Happenings in September

*Hmm* Let me do a recall about what took place in Sep... ...

I attended Beary's MBA Graduation on 4th Sep 09, together with his granny and parents. We took a couple of photographs. *Dearest Beary - Congratulations for obtaining your Master's with good grades* I'm really amazed with beary's abilities in studies! *Kudos*

I had a medical appointment @ Raffles Hospital on 2nd week of Sep. Went Bugis Str to recee and did some shopping. Mavis wanted to look for Aunty Karen, so we made our way to Iluma after we were done with our shopping. Mavis bought a baby plant from Karen :) *so she actually went with an intention* I also bought a pair of bermudas each for Beary & bro because they were on sale!!! *WOmen*

The office had a farewell lunch for LTC Seet and welcome lunch for MAJ Tong. He had set off to UK for a year. I believe one year isn't too long but the chances of working with him again is rare. Having served him for a year, I know that he is a very good husband and superior. He's like an elder brother to me, very considerate and caring. I still remember when he first came, he fetch me to the hospital to visit SM and he quickly rushed back from meeting and hurried to fetch us to the hospital and he said "Let's get going, Judy is going to be famish." Though I wasn't hungry, it was true that I haven't gotten a bite since morning :) When we were in his car, he tuned his radio to 88.3 and 93.3; not because he listen to mandarin songs (he always tuned to classical)! When I volunteered for AYG, he supported me and granted me OFF w/o any questions asked. When I wanted to take leave, he told CC to give me OFF for no reasons. When I missed my classes and had to write a letter to justify, he supported w/o questioning me and even told me to let him know if there's a need to "fight" for me. When he knew that I wanted to leave, he supported my decision and encouraged me to do so. He even told my new superior, from the dept which I was supposed to go, to take good care of me... ... and when he knew that he could upgrade my post, he immediately put up supporting papers for submission and fought for my post to be upgraded so that he could continue to take care of me if I could stay on. However, he also added that even if I choose to leave, he will support my decision. *I was really very touched* I remember that he also gave me a BIG ang bao for new year!

Really hate that he had to go. *Sigh* Come to think of it, all the MAs has treated me well but he was the only one who made miracle happened for me, which was why I stayed on. *Thank you Sir*

Beary & I went for the Movies in the Park event @ Fort Canning Park. Watched Iron man for the first time and first 30mins of Transformer (Part II). The park was packed. We had a mini picnic while watching the movies. We bought potato chips, peanuts, KFC 2-pc Meal & Red Wine along to accompany us through the movies :) *Wonderful*

KFC forgot to pack my 3-pcs drumlets for me and I only discovered it when we reached Fort Canning Park and I was like... ... "What the .... ..."! After the event, I decided to draft an email to KFC HQ and told them about some of my unpleasant experiences with KFC and how disappointing I am with them. My feedback is to allow them to better improve themselves!!! They "investigated" my feedback and apologised to me on the phone and offered me some freebies, which I didn't collect them (because I complained not because I wanted their freebies). Anyway, after this incident, I have decided to observe KFC and submit my feedback whenever I discover something unpleasant! *hahaha*

On the same night, we celebrated Vincent's b'day @ Liang Court Party World. Everybody, except Kareen, sang and enjoyed themselves. After karaoke session, the group went 126 for dim sum before heading home!

I had two wedding invitations in Sep 09. On 21 Sep 09, Beary & I attended his Primary School friend's (Xixing) wedding dinner @ Grand Corpthorne Waterfront. The ambience were good but the food was so-so. I like their wedding gifts -- wedding couple mug and playing cards. This is the first time I saw everyone taking their wedding souvenirs home :)

On 25 Sep 09, Beary took me to watch F1. It was their 1st night rehearsing. It was more of a recee for him so that he could know which area has the best view as he also went for the qualifying rounds on Sat night. We had to sell away the final day tickets, but at a high price, because of Rachel's wedding.

Anyway, Beary bought M. Laren dry-fit tee for me and himself. The tee were cool!!! haha... I like it very much and it's orange in color. Striking!!! We wore it for F1!

Beary & Judy

On 26 Sep 09, we attended Rachel's customery wedding which lasted from 9-3pm. After the dinner, LC & Karen & I went shopping. While waiting for me at J8, I went for classic manicure. Thereafter, we went Far East to shop for dresses. In the end, I settled for a dress at Isetan Wisma. I already bought a dress earlier but found it not suitable for the dinner.

We had Teochew porridge @ our usual place and chat awhile before we decided to abandon the idea of "partying" and went home to rest.

The following day was the wedding dinner. Karen and I went Snapz to set our hair and make-up. The silly & stubborn & indecisive aunty who set my hair for me really irritates me and I almost wanted to draft a complain letter to Snapz. She realised that I was the VIP instead while she was almost done with my hair and said that she thot my friend brought me here. Regardless of who the VIP is, I think there should be a standard in their products!!! Humph! One more time, and I will definitely write!!! In the end, everyone had to accompany me to look for another pl to re-do my hair!!!

