Women women... ...

The poor country pastor was livid when he confronted his wife with the receipt for a $250 dress she had bought.

"How could you do this!" he exclaimed

"I don't know," she wailed, "I was standing in the store looking at the dress. Then I found myself trying it on. It was like the Devil was whispering to me, "Gee, you look great in that dress. You should buy it."

"Well," the pastor persisted, "You know how to deal with him! Just tell him, 'Get behind me, Satan!'"

"I did," replied his wife, "but then he said 'It looks great from back here too!'"

Joke of the day: Damn Good Story

Towards the end of the service, the Minister asked, "How many of you here forgiven your enemies?

80% of the congregation held up their hands.

The Minister then repeated his question. All responded this time, except a small elderly lady.

Minister: Mdm Tan? Are you not willing to forgive your enemies?

"I don't have to," she replied with a smile.

Minister: that is very unusual. How old are you?

Mdm Tan: 98

Minister: Oh, Mdm Tan, would you pse come forward to share with us how a person can live 98 years and not have an enemy in the world?

Mdm Tan tottered down the aisle, faced the congregation and said "I outlived the bitches."

Counting down

Evil Care Bear, who is already in her late 20s, turns 28 tomorrow! She starts counting down since this morning... ... :)

I remembered that when I was a 18-year old gal, I find 28-year old damn old and I don't know how my life will be like at then.

Now that I am almost 28, I don't feel old at all and I am actually looking forward to my b'days in the coming year! I wouldn't mind having many candles on my b'day cake because I am NOT SHAME of my age, be it late 20s or 30s! Hmm... ... I will probably start to feel paisei of my age when I turn into my 40s bah (or I probably wun) :p

What's up with birthdays? Some people will not miss celebrating their b'days while some people just hope that nobody remembers. I like b'days, not just mine but others as well. I like the idea of eating cakes (especially chocolate fav or even durian fresh cake), singing b'day songs, having everybody together, having fun and, most importantly, the big smile on the b'day boy or gal.

I like happy and joyous occasions and I make an effort to attend it (unless I dun like U!). In my opinion, these celebrations gives people reasons to get together to enjoy and have fun! However, I will also accept invites for net-working sake! *hehe*

Anyway... ... I like groups! I like friends! I dislike boredom! I dislike being alone!

Oh... and some people uses b'days as an excuse to buy pressies for themselves and I think I am one of them!!! *hehehe*

Probably because I have not been working for a month, I feel so relaxed and I have been shopping and buying stuff (not just for myself!) for Mavis & Mummy as well! *Hehehe*

I saw a very pretty sweater on Tuesday when I was shopping around at Vivo! A few boutiques were selling these sweaters at different price range (i.e. between $49.90 - $45.90) but of same design and material! I like such long long sweater bery much but I find the price too costly (because I believed that it should not be sooooo expensive). Therefore, I went around hoping to find one at the lowest price range. I managed to find one from ELLA selling at $39.00 *very tempted to buy* but still insist to look for a cheaper one (furthermore, the black color one has been sold out). Eventually, I REALLY FOUND ONE with the same material and design at $25.90 (in Chong Pang)!!! *HAHAHA* I bought it without 2nd thoughts but I am not satisfied because it is not black in color.

Therefore, I still wanna hunt for a black one but selling at a cheap price! *HEHEHE* Ella called me to inform that the new stocks have arrived and a black one is available. I went down to take a look and after many thoughts (not just 2nd thots)... ... *hehe* I decided to buy it! Same material but different designs @ $39! So happy!!!

Conclusion: I got 2 very pretty sweaters to wear to work, "kai kai" and party!!! *heehee* And these are my dream wear! Since young, I like such design of sweaters/jackets but the weather in Singapore doesn't allow me to wear them!!! *Hippie!*

What others say... ...

Woah... I have been home for a month and I have been enjoying myself everyday. I don't (really) miss my job, the people, my desk, etc. *it is a signal of disliking the job or the people or the environment*

Since day 1 when I was discharged and given 3 weeks to rest at home, Mavis asked me "huh? You not going to work for so long? Then we don't have money liao lor? How?" *haha* I like the questions she has pointed out to me! I didn't say much, just told her "Ya. so we cannot anyhow spend, okay?"

After the first week, i started to go to my neighbourhood area. After noticing that I have not been going to work, I bet that the KPO uncles sitting at the void deck must be saying "She not working anymore? Everyday also no need to go work!" (Note: They must also have speculated that I have been retrenched!) *hehehe*

The hawkers whom I don't talk to but knows who I am and have been seeing me around for the entire month must be saying "she not working already ar?"

Sometime last week, my brother asked me "Sis, are you still working?"
I replied "No!"
My bro "huh? You are not working there anymore?"
I replied "No!"
My bro "then where are you going to work?"
I replied "Not working!" *with a hidden grin*
my bro "Oh... ..."

Wahahaha... ...

14 Nov 08

I went for a review yesterday and my gynae found another small cyst and cut away for me in my awake condition *Scary* I could hear the sound made by the scissors. Anyway, I was supposed to start work today but my gynae has extended my hospitalisation leave.

Unlike previous times, I didn't spend a long time @ the hospital and it appears that there were fewer patients ytd. Anyway, good for me that I didn't have to wait for long.

Took the shuttle service to Novena MRT station and while we were in the bus, an indian lady, got up from her seat and before she alighted from the bus at the doorway, commented that we, China People, are uneducated and selfish. She probably said that because she has secured a seat for herself but had to give it up and alight to wait for the next bus as her daughter couldn't secure one for herself. This raised many commotions in the bus. Many aunties were talking to one another (though they didn't know each other) saying "we are from China meh?" while some said "we looked like we are from China meh?". *LOL* One of the aunty told that indian lady "yea yea.. China people not educated, you are educated. Singapore got you this kinda people, good ar!" Feeling very satisfied, the indian lady agreed and alighted from the bus. *Joke of the day for me*

Exam starts immediately after when my hospitalisation leave end! Should be considered as a good thing because I have many days to prepare for it. I flunk one subject in my last module :( got to re-take it this semester, which means I have got 3 subjects to sit for! *Oops* I have yet to start my revision (^_^) I am collecting the exam notes from my friend this weekend and will make an effort to start revision on Monday! Meanwhile, I am not slacking too -- I am starting to compile some data for submission to my boss this 2 days :( Nevertheless, that is not the boring part because besides the daily shitting, sleeping and meal times, I spent the rest of my time on gaming and surfing the net with Mavis (besides teaching her to do some revision :p)! We are so obsessed with SIMs 2 again and have been playing for days! And guess what time I sleep??

Oh I wanna share this... ...
I've always found Evan Yo (蔡旻佑) very familiar then one day, I realised that he and Rafael looked damn alike! Their smiles are so charming! Oliver likes to sing one of Evan's song and whenever Oliver sing his song, I would tell him, he looked like a friend of mine and Oliver would say "me lo!" *haha*

See! Look alike yah? Either same age or a year difference.
Evan Yo (蔡旻佑) vs Rafael Lam

Had dinner with my friends @ Swensen a few days ago. Cas bought a b'day cake each for JS & I but Swensen gave an excuse that Angie's Choice is not a halal cake (I think it is only acceptable if they be trueful and said that they cannot allowed us to have the cake there because they sell cakes too!). However, we can only blow the candles there :p

Anyway, we dun "har-doubt" to cut the cake there as well -- not as if they have got nice ambience *Split saliva*

We make a reservation @ Xin Wang Cafe and proceeded there to cut our cake after we are done with our dinner. Personally, I feel that it's so fun and excited having to celebrate your b'day on the same day with another person who also shares the same b'date as you do! Not easy to find wor!

B'day Boy & Gal

Our friends

"Oh Dear Jason... ..."

-----Heard about this from a friend----

Coming into the bar and ordering a double, Jason leaned over and confided to the bartender, "I'm so pissed off!"

"Oh yeah? What happened?" asked the bartender politely.

"See, I met this beautiful woman who invited me back to her home. We stripped off our clothes and jumped into bed and we were just about to make love when her damned husband came back. So I had to jump out of the bedroom window and hang from the ledge by my fingernails!"

"Gee, that's tough," commiserated the bartender.

"Right, but that's not what really got me," Jason went on, "When her husband came into the room, he said "Hey great! You're naked already! Let me take a peak." And damned the lazy son of a bitch piss out of the window and right onto my head!"

"Yeech!" the bartender shook his head. "No wonder you are in a lousy mood."

"Yeah, but I haven't told you what really, really got to me. Next, I had to listen to them grunting and groaning and when they finished, the husband tossed his condom out of the window. And where does it land? My damned forehead!"

"Damn, that's awful!" says the bartender.

"Oh, I'm not finished. See what really pissed me off was when the husband had to take a dump. It turns out that their toilet is broken so he stuck his ass out of the window and let loose right on my head!"

The bartender paled. "That would sure mess up my day."

"Yeah, yeah, yeah," Jason rattled on, "but do you know what REALLY REALLY REALLY pissed me off? When I looked down and saaw that my feet were only SIX inches off the ground."

My Neighbour -- 24 Oct 08

My neighbour, a very KPO old aunty, saw me at the carpark alighting from Johnson's car when I came home from the hospital. Seeing Johnson carrying a big bag for me and carrying hampers, she went to tell the other KPO aunties that I had just delivered and came back from the hospital (-.-")

How did I know???

One of e KPOs, who is also staying at my block, saw my mom at e market the next day after I came home and asked my mom "Oh Aunty, your daughter just delivered and came back from e hospital ytd ar?" (Note: My mom has never spoke a word to her before) My mom gave her one kind of look and walked off. *haha*

That silly aunty damn funny! Saw me walked very slowly and came home with many hampers so she assumed that I was back from the hospital and had delivered a child but strange... why it didn't strike her that my new born baby is not with me and how come my stomach has always been only 3 months big?! Duh!!

It's all about me agn

Thanks to Johnson, I was down with flu and cough over the past few days. From running nose to blocked nose after taking his medication.

I've stayed home for about 2 weeks. Johnson rented a few comedy movies and the whole episode of Moonlight Resonance (溏心風暴之家好月圓) for me. He also bought a PSP (I am going to share the cost with him :p) for all of us to play. Therefore, I wasn't really bored but of course I still missed the Care Bear group and yearning to go out with them :) (but i wondered if my company is missed :p)

Since my surgery, my mom has been cooking for me everyday. It's either fish, pork or kidney soup. I'll either have mee suan or steamed rice. Oh and sometimes tonic soup for supper (as shown on e right). Breakfast is usually mee suan soup. Lunch and dinner will be either mee suan soup or steamed rice with either steamed fish (or sometimes pan fried), steamed pork ribs or stir fry pork or kidney soup and sometimes vegetables too.

While staying at home, I also gotten a pleasant surprise wor. Sometime last week, I received a call from Orchid Florist to ask if I am home because they have got a delivery to make to me. When I asked them who was it from, they told me Karen.

When it was delivered, then I found out that it was from Kareen and JS. Thank you! (Hey Kareen, you wanna see the flowers.. here it is.)

My mom's god-daughter also bought me a basket of chicken essences. :) Now my house got lotsa fish essences and chicken essences. Lelong Lelong... sell to you cheap cheap (hehe) Just joking. Really appreciate all yr concern.

Oh... before I forget, I wanna note that we celebrated Xiao Si's b'day in August and of course we took some pictures. We had dinner @ Kuishin-Bo (see appended picture) and the missing person in this photo is our dear friend Oliver.

After dinner, we went Carrefour to buy some alcoholic drinks and XXX then we head off to Kenny and Xiao si's hotel room to have a drink. We also had a chance to sink ourselves into the jacuzzi in the garden which comes together with the hotel room (just like how I played the Sims were) and sipping our bottles of drinks. I feel as if I were one of the character in Sims!

We managed to capture a picture of our sexy bear, Vincent!

Xiao si & her miniature Xiao si from her sister-in-law :)

My Hongkong Diary [Aug 08]

*This was drafted on my Sony Ericsson M600I since the 1st day we set off to HK*

Day 1
We happily board our plane at the Singapore Airport and reach Hongkong safely. We alighted from the plane and took a mini bus, which looks like an MRT, and transferred to the Airport arrival hall. We collected our baggage, queue up to purchase the Octupus Card and took MTR to Kowloon station. From there, we took a cab to Dorsett hotel @ 大角咀 near Mongkok (旺角).

After checking into the hotel, we went makan @ a tea house cafe (茶餐厅) in 通菜街 @ Mongkok. Their egg noodles is really deliciously cooked and is of better standard than in Singapore. After dinner, we went jalan jalan @ 女人街.

Day 2
We had Dim Sum @ a tea house in Mongkok and spent about SGD$20+ for 9 dishes. After breakfast, we took MTR to Jin Zhong (金钟) followed by bus 629 to Ocean Park (海洋公园). We spent the whole day there and covered the whole park. We played so hard that we didn't even know that we were hungry and I almost vomited.

After we left the park and went back to Jin Zhong, we took the City Bus 15 to The Peak (山頂). We went to the top of the Gallery and looked over the beautiful night scenery of Hong Kong.

Thereafter, we proceeded for fine dining at Zen Chinese Cuisine. We had Roast Goose, Shark Fin Soup, Pork Ribs and Prawns with Walnuts and a glass of White Wine to go along with the nice dinner. After dinner, we went to Mdm Tussard and took lotsa funny pictures :p

We queued up and took a tram back to Central (中環). We took MTR back to 旺角 and took a cab back to the hotel. Good thing that typhoon hasn't arrive when we depart from the Peak, otherwise, we would have be stucked up there.

Day 3
Typhoon striked Hong Kong. The last time it happened was in 2003. How lucky it is for us to experience it! Majority of the people are not working and we were even advised to stay indoor.

Nevertheless, we went to Langham Place in Mongkok and watched a movie (Cyborg She). By 3pm, the typhoon signal went up to 8. We decided to return to the hotel and watched TV and fell asleep till 9pm. Before that, we had lunch at the hotel cafeteria. We decided to go out and check on the weather and gosh... the typhoon signal went up to 9 (Hurricane strikes when it reaches 10).

Left with no choice, we went to the street across our hotel for dinner. The place sucks! They served dirty and cold food with no service standard at all! The lousiest cafe I went in Hong Kong during my stay there. After dinner, we went to the 7-11 to buy some snacks, cup noodles and magazines. When we came out from the store, there were strong wind blowing and metal sheets were flying around.

For the whole day, most of the people in HK, including us, were constantly checking out the TV broadcast on the status of the typhoon. We felt anxiety and at the same time anticipating the typhoon. Instead of watching the news in Singapore about the typhoon in HK, we were actually there experiencing the typhoon itself. It was unnerving and yet so real. I could see people rushing from one place to another to take cover from the typhoon, metal sheets flying around dangerously and umbrellas being busted by the strong gust of wind. Everything seems to stop operating, including public buses, taxis, shopping malls, eateries house and restaurants.

Day 4
We woke up early in the morning and watched the TV for updates on the typhoon. HURRAY!!!! It's finally over. I was very happy. We quickly washed up and set off for shopping at Causeway Bay (銅鑼灣) -- hoping to meet the HK Stars there but failed :(

Causeway Bay is a place where you can find all the branded stuff - you named it, they have it. We tried to look for an authentic Dim Sum Restaurant over there but failed! In the end, we settled for Crab Porridge (水蟹粥).

After that, we went Tsim Sa Tsui (尖沙咀) to shop and had Japanese Food for lunch. They served exotic japanese food such as Geese Liver, Crab Roe, Prawn sashimi, etc. We also went Avenue of Stars (星光大道) and captured all the handprints of the celebrities we know like ANDY LAU!!! *hehehe*

Later in the evening, we meet up with Johnson's friends from Hong Kong. They brought us dinner @ a Thai-India Restaurant in Tsim Sa Tsui. After dinner, the friends brought us to Harbour City (中港城) to buy tickets to Macau. Thereafter, Johnson bought them drinks @ Hard Rock.

Day 5
We woke up very early and set off to Macau. Upon reaching Macau, we set off to the biggest casino to win $$. We also had our lunch at the foodcourt. I had spaghetti. We also took a cab to Macau Central. I noticed that despite the traffic lights were working, there are traffic police directing the traffic *Strange*

Unlike Hong Kong, they have designated areas for taxis to pick up passengers and it seems that everyone adheres to it strictly. Motorcyles seems like a common mode of transport as majority of the people there used it as a mode of transport. We bought Portugese Egg Tarts, had McDonald and tried the famous pork chop bun ! It's a must try dish in Macau. We also visited the Guan Di Temple and I chatted with the people from the temple. They thought that we were from Malaysia :)

After taking a walk around the town, we took a cab back to the harbour and took a ferry back to Koonlow harbour. After that, we took MTR back to Mongkok and went to 女人街 to do some shopping. Johnson, like a woman, did all the bargaining for me. :D We spent many hours there and bought pressies for everyone.

With all the stuff, we walked back to the hotel to put our stuff before proceeding for dinner at the nearby famous hotpot restaurant, 良记 for their 猪骨鍋. We also ordered bottles of beer to go along with the hotpot. *Yummy*

Day 6

We woke up around 10 plus and check out. Went yum cha agn at a shopping mall near our hotel. I observed that many people in HK doesn't seems to be working. I have went for breakfast twice on a weekday in HK and the restaurants are always packed with people of all ages! *Puzzle*

After breakfast, we took MTR to Wang Tai Sin (黃大仙). I asked for a qian about work and went to jie qian. Very accurate wor!

Thereafter, we took MTR to Jordan station and walked to Temple Streeet (庙街) and made our way to 天后 temple. Temple Street is kinda sleazy. Got many mahjong entertainment centre and AV shops.

We had desserts at a famous dessert shop before heading back to the hotel to collect our baggage. After collecting our baggage, