easy person to work with. Given a choice, I don't want to work with him ever agn, after my tenture in this office.

Went out for dinner with that Idiot Foo last night. Had KFC and then accompanied him to buy a green t-shirt. He needed it for his Company's Sports day today - participating in soccer match. What else!

That's why... when the previous worker set a standard in his work, the incumbent must perform better or at least at the same standard. Anything less - people will say YOU ARE LOUSY!

I spent 2 days trying to complete and submit my Cash Advance statement but to nowhere! Sighz... this is my first time doing it and with this MA around, it is slowing my process. He is damn slow in providing with me the necessary info, etc.

Cannot understand why he needs Cash Advance! Make my job alot more difficult! Sighz... ... 6 more months to count down to eligible time frame to seek posting! If he doesn't leave during then, I am leaving! I cannot work with him. Anyway, if he leave but Registry problem still persist, I will leave too! :)

Fibroid & I

I have been experiencing bloated abdominal prior and after my monthly menses over the past few months. I also experienced severe abdominal pain on the 2nd, 3rd and even 4th day of my menses.

Couldn't endure it last week and went to the GP for consultation - also to get MC for that day. The GP then referred me for Ultra Sound at my pelvis @ Yishun Polyclini on 30 Jul 07. I went to the clinic to collect my results yesterday, 31 Jul 07 -- that was fast, isn't it? Hehe...

The scan found that I have got a 2cm fibroid at the posteriro uterine wall. *hmm* GP mentioned that they usually will not do anything about it because it is just 2cm - however, it will grow bigger as time goes by and of course, I would experience pain etc during my menses. Therefore, I was told that I could take their painkillers - the blue tablets they prescribed. -- This sound stupid to me! Too much painkillers is bad for my health and also I have heard many cases that fibroid tends to grow bigger and more as time goes by. Anyway, the GP also told me that if I want to remove it, then I got to seek a Gynae's opinion.

Ever since I went for my scan on Monday, I kept having pain at my pelvis when i touch it (even lightly). Sighz... ... This evening, I sat at the bus-stop waiting for my bus, when I got up from the bench, I could feel my abdominal pain.

When I got home, I got no appetite for dinner also. Told mummy about my pain and she said things like if only... i got a husband to take care of me.. *haha* Say wants mean got one meh. Then she continued stuff like "that Johnson... dunno how to think.. etc etc..."

Actually I have been thinking about our ROM agn recently... :( I come to terms that even when his mom was in critical condition, he refused to marry her when his mom asked to.. let alone now. If he dun want, I think no matter how you force or pressure also no pt.. he will provide 101 excuses to get away.

Again, I was disturb by this ROM thingy so badly that I SMS-quarrelled with him just now. I told him that I am gg to ask him for the last time - if he insist on only ROM-ing next year and he said "yea.. did't we decide on it?" *Sigh* I have never decide on it! He was the one saying and saying... He kept saying that it is too soon.. then when I told him there's really no issue on finance since it's just an ROM, he said he is not ready! Win already lor.. I am sick of it already.

26 July 2007: ROM

*hehe* I am so naughty and mischievious. I just purposely wanna blog about this day because it was someone's ROM date!

:) I blog about it on my Multiply too! but I cannot comment too much cos Johnson will read it and he might (oops.. not might shld be WILL) be angry with me for bitching too much about his dad. and YES, it's his dad's ROM.

His 62-year old dad went ROMed on 26 Jul 07, which was yesterday lah! With a woman who I feel that only loves his monies... ...

There were quite a few incidents to prove me right. The lady, Celine, said that she doesn't like the dad till yearn marrying him, followed by "which women doesn't like $$"! The other day when they were discussing about marriage, Celine wanted the dad to give her $20,000 or so after 1-2 years of their marriage so as to "compensate" her for spending the no. of years with him.

Celine has also demanded to stay in a Condominium. On condition to be able to live in a Condo, Jon's dad wants her to sell her flat once it is matured. Then they were take the monies plus Jon's dad will top-up the remaining to buy a Condo to stay!