We reached home rather late after the dinner. Good thing that Beary was on leave the following day while I could leave office @ 11am. Beary picked me up from work, we had laska from Jie Shuang Jiao and meet up with LC & Oliver for steamboat dinner and catch up with some gossips :)

Updates in Aug 09

4 Aug 09, we had dinner with Beary's cousin and his family at their residence in Woodlands. This is my first time to his residence. The scenary was beautiful as almost every room faces the sea and the causeway. His wife had prepared a sumptous dinner for us *so sweet*

Did not start off well in the month of Aug. I was down with fever & asthma & flu on the last week of Jul and 1st week of Aug 09. Visited the doctor twice in 2 weeks. On my 2nd visit, doctor gave me 3 days of MC (i.e. 5-7 Aug 09). Doctor wanted me to rest well for fear that I might be down with H1N1 due to asthmatic background.

For the 1st time in my 9 years of service, I missed the National Day Observance Ceremony at work. Prior to my MC, CC discussed with me about the dress code for the ceremony and even asked me to wear my india costume. *hehe... wasted*

Anyway, Aiyun and I have agreed that we will wear our india costume on Racial Harmony Day & National Day in 2010 :) I thought of buying a few pieces of "normal" ones so that I can wear as and when I like it :p

On 2nd Friday of the week, I joined YL, CH & XL for dinner @ MS. YL wanted buffet because she was starving and we had steamboat. After dinner, we bought a bottle of red wine and some alcoholic drinks and went back to YL's place for MJ session while sipping on our red wine :)

On National Day itself, we went to watch the NDP 09 at the Floating Platform. This year's performance was very different as compared to previous and it was impressive. NDP 2010 would be held at Padang. Dunno if it would still be as good as it was at the Floating Platform.

After watching the Parade, Beary sent me to Golden Mile Complex to take a bus to Genting. I spent 3 days 2 nights in Genting (i.e. 9-12 Aug 09) and this is the first time I went to there without Beary's company. I actually felt alittle weird and I miss him very much during those 3 days :)

@ the cafe outside 1st World Hotel, awaiting check-in & enjoying the weather :)

On the 3rd Sat in Aug, Beary brought me to his maternal granny's b'day dinner @ a restaurant in the East. After the dinner, we joined the carebear group @ the Tong's house to celebrate b'days for the Aug babies'. I was amazed with myself! I bought 3 presents from different shop in 1 hr! We bought a hamper for Beary's granny, a gift set from Body Shop for XS & a polo tee for Andy! :) Thank you to the Tong's family for the wonderful preparation and we all had a good time. Oh oh... not forgetting baby claudel was there too and she was hyper active to manage!

The B'day Boy & Gal

Baby Claudia

I also sat for the last 2 papers for my DHRM in the mid of Aug. One of the paper was sooooooo difficult and I have ZERO confidence about passing it -_-" Still, I am crossing my fingers and hope that I will pass and go thru the graduation soon!

In the month of Aug, I have Johnny Junior Tan, few months old, to officially join us in our family.

I gave him that name because he resembles alot like Johnny and behaves exactly like him as well. Damn mischievious and can really pissed me off at times. Just like Johnny, he tried to hide the cane I used to whack him on several occasions. God knows he may be the recarnation of Johnny :) *hehe*

Oh in the month of Aug, YL asked me to accompany her to Ochard to source for suitable tea-dress or night gown. She had to dress up to attend the National Day Appreciation & Award Ceremony.

It has been a long time since I last shop in Orchard. We went Tangs but couldn't find anything suitable. Daniel Yam is lousy for its service standard and I am going to repeat it whenever the opportunity comes! Before YL even finish her question, the sales gal snapped her off with a plain reply "Don't have your size!". Freaking rude! This is not the first time I had bad experience with Daniel YAM! and YES... their service is damn damn damn lousy!!!!!!!!

We managed to find a black halter neck gown in a boutique at Isetan Wisma and it fit her perfectly!!! Like a Princess. Guess the price of the gown?? $600!!! We decided that if we really couldn't find anything nice and suitable, we should settle for that!!! *haha*

We also tried Paragon and tried on a few dresses but nothing beats the $600 halter neck gown! Hmm... ... ;p

On the 4th Friday of Aug, XL invited me to her farewell dinner at Prima Tower (the revolving restaurant). We had a 8-course dinner. The food was so-so but the ambience was good. Anyway, I have heard numerous reviews that the Dim Sum is good. Should try it one of these days.

After the dinner, they brought me to St James Power House to party! That makes it my 3rd visit to St James. These people really like to party. They danced from 10pm till 4am (non-stop!). I didn't have such good energy like them. *haha* After 4am, we went over to Dragonfly and hang out there til 5am before we head home.

Beary picked me up at 5+ and reached home around 6am then I bathed and took a nap and woke up at 8+ to prepare for the picnic with the Whitleyans at Sentosa! *Yawnz* Though I didn't have enough rest but I was still ready for the fun!!! We took many pictures and had an enjoyable time at Sentosa.

Later in the evening, I was invited to my boss' house (for the 1st time) for a drink to celebrate that he was conferred with the National Day Medal by the President. The rest of the group went Manhattan Fish Market for dinner while waiting for me.

Many guests were busy mingling among themselves when we reached there. LTC Seet offered me a glass of red wine and told me that it was good *yum yum* It was sweet! I didn't notice what brand it was, but it was definitely good. Shortly after, Mrs Kuek took us to tour around their house and everyone was like "wow". Words cannot be used to describe how their house is like! Hmm... the only word I could use is "Open" & "Big"! *haha*

SM whispered to me that if he had studied harder when he was young and he could have afford such a big house now! *haha* If everybody had "known" power, we would strike millions from Toto long ago! :p

Met LTC Clifford and asked me some questions about an o/s trip in Oct. I replied to him the day before but I cannot recalled my answers sent to him at all. Tried hard thinking and after 1.5 hrs at boss' place, I still cannot recall :( *Oops* That's so lousy of me!

After hanging out at his house for nearly 2 hrs, we made a move and I quickly went back to J8 to meet up with the rest and we head off to AMK Neebo Cafe for TABOO until 12am!!! It was really a day filled with activities. To think that I only slept for 2 hrs in 2 days :p

On the last Sunday in Aug, I had a table for Flea market @ Nee Soon East CC. Sales was not exactly good but at least better as compared to the last time when we employed someone there. The lady had ZERO sales then. I sold some apparels and most importantly, I did free publicity for SY Apparels! ;)

On 31 Aug 09, I took leave and participated in a fair at Aljunied. Earnings was great! I was very happy with the results. This experience left me pondering for other plans in life.

An apology

It goes like this... ...

Upon hearing AK said to her "I'm glad and happy that you have found a boyfriend who cares for you and more capable than I do", she laughed it off and turned her face away.

At that very moment, she felt a little heart-ache and quietly said to herself a word of apology... ... Sorry AK

Neither of them heard it but it really doesn't matter because somethings are better left unsaid.

Paparazzi

The Paparazzi have been busy looking out for Andy Lau & Carol Chu lately. These few years, the only rumour surrounding him is rgd his relationship with Carol Chu, as well as their kids.

Whatever statements he has made, they would somehow link it to his relationship with Carol Chu and rumour if he was trying to hint about his marital status etc.

What's the big deal? Since last year, I have been discouraging my mom to read Wan Bao and Sin Ming. Whenever mummy told me about what she read from these papers, I would reply "How can you determine the truth from these ba kua papers?". In my opinion, these papers doesn't report the entire truth and they just like to exaggerate to attract KPO readers!

I watched a variety show on SCV on Friday night and they reported a whole chunk of news on Andy Lau & Carol Chu. Ya ya ya... I was like "so what if they were married?" WTF? Even if he failed to disclose his relationship with Carol Chu, it is not as if he had did something bad like lying for going into a relationship with another woman! so what's the big deal?

Just like when naked pictures from Edison's lappy were disclosed, everyone paid so much attention to it and made fun of it. WTF? That's his privacy. His likes. Why are we invading into people's privacy. If these people were just any Tom, Dick or Harry on the street, would it attract so much attention?

If I had already registered my marriage with my partner, w/o our friends' knowledge, does that mean that we have done something damn wrong? Would it attract so much attention among our friends and outsiders???

My Thoughts

I brought up this question to CC & KJ today - Why forms, security questions, etc would usually prompt us the question "What's your maiden's/Mother's name?" rather than "What's your daddy's name?". For a moment, I wonder if this question ever cross anyone's mind? :)

In my mind, I thought that one of the possibility could be some child may not have a father in name but KJ said cos one can have many fathers but only one mother!! *hey, doesn't that sounds absolutely correct!*

KJ talked about his Persian cat and while he was talking, I was thinking of Junior! A few nights ago, Junior was making alot of noise and kept barking because he wants us to play with him. In the morning when we wake up, he would keep asking us to give him food and will only keep quiet after he has been served. *hehe*

Then I thought again.. Cats cannot bark so when strangers came knocking on the door, how do they react? So I asked KJ how his Persian Cat would react. Apparently, cats would do nothing when strangers appeared at your door, unlike dogs... but then again, some dogs just refused to bark. Take Joy for an example. She seldom barks and I think that's because she's simply lazy to do so!!! but she'll make hell lotsa noise when her owner reaches the void deck!

Updates for Jul 09

July has been a busy month for me. My schedule was rather packed - from involvement in AYG to attending courses, busy handling back-to-back trips, functions and appointments to attend... ...

Thanks to MA for giving me off to get involved in AYG. That 6 days was fun. I have also decided to volunteer for YOG!

Our family went had a 3-nights stay @ NSRCC. We enjoyed the BBQ, rain, MJ sessions, Jaccuzi, KFC handling our complaints, the bowling sessions, Pool games, Playing in the pool, as well as the wonderful sun burnt!

Poor Beary fell sick a week after. He was suspected of H1N1 and was given Tamiflu. Doctor also advised him to put on mask so that he would not spread his virus to others. He was also given 2 days (i.e. Thurs & Fri) MC to enjoy his super long weekends!

Can you tell that he is smiling?

I visited Beary on Thurs after I knock off and bought him dinner, otherwise, he would have to eat cereals for dinner :p I accompanied him til 10pm then I went home.

On Friday, he felt better, though still weak, we had dinner at East Point (NTUC Food Fare). I took MRT to Simei to look for him after I knock off from work. After dinner, we went to rent Hong Kong Drama series home to watch. *Nice Nice*

I didn't meet up with my friends that night, hence, I stayed with him and watched the DVDs till we were tired and went to bed. On Sat, we woke up and went for breakfast before going back to my home to collect my barang barang and went Bishan to trim my eye brow again *it has been a long time since I trim them* Thereafter, we went home to continue our drama series.

Later in the evening, I attended Aiyun's wedding dinner @ River View Hotel. Rating: 3/5 Not recommended.

Chua Gek Choo / Patricia Tan / Lynn Tay / Agnes Chua / Judy Tan

Our Table - My colleagues

Talking about wedding, I have been thinking what I should wear for Rachel's wedding. Yes, we will be attending her wedding because Johnson has given his confirmation that his graduation ceremony will not fall within that period.

After the wedding dinner, I accompanied Beary to Lavender for dinner and everyone were staring at me (probably because I was over-dress to a hawker centre :p ) We went home to continue our DVDs after dinner.

On Sunday, we had porridge @ Ta Po. Then, we went to Louis to do our hair :) Spent almost 3 hrs there.

Beary gave me a treat @ Tampines One Sushi Tei to congratulate me for promoting to a higher grade. *Thank you Beary!*

Was supposed to meet Jeff for dinner on a Friday but because Johnson was sick, so I couldn't go. Therefore, I postponed my appointment with Alex and had dinner with Jeff & friends for his b'day celebration @ a Vegetarian Pasta Cafe. Food was good and afforable.

The gals had a ladies' night @ Golden Mile. Enjoyed ourselves and drank our fills.

On one of the Saturdays, Beary took me to Joo Chiat for Peppery Crabs! Apparently, that small eatery shop is well known for their Pepper Crab. Beary ordered 3 crabs and we were so crappily full that we couldn't finish them.

Beary & I took leave on one of the Monday and had breakfast @ Long John Silver, followed by K-Lunch. We went to do Sand Art for Evil Care Bear @ Suntec.

Joined CH & XL to the Mess on last Friday of the month because there was a COC for the committee members. I have been paying mess fees for the past 9 years and it was my first time going there. SWO Daniel was surprised to see me there and even commented that it was his first time seeing me there! Heard alot about Juliana at the Mess and 1st time seeing her socialising with everyone there - hmm.. so there were true. Saw many familiar faces and spoke to many of them and made some new friends as well. Enjoyed myself "messing" around with the gals. Free flow of alcohol & dinner was provided. Pool table & Karaoke available! Everything is free!!! :D

After mess, i was supposed to meet up with my MJ Kakis for MJ session but last min change of plan, Beary came to fetch me and my MJ kakis & CH+XL went Yello Jello to party. We had more beer!!! I think I drank til my stomach was bloated with beer *yucks* :D XL drank even more. I was so tired that I had to take a nap at that noisy place!!!

I remember we did take pictures together at Yello Jello's outing but how come nobody is posting them??? :D

Big size people and their outfits!

After going into the line of apparels, I realised that there are many people out there who thinks differently about their outfit and how they dress.

Many big size people out there believes that they would be able to look slim in certain clothes. They believe that clothes that suit them should be able to cover their fats. They failed to understand that it is self denial!

I have to agree that we should only wear clothes that fit nicely on us and we must look pretty in it. However, that doesn't mean that we would not look fat, if we are already fat!

Big size people also often believes that they would not look fat in black color clothings. I remembered Jill Lowe told me that this is so not true! Of course, we would appear not so fat in black but that doesn't cover our fats and extra flesh!

These people should be educated that we can only choose clothes that doesn't make us look anymore fatter; not the other way round.

Most importantly, we should look presentable with what we wear and suitability for the event, as well as maintaining the correct image one should possess! When we dress presentably, we would gain the confidence and though fat, we are still pretty :)

Letting go of the grudges? Evil Care Bear says "no".

There's this saying: "forgive and forget". Sometimes, it is just not that easy. When someone did you wrong and you were hurt, how are you supposed to forgive and even forget? Even if we could forgive, it's definitely not easy to forget.

Yes, I posted an article on "Letting go" in Jun 09. I remembered what the article is all about and trying hard to practice it.

Someone did something that hurt Judy and after analysing the incident, Judy was sure that someone had did it to her on purpose and was very angry with someone, though she had no idea the ultimate purpose of someone's actions.

After sometime, Judy wanted to "let go" of this grudges but she just couldn't do it. She tried analysing it with herself and was positive about letting go but after rationale it with Evil Care Bear, the outcome will turn negative again. Evil Care Bear also highlighted that even if Judy decided to bury the hatch, her family is not going to accept someone again. and if her family cannot accept someone, she will ganna influence and not accept someone too.

Of course there are people who will persuade Judy to let go as they feel that it's no big deal. but then again, "You wouldn't know how painful it is when you aren't the one who feel the pinch!"

You can describe her as petty but when it concerns her family, she is unable to let go easily *Evil*

When Judy said "let go", she means just let things remain as usual and not hold it against someone anymore -- it does not mean being close again. Just ordinary friend. As for now, Judy is practically ignoring someone and even gets irritated at the sight of someone. *very unreasonable hor*

However, She believes that her god had given her some directions on letting go. There were some instances that god led her to the directions. Therefore, she also feel that it's time to let go. but how is she going to do it? how is Judy going to let go, as in how to accept someone as a friend again?

*Frown* Is she thinking too complex or she is just thinking it all in a wrong direction.

My happy day -- 17 Jul 09

Besides recalling the embarrassing moment in the morning on this day, it was also quite a happy day. I had the chance to savour the famous 108 Depot Road Claypot Laska for lunch since I had a training session @ CMPB in the morning.

Anyway, the training session was a relaxed one. Unlike the rest of the batch had went, there was no hands-on for this batch because we were too big a group, which was why the venue was at Tower A Auditorium. The whole training was dry and majority of the trainees had fell asleep at the start of the training (-_-") When we were about to start on the 2nd session, the trainer commented that it was an important part and hence, for those who were sleeping, it's time to wake up and concentrate! *hahaha* I caught a glimpse that some of those who had dozed off were MAJs & LTCs! :p

Even I dozed off a couple of times. That's the problem with no hands-on. The trainees could have try to explode and play around with the new prog if there were hands-on and they could be more attentive, rather than to sit there and listen to something absolutely foreign to them.

After lunch, I went to buy some egg tarts for the office and when I was there, I saw the cakes in the fridge which looked very beautifully decorated. Then, I recalled it was MA's b'day today. I called KJ to confirm that MA would be around and happily bought a blue-berry chocolate cake for him :)

Initially, I was still thinking what I should buy for him on his b'day :) Now I got to think hard what to get for him as a farewell gift :(

Good thing that boss left on time today, we took the cake, with candles lit, into his room and off his lights. Like me, he didn't want us to sing him a b'day song :) He made a wish - everyone to be happy and he will be happy - and blew off the candles. *haha* as usually, CC requested b'day boy/gal for lucky nos. He sliced the cake and we distributed it on his behalf. He also mentioned that he hasn't had a b'day cake for many years. *heh... I am different. I always make it a point to celebrate b'days. It marked that we had another year more and I told KJ and Darren before that I will want to celebrate my b'day every year and cut as many cakes as possible on each b'day :) * I like b'days, regardless whose b'day.

MA make it a point to knock off on the dote (in fact, he had worked beyond knock off time) and rushed home because his wife had promised to cook for him :) *so sweet* Before he left, he thanked CC. He probably thought that she was the one who bought the cake because such job usually fall under the role of a CC :)

17 Jul 09 -- An embarrassing Moment

Jul has been a busy month for me. Due to the implementation of new system and re-organisation, I had to attend lotsa training.

I went for a training @ Tower A Auditorium today. The last time I stepped into this auditorium was in Apr 2005 - for PAFF Workplan Seminar, it was also the last PAFF workplan I had attended.

When I went in, sat down comfortably, awaiting the trainer, I looked at the stage and the embarrassing moment which took place in Apr '05 flashed back into my mind... ...

I was presenting MFU's workplan together with my colleague, Horace. I was nervous then. After the presentation, lights went out and we made our way down the stage. As I was walking down the stairs, I accidentally slipped and my face went right into the Horace's bum!!! I was damn embarrassed but apparently, not many people were aware, probably because it was dark but I believed some did hear me saying "OUCH" cos I didn't off my mike! I got a bruised leg for a week.

As I recalled it today, I could remember the feeling of my face "banging" into his bum! eh.. a soft feeling (-_-")

My question to mummy

I asked mummy if Moths bite! Her reply was "Dunno, have not heard of before". Haha...

I came across the b/m article between a business man & a civil servant and had posted it on Multiply about 2-3 years ago. I believe this is a true story and have touched the hearts of many.

This doesn't necessary relates to married couples but to everyone who has a 3rd party, like Dew, in a relationship. Without people like Dew, either party in the relationship would still go off-track when he/she is attracted to the "flowers" he/she saw along the journey and decided to break off with the party he/she has been holding on for years.

It never failed to touch my heart regardless how many times I read it. I was happy for the wife because her hubby eventually chose her (and I hope that they are still together til they're parted by death). A sore loser like me pray that I would have a happy ending in life too.

When You Divorce Me, Carry Me Out in Your Arms

On my wedding day, I carried my wife in my arms. The bridal car stopped in front of our one-room flat. My buddies insisted that I carry her out of the car in my arms. So I carried her into our home. She was then plump and shy.. I was a strong and happy bridegroom. This was the scene ten years ago.

The following days were as simple as a cup of pure water: we had a kid; I went into business and tried to make more money. When the assets were steadily increasing, the affection between us seemed to ebb.

She was a civil servant. Every morning we left home together and got home almost at the same time. Our kid was studying in a boarding school.

Our marriage life seemed to be enviably happy. But the calm life was more likely to be affected by unpredictable changes.

Dew came into my life!

It was a sunny day. I stood on a spacious balcony. Dew hugged me from behind. My heart once again was immersed in her stream of love. This was the apartment I bought for her.

Dew said, you are the kind of man who best draws girls' eyeballs. Her words suddenly reminded me of my wife. When we were just married, my wife said, Men like you, once successful, will be very attractive to girls.

Thinking of this, I became somewhat hesitant. I knew I had betrayed my wife.. But I couldn't help doing so.

I moved Dew's hands aside and said you go to select some furniture, O.K.? I've got something to do in the company. Obviously she was unhappy, because I had promised to do it together with her. At the moment, the idea of divorce became clearer in my mind although it used to be something impossible to me.

However, I found it rather difficult to tell my wife about it. No matter how mildly I mentioned it to her, she would be deeply hurt.

Honestly, she was a good wife. Every evening she was busy preparing dinner. I was sitting in front of the TV. The dinner was ready soon. Then we watched TV together. Or, I was lounging before the computer, visualizing Dew's body. This was the means of my entertainment.

One day I said to her in a slightly joking way, suppose we divorce, what will you do? She stared at me for a few seconds without a word.

Apparently she believed that divorce was something too far away from her. I couldn't imagine how she would react once she got to know I was serious.

When my wife went to my office, Dew had just stepped out. Almost all the staff looked at my wife with a sympathetic eye and tried to hide something while talking to her. She seemed to have got some hint. She gently smiled at my subordinates. But I read some hurt in her eyes.

Once again, Dew said to me, He Ning, divorce her, O.K.? Then we live together. I nodded. I knew I could not hesitate any more.

When my wife served the last dish, I held her hand. I've got something to tell you, I said. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the serious topic calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I'm serious. I avoided her question. This so-called answer made her angry.. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man!

That night, we didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer, because my heart had gone to Dew.

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. I felt a pain in my heart.

The woman who had been living ten years with me would become a Stranger one day. But I could not take back what I had said.

Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer.

Late that night, I came back home after entertaining my clients. I saw her writing something at the table. I fall asleep fast. When I woke up, I found she was still there. I turned over and was asleep again.

She brought up her divorce conditions: she didn't want anything from me, but I was supposed to give her one month's time before divorce, and in the month's time we must live as normal a life as possible. Her reason was simple: our son would finish his summer vacation a month later and she didn't want him to see our marriage was broken.

She passed me the agreement she drafted, and then asked me, He Ning, Do you still remember how I entered our bridal room on the wedding day?

This question suddenly brought back all those wonderful memories to me. I nodded and said, I remember. You carried me in your arms, she continued, so, I have a requirement, that is, you carry me out in your arms on the day when we divorce. From now to the end of this month, you must carry me out from the bedroom to the door every morning.

I accepted with a smile. I knew she missed those sweet days and wished to end her marriage romantically.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she does, she has to face the result of divorce, she said scornfully. Her words more or less made me feel uncomfortable.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. We even treated each other as a stranger. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten metres with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly, Let us start from today, don't tell our son. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for a bus, I drove to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. We were so close that I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn't looked at this intimate woman carefully for a long time. I found she was not young any more. There were some fine wrinkles on her face.

On the third day, she whispered to me, the outside garden is being demolished. Be careful when you pass there.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I seemed to feel that we were still an intimate couple and I was holding my sweetheart in my arms. The visualization of Dew became vague.

On the fifth and sixth day, she kept reminding me something, such as, where she put the ironed shirts, I should be careful while cooking, etc.

I nodded. The sense of intimacy was even stronger. I didn't tell Dew about this. I felt it was easier to carry her. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. I said to her, It seems not difficult to carry you now.

She was picking her dresses. I was waiting to carry her out. She tried quite a few but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. I smiled. But I suddenly realized that it was because she was thinner that I could carry her more easily, not because I was stronger. I knew she had buried all the bitterness in her heart.

Again,I felt a sense of pain.. Subconsciously I reached out a hand to touch her head.

Our son came in at the moment. Dad, it's time to carry mum out. He said. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had been an essential part of his life. She gestured our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face because I was afraid I would change my mind at the last minute. I held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly, as if we came back to our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad.

On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. She said, actually I hope you will hold me in your arms until we are old.

I held her tightly and said, both you and I didn't notice that our Life lacked intimacy.

I jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my decision. I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door. I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I won't divorce. I'm serious.

She looked at me, astonished. The she touched my forehead. You got no fever.. She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I said, I can only say sorry to you, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn't value the details of life, not because we didn't love each other any more. Now I understand that since I carried her into the home, she gave birth to our child, I am supposed to hold her until I am old. So I have to say sorry to you.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove to the office.

When I passed the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet for my wife which was her favorite. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until we are old... ...

A Piece of News (7 Jul 09)

I saw this piece of news on yahoo @ about 3.30am on Sat morning. Briefly read the news and my mind was saying "sad... another NSF passed away during his NS stint". This is the usual thought I would have whenever I saw such news.

On Saturday night, LC told us that she saw the news about the death of the NSF. Anyway, his name is Nicholas. We briefly talked about it.

On Monday, KJ sent me an SMS indicating that the guy was chief's daughter's bf! I was like "ar?" and in my mind I was "but the daughter is only 13 years old".

When I was back to office today, KJ filled me up with all the details - his "Chief" refers to "Chief Clerk". OMG!!! Isn't that her 2nd daughter's boyfriend?

According to KJ, CC received a call from one of the warrant from Gombak Base to inform her about Nicholas' death. She was shocked and didn't believe it initially. Immediately, she called a few person to confirm and quickly called her husband for advice. She wanted to inform her 2nd daughter but was told by her elder daughter that she had gotten the news and rushed to the hospital. I guess CC was too shocked and lost that she broke down in office on Friday. MA was shocked with her reaction and thought what had happened.

CC took leave for the whole of this week to accompany her daughter. I felt sorry for her daughter. At the age of 21 years old, she had to accept the death of her partner, someone whom she had spent 6 years with. Someone whom she had shared dreams with. It's not gonna be easy to get over it.

Her daughter's 21st b'day is a week or so away. The family had already made reservation to celebrate her b'day for her, together with their daughters' boyfriends. Nicholas had also made plans and reserved a hotel room to celebrate her 21st b'day but now the b'day gal had to call up to cancel the reservation etc. That is even terrible!

The daughter was at the wake to accompany him for the last few days. Heard that she talks to him frequently and bought McDonalds for him.

Who would have expected their love ones to leave just like that? I overheard this sentence yesterday "when you die, you just die. it's the people whom are left behind that suffer". I had to agree whole-heartedly to this statement.

I ever told beary this - if he were to die before me and we hadn't married, i would probably asked for a marriage thru those creepy ceremony. and i am serious.

If given a choice, I would rather die before my love one because it's terrible to miss them but then if I die, I must make sure I have already prepared well for my mom and my gal, otherwise, who would take care of them when I died.

Therefore, we should be mindful and conscious to appreciate people around us, rather than after they had left us for good.

15 Jun 09

I was unhappy because I had to make a decision that upset someone and kinda "caused" unneccessarily disturbance to the other person as he had to "protect" me.

I was pressurized over this issue and I hope everything would end off nicely. *I pray for Buddha to give me the wisdom to do so*

Same old topic

I attended Valerie's wedding last night and Felicia & Alan asked about when I am getting married again. Seeing how happy Val was, I wished I could be a bride too.

I learnt of many things about myself lately. It kinda tell me that Johnson is not the one. If he is not the one, I am walking in rounds again? If he is not the one, who is the one? The most fearful truth is "there is no-one!" *SOB SOB* Sighz... ...

We saw bridal fair in Bugis and I brought up the topic again. We suspect that I am pregnant and took test. Results: -ve. In a way, it is a good and bad news. To a certain extend, it is a good news cos we could finally married. In another way, it is a bad news because it was a unwanted baby and 2nd time "shot-gun" again? I dun wanna be a laughing stock to others again!!!

He asked me not to pressure him and we will ROM next year. However, next year is not a good year and worst thing if he is not the one... He only stands in his own shoe. Very selfish. Doesn't think for me. I explained to him that next year is not a good one for me but he refused to believe.

After talking to him, he said he has 3 main reasons:

1. Not enuff money

2. Acceptance by family

3. He is not ready.

From what I see... I think it will be impossible even in next year. Maybe he is really not the one. What can I say? I am really stubborn. The fortune teller is right -- I have been making circles and wrong ones in my life!!!

阿桑 (Judy)

I only know one of her song -- 叶子

We were still talking about her last Saturday and she passed away on Monday, 06 Apr 09 @ the age of 34 -- Breast Cancer. She was supposed to get married next year... ...

Her death kinda sadden me though I am no fan of hers. Anyway, can read more about her on http://blog.sina.com.cn/asangblog

Surprised Celebration for Oliver

Thank you for all the suggestions. After all the brain storming, we have settled for a fishy surprise celebration @ Fish & Co (Glass House), which is located @ Dhoby Ghaut.

We are planning to "borrow" the musical instrument, either the guitar or keyboard, from the band and play/sing him a b'day song. Then, we will invite him to sing us a song

After dinner, we can either proceed to family KTV (i.e Party World or Gold Dust Club or a KTV Pub in Boat Quay).

Okay, the plan goes as this... ...

1. We have to be @ Fish & Co around 6+ to secure a table to accomodate all of us. They do not accept reservation on weekends and P.H
2. The band only starts at 7.30pm, therefore, we would approach them to ask for permission to use the keyboard and stage for 5 mins.
3. 2 of us will meet Oliver @ Plaza Sing at 7.30pm. Blindfold him and bring walk here and there in Plaza Sing before bring him over to Fish & Co (Motive: Confusion)
4. When he arrived at the door, we will bring out the cake and alert the crew and band to get ready.
5. Let him stand in front of the stage and faces everyone (meanwhile, all of us in our position) then ask him to remove his blindfold, followed by Happy Birthday Song!
6. After the song, make wish, blow candles and then invite him to sing all a song.
7. DINNER.
8. Proceed for Family Karaoke, KTV Pub in Boat Quay (Pse vote, otherwise, SUGGEST) Gold Dust Club is off the list because he may be offended.
9. Home Sweet Home

I proposed to get a cake from Angie's Choice and we share the cost among those who are going (Objections?)

As for dinner, we will split the bill equally (including him??) Instead of buying him a dinner, shall we get him a gift? Probably an Ang Bao would be good bcos he is rather fussy with gifts! If we are giving him an Ang Bao, may I suggest about $15-20/pax? (Objections??)

As of now, we have the following

Confirmed Going
- Rachel
- Kareen
- JS
- Johnson
- Judy

Not Attending
- Adam & the Tong's family
- Ken

Lastly, anyone not going but wants to contribute a share, are most welcome to do so

Thank you.

Save water??

My block is undergoing some upgrading programme. In fact, the surrounding blocks are also taking turns to go through the upgrading programme. Mobile toilets and bathrooms are provided at the void decks of all the upgrading blocks, mainly because some toilets will be renovated and there is no water supply from 8am to 6pm for a few weeks/each unit.

I noticed that for some residents, before their renovation even took place, they were already going down for showers and washing of clothes. *OMG* To train themselves to get used to using public bathrooms or to save water?? (-_-") Some residents even took the opportunity to wash their cars! Residents who reside in other blocks also came.

Since water supply is available in the evening after 6pm and temporary bathrooms are built in the toilets for residents usage, residents should be bathing at home yah? I noticed residents using the mobile bathrooms in the night, despite that there is no shower heater! This applies to aunties and uncles as well. Aren't they afraid of rheumatism?

It leaves me pondering if I would practice that too?

Gambling Nite

It is a memorable event which I must definitely note down!!!

About 2 weeks ago, we had our weekly MJ sessions, which would usually ends around early morning. On that particular day. we decided to end the session after playing only for a few hours (probably due to the humid weather lately) and decided to have supper @ McDonald (to enjoy the aircon; not for the food!)

This was funny. We weren't exactly hungry, therefore, we ordered a Fish and McSpicy + 9 pcs Nuggets & Fries to share. We cut the burger into 4 halves. Neighbouring diners must be thinking how pathetic we are. *kekeke*

While we were having our supper and listening to me complaining about how bad McDonald is and how unwillingly I am to spend my $$ on, etc etc... ... a group of ladies, sitting next to us, were playing poker cards.

The four of us started chatting about our Genting experience on how the dealer distribute 3 Kings etc etc, and we got excited and headed to LC's place to play "Rolex". Using chips worth of 10c and 20c, we took turns to play the role of Dealers for "Rolex", 3 Kings, "Ban Luck" and even "Da xiao". LOL... ... it was so fun and we don't even feel tired at all!

The feeling was good and we played almost all the basic games we could find in a proper casino. We were like 4 gambling addicts... ... :)

01 April 2009

On 1st Apr, I had to share the following news with my boyfriend:

- I couldn't find my wallet and had most probably left it in the taxi on my way to work. However, I couldn't recall which taxi I took and I had to call up all the taxi companies to ask for assistance to broadcast the message to their cabbies. / Obviously no results! Good thing I still have a bag of coins with me for food.

- A monitor caused a small explosion, probably because of over-heating, at the neighbouring office in the morning and we had to be evacuated from the building.

- I twisted my ankle on my way from the canteen in the afternoon and it was hurting so badly! I called him a few times + some smses to update him how painful my ankle was caused by the inflammation.

Without $$$ caused I lost my wallet and with a twisted ankle, how could I go home?? My bf volunteered to come and pick me up from work and send me home.

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HAHAHA... ... April's Fool!!! kekeke... ...