I attended Valerie's wedding last night and Felicia & Alan asked about when I am getting married again. Seeing how happy Val was, I wished I could be a bride too.
I learnt of many things about myself lately. It kinda tell me that Johnson is not the one. If he is not the one, I am walking in rounds again? If he is not the one, who is the one? The most fearful truth is "there is no-one!" *SOB SOB* Sighz... ...
We saw bridal fair in Bugis and I brought up the topic again. We suspect that I am pregnant and took test. Results: -ve. In a way, it is a good and bad news. To a certain extend, it is a good news cos we could finally married. In another way, it is a bad news because it was a unwanted baby and 2nd time "shot-gun" again? I dun wanna be a laughing stock to others again!!!
He asked me not to pressure him and we will ROM next year. However, next year is not a good year and worst thing if he is not the one... He only stands in his own shoe. Very selfish. Doesn't think for me. I explained to him that next year is not a good one for me but he refused to believe.
After talking to him, he said he has 3 main reasons:
1. Not enuff money
2. Acceptance by family
3. He is not ready.
From what I see... I think it will be impossible even in next year. Maybe he is really not the one. What can I say? I am really stubborn. The fortune teller is right -- I have been making circles and wrong ones in my life!!!
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