Days before their ROM, his dad suddenly told Johnson that he has doubts of the marriage... ... *Strange!* His dad was also concerned that Celine might spend all his monies and when old age... he will be penniless.

Honestly, if such thing really happened to him when he reaches old age, I won't feel sorry for him as he brought it upon himself. "Knowing that there's a big hole infront yet still wanna put his foot into it!"

Rude & Stupid Woman!

How would I know anyone who has can be soooo damn bloody rude!!! Shall I give her a name? Maybe I shall named her Ms Rudey? Or Stupid Woman? Or maybe Fatty Bum Bum!! [heh... a pot calling a kettle black!] Anyway, I was damn pissed off with this stupid woman and I think I am gonna use my COMDEMN stamp on her - Something which I have not used on people for a long long time!

So nice of me to offer her my digital camera on Monday when she massed SMS her friends to borrow. In my reply, I indicated that I would need it on Friday & Sat night and she was agreeable to it.

Monday - I purposely rushed home @ 10 plus to pass her my cam as arranged. She promised to return me it to me on Thurs.

Thurs - I received no msg from her. Went to bed @ 10 plus. Received an sms from her @ 1240am to say that she has just reached home and asked how she could return me the camera. -- I did not reply her msg as it was already very late (to me) and I was already asleep.

Friday - I replied her msg @ 11 plus in the morning to explain that I did not reply the night before as I was already asleep. Proposed that I will go to her workplace (in Somerset) to collect it from her later in the evening. Actually going to her workplace was not exactly convenient because Orchard was not in my itinerary for that day and I was, of cos, no where near Somerset.

Who knows... ... Later in the evening, this stupid woman msg to inform that she was on her way home, which is in Yishun, and told me that she will LEAVE MY CAM at her workplace and ASK ME to go there and collect it... ... WTF!!! I was, of course, alittle pissed off! HULLO... STUPID WOMAN - you know that I stay in YISHUN and I was damn near to your place... ... Did not bother to even ask if I will be home so that I could collect from her in Yishun! Pse get it right - You borrowed my camera; Not that I begged you to lend me!

It was a Friday. She was supposed to work til 9 plus. Idiots know that she knock off early and coming back to Yishun!

Anyway... my reply: "Hey wait. bring it back to Yishun with you and I will collect from you later when I am home!"
Stupid woman: OK!

When Jon came to pick me up, I called the stupid woman. She answered the phone with a 1/2 dead tone and told me that she was turning into her carpark already. Again... I was thinking... ... why she didn't bother to call and check if I am home so that she can RETURN me my cam. Why? Lend things to people must beg them to return is it?? FUck!

She just parked her van and was preparing to get off when we reached her carpark. I got off the car and walked over to her van to BEG my camera back. Without looking at me, she went to the back of her van to retrieve my paperbag and passed it to me! Attitube lo! I was controlling not to flare up cos I was quite fed-up with already lo.

After getting my stuff, I said "Ok, I am leaving." and walked off. She just mumbled "Ok" w/o looking. STUPID WOMAN!!! What kinda attitube is it? Why? I owe you, is it? TMD! When we were about to leave, Johnson tried to wave at her but she refused (pretended) to see lo... ... Even Johnson said she was rude!!!

Stupid woman with such lousy attitube. I dunno what got into her to give such bad attitube but it really pissed me off. After I got back to Johnson's car, I was swearing about her lo. FUCK! I am not going to see her for at least a month! IDIOT!

Going home on a Friday night. LONER lo! No wonder she complained that she dun have many friends... ... She should do some soul-searching to really understand why she got no friends! Even I dun want to be her friends anymore! *Basket*

09 Jun 2007 (Humid)

Ho ho ho!!! :) It's WEEKEND again!!!

I woke up @ 8 plus this morning (Played Mahjong til 12 plus the night before!). Washed up and prepared to go back to Jon's house. We took a cab back to his pl, prepared our stuff and set off to Tampines for a swim! Swam 10 x 50m in 40 mins! *Hehe* The pool is beautiful and gives a comfortable feeling. However, it is very crowded!

After swimming, we went for the yummy Kway Chap @ Macpherson with Rachel, Justin & Simon! I liked their pig ears and fried intestines!

After makan, we went Rachel's office to collect some stuff and sent to her boss' hse then we all went McDonald (Orchard) for a drink.

Jon took this shot for me while waiting for Rachel to come out from her house :)

At about 1630 hrs, Jon & I drove home first while the rest waited for Simon's girlfriend, Nicole, to knock off. While waiting... my dear friend was playing with Shrek's eyes!

Reached home. Rested and carried on with 2nd round! We went Sushi Tei @ Raffles City for dinner.

Thereafter, we proceeded to dbl O!! It was the Retro Night Party!!! Looking @ the pictures, you would have imagine how much fun we had! *huf hoo*

Judy / Rachel / Kareen / Geralyn

Bad Gals

Kanna Punished liao lo!

After spending much effort to leave that place, we went for Prata @ Jalan Kayu!! Went home @ 5 plus and dropped dead!! *haha*

Have you ever gotten onto a bus which looked like a pub? See below... ...

The other day, Jon & I took bus 54 from Chinatown to Liang Court and that was how we got onto this bus! Cool yah? The seats were very comfortable too!! Have you tried it?

那是一個非常寧靜而美麗的小城﹐有一對非常恩愛的戀人﹐他們每天都去海邊看日出﹐晚上去海邊送夕陽﹐每個見過他們的人都向他們投來羨慕的目光…… 　　

可是有一天﹐在一場車禍中﹐女孩不幸受了重傷﹐她靜靜地躺在醫院的病床上﹐幾天幾夜都沒有醒過來。

白天﹐男孩就守在床前不停地呼喚毫無知覺的戀人﹔晚上﹐他就跑到小城的教堂裡向上帝禱告﹐他已經哭乾了眼淚。 　　

一個月過去了﹐女孩仍然昏睡著﹐而男孩早已憔悴不堪了﹐但他仍苦苦地支撐著。終於有一天﹐上帝被這個痴情的男孩感動了。於是他決定給這個執著的男孩一個例外。上帝問他﹕“你願意用自己的生命作為交換嗎﹖”男孩毫不猶豫地回答﹕“我願意﹗”上帝說﹕“那好吧﹐我可以讓你的戀人很快醒過來﹐但你要答應化作三年的蜻蜓﹐你願意嗎﹖”男孩聽了﹐還是堅定地回答道﹕“我願意﹗” 　　

天亮了﹐男孩已經變成了一隻漂亮的蜻蜓﹐他告別了上帝便匆匆地飛到了醫院。女孩真的醒了﹐而且她還在跟身旁的一位醫生交談著什麼﹐可惜他聽不到。 　　

幾天後﹐女孩便康復出院了﹐但是她並不快樂。她四處打聽著男孩的下落﹐但沒有人知道男孩究竟去了哪裡。女孩整天不停地尋找著﹐然而早已化身成蜻蜓的男孩卻無時無刻不圍繞在她身邊﹐只是他不會呼喊﹐不會擁抱﹐他只能默默地承受著她的視而不見。夏天過去了﹐秋天的涼風吹落了樹葉﹐蜻蜓不得不離開這裡。 於是他最後一次飛落在女孩的肩上。他想用自己的翅膀撫摸她的臉﹐用細小的嘴來親吻她的額頭﹐然而他弱小的身體還是不足以被她發現。 　　

轉眼間﹐春天來了﹐蜻蜓迫不及待地飛回來尋找自己的戀人。然而﹐她那熟悉的身影旁站著一個高大而英俊的男人﹐那一剎那﹐蜻蜓幾乎快從半空中墜落下來。人們講起車禍後女孩病得多麼的嚴重﹐描述著那名男醫生有多麼的善良﹑可愛﹐還描述著他們的愛情有多麼的理所當然﹐當然也描述了女孩已經快樂如從前。 　　

蜻蜓傷心極了﹐在接下來的幾天中﹐他常常會看到那個男人帶著自己的戀人在海邊看日出﹐晚上又在海邊看日落﹐而他自己除了偶爾能停落在她的肩上以外﹐什麼也做不了。 　　

這一年的夏天特別長﹐蜻蜓每天痛苦地低飛著﹐他已經沒有勇氣接近自己昔日的戀人。她和那男人之間的喃喃細語﹐他和她快樂的笑聲﹐都令他窒息。 　　

第三年的夏天﹐蜻蜓已不再常常去看望自己的戀人了。她的肩被男醫生輕擁著﹐臉被男醫生輕輕地吻著﹐根本沒有時間去留意一隻傷心的蜻蜓﹐更沒有心情去懷唸過去。 　　

上帝約定的三年期限很快就要到了。就在最後一天﹐蜻蜓昔日的戀人跟那個男醫生舉行了婚禮。 　　

蜻蜓悄悄地飛進教堂﹐落在上帝的肩膀上﹐他聽到下面的戀人對上帝發誓說﹕我願意﹗他看著那個男醫生把戒指戴到昔日戀人的手上﹐然後看著他們甜蜜地親吻著。蜻蜓流下了傷心的淚水。 　　

上帝嘆息著﹕“你後悔了嗎﹖”蜻蜓擦乾了眼淚﹕“沒有﹗”上帝又帶著一絲愉悅說﹕“那麼﹐明天你就可以變回你自己了。”蜻蜓搖了搖頭﹕“就讓我做一輩子蜻蜓吧……”

有些緣份是註定要失去的。愛一個人不一定要擁有﹐但擁有一個人就一定要好好去愛他。你的肩上有蜻蜓嗎﹖看到结尾，我忍不住无法控制地哭了好久。

Saturday, 02 June 2007 (Sunny)

IT'S WEEKEND!!! I woke up @ about 9 plus in the morning. Bathed and started surfing the internet and of course update my Multiply while waiting for Jon to wake up.

We drove to Depot Road for the famous Claypot Laksa!! I haven't eat it for many months because I was held up with work and have been getting Wenyang to go to CMPB on my behalf.

After lunch, we went Suntec - Carrefour to buy some groceries & daily use necessity. Actually, we wanted to catch a movie but Eng Hwa was only showing Pirates of the Caribbean & Shrek 3!! *My god* Like that also can!! So we dropped the idea of watching movie and went jalan jalan @ Suntec lo. We then decided to go TCC but because we parked @ Suntec, it is a hassle to walk to Citylink then back to Suntec so agn, we dropped the idea. In the end, we decided to go Tampines and see if there's a TCC outlet.

When we reached Tampines Mall, we decided to go back to Simei to collect my shoes and have bubble tea instead of TCC! *hehe* Oh... we also brought Curry Puff from Old Chang Kee.

Reached home @ about 3 plus to 4pm, watched a comedy on HBO while Johnson took a nap. At about 6 plus, we went Bugis for steamboat! Didn't have to wait long before getting ourselves a squeezy 2-seater dining area. Had a red bean ice-cream to end off the nice dinner.

Went jalan jalan @ Bugis Junction before they closed for the day. Actually wanted to have a drink @ Starbucks but we were too full to take in anymore stuff. Iguana was another choice but there were only 2 of us. In the end, we decided to buy a few bottles of Bacardi Breezer home for relax & enjoy!

Mediacorp was broadcasting "3 Good Guys" on a Saturday nite. Nice typical show. We had a drink while enjoying the show @ home. After that, we played some X-Box games with another bottle of Breezer to go along.

Heh... who says you need to be out there with the crowd in order to enjoy!

Working in Shangri-la

The annual Shangri-la Dialogue (IISS) is back agn. This time round, the preparation for this event was a rush. The foreign guests kept changing and some countries could not confirm the Rep for the event - even ONE day before the event.

I guess it was all because of Vesak day. Having a PH just before a big event is just not so right! Actually, it was not a PH for those who were involved in this event. Everyone was running around working even on Vesak Day! Anyway, when is the next PH? *heh*

Rise & Shine! I woke up @ 8am on Friday, prepare bread for Mavis and sent her to school @ 0900 hrs. Thereafter, I went home, cooked a pkt of Tom Yam instant noodles *Yummy* for breakfast. I already suspected that I would not have time to eat later in the day and I was right!

I left for Shang @ 1030 hrs. Took a cab down. The security screen was quite smooth. LTC Ma, my incoming MA, reached there about the same time as I. Upon reaching there, I started doing the setting up - Advance Party mah! *heh*

While waiting for boss' arrival, his Body-guard arrived. Spoked to me in a damn cocky tone! *Split saliva* Ignored him! *hehe*

My duties for this round was different as last year. I was busy helping to prepare more invitation cards, envelopes & placards. At the same time, I had to ensure that boss' SGEMS was working -- however, I encountered many problems with his SGEMS *Sweat* My IT pple told me that it was becos of Shang's firewall but when I called Shang's IT staff, they took more than 1/2 hr to understand what I want and only to inform me that they do not have any firewall!!!

In the end, I have to use Dial-up to access SGEMS! Anyway, my experience with the IT pple in Shang were so unhelpful!!! Disliked them! *sigh* I thought their service should be excellence! Anyway, now we know... ...

Unlike in MFU, I don't have much opportunity to talk to MA other than work issues. We usually only chat when we were in his car - rushing from one venue to another. Lately, when I took his car, there were bound to have other colleagues in there as well. Hence, our conversations were mainly general topics.

While we were standing in front of boss' room to wait for him to get ready for the dinner with PM, MA asked if I have gotten my annual bonus & increment. He then said that it is more compared to last year as he had fought to rank me on the top. He further added that I have been doing very well in my job but tend to be careless @ times -- which I told him that I agree because I am really very careless *hehee* I am happy that he give me feedback (be it good or bad) on my work - at least I know how I have been performing. :) Apity that he will be leaving for studies soon and I will have to start working with a new officer all over agn.

I worked till 10.30pm or so that night! *heh* Very late compared to last year. Last year I only worked till 5 plus. *haha* Nonetheless, it is okay. I'm always fine to stay back when there's really work to do :)

Happy Vesak Day to all! How was your Vesak day?

Busy doing your prayers in the temples?

MA woked me up this morning. *haha* Called me at 9plus as he could not fax some documents overseas. Then I gave my mom some biscuits before she took her medicine. Thereafter, I just slacked on the bed till 11 plus before washing up.

Went to Northpoint Foodcourt with Jon, sis and Mavis for lunch. Brought porridge home for mummy to eat. We also went marketing @ Cold Storage. Brought S$60+ of grocceries. Sis, Jon & I prepared dinner as well. *haha* We also had fried Pregnant Fish! *Yummy* but preparing nice dinner are always every tiring lo and I hate to fry stuff. Very oily and creasy.

Later in the evening, I had a little argument with my mom because of her beloved son! *sighz* We also have such arguments because of him!!! So irritating! She ar.. sick still can get angry. My sis was also arnd when the argument took place and she added some comments then my mum shouted @ us "Thiam lah"!! Hah!! Talk loud then win already lo!! KNS!!!

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Supposed to meet Rachel & Darren @ Vivo last evening for dinner. However, mummy was referred to the hospital yesterday afternoon and I rushed to complete my work before I could go and find her. Thus, I missed the gathering! What a pity! I love gatherings!

It was really bad timing. Yesterday was a very busy day for me. I had to prepare invitation cards, placards and some admin work for the IISS 07 tml. Everything was such a rush because of Vesak Day!! If there wasn't a PH in the middle of the week, we didn't have to rush through the end part. And bcos of the preparation for IISS, I could not leave ofc immd when I was told that mummy was going to the hospital! And I didn't have to miss the outing!

That Silly Yogi! GOt me so worried... ... Here's our conversation:
Yogi: The clinic doctor referred your mom to the hospital and she is on her way down now. I've sent Mavis to the centre and you got to return early to fetch her!

Jude: What happened? What did the clinic doctor say?

Yogo: Oh... ... Dengue mah! Her fever was on and off so the doctor took blood test and referred her to the hospital!

Jude: *Shocked* *Worried*

After he hung up, I called my mom who was on her way to the hospital. IT was then I learnt from her that the doctor did NOT say that she HAS dengue lo! The doctor merely suspected but as she couldn't find out what was wrong with my mummy so she needs to go to the hospital to check.

An update - My mom was having fever (on and off) since Monday. Yogi brought her to the clinic yesterday afternoon because she was still feeling very bad with her fever and her fingers were closed up and couldn't opened! The doctor thought my mom had stroke! *so scary*

This Yogi!!! Went around informing people that my mom had Dengue. Called my sister to say that my mom went hospital because of Dengue. Told the CC that he sent Mavis to school because my mom got dengue so need to go to the hospital!!! CRazy!!!

Nonetheless, it was still scary lo. The hospital done some tests on her but could not find out what went wrong. All the tests were normal. They gave her some medication & Antibotics and is supposed to go back for another check-up a week later. Till now, her fever still come and go.

*sigh* Dunno what happened!

My Friday (11 May 07)

It was raining when I woke up for work this morning. I hate rainy weather in the morning when I had to prepare myself to work! The feeling is just so yucky. I bet many of you feel the same as I do. But what to do? It's something we cannot control or even avoid!

Good thing was that the rain was not as heavy as earlier when I was ready to leave house for work.

Did you read the papers? An accident occurred in ROC. 2 Singaporean bodies were found. 2 were seriously injured while the other 7 had minor injuries. Sighz... ... it's not our fault. It's the Taiwan Aircraft! It's always sad when you know that such incident happened. My friends in PAFF had to be on 8-hr shift work rotation till Monday.

Jon went for his Co's Spring Party @ MOS tonight while I joined Kareen & friends to XMYD. Jon supposed to join me after his part @ MOS but when he came, he was too drunk and fell asleep @ XMYD, we decided that he should go home and rest to wait for me :D *haha*

My First Post after 5 months into 2007!

I was almost at the verge of abandoning this blog before something triggered me to start posting again. Hence, I guess I will continue to blog here bah.

First post in 2007 and I will be talking about unhappy issue... ... *haha*

I was quite upset last night. I touched on the topic of marriage with Jon again. *Sighz* His decision was firm and I wondered why.

I cannot understand why he didn't want to ROM with me. He kept coming up with reasons (more likely excuses!) such as there is no need to rush into marriage as we are still young, we didn't have any savings and that he is not financially stable!

We have been together for 4 years and we are 27 years old, why do he say that we are too young? Was it that he feel being tied down if we were married? I am not even "sticking" with him. *sighz* We don't have saving but we are earning and surviving on our own. Each of us have a stable job. I don't see any problems with it. I feel so dumb and stupid. Everytime we talked about this, I would end up upsetting myself. I think I should really not touch on this topic again. Maybe he is not even keen to settle down with me. I was so upset that I kept sobbing in the night til my eyes was quite painful when I woke up this morning. So silly of me!

Sometimes I wonder shouldn't we just blog about happy incidents? Why would one want to talk about unhappy incidents and remind him/herself about it when he/she browse thru the entry weeks or months later? *haha* However, from another point of view, I think a blog is a place where we should be truthful and record whatever we want talk about and the happenings in life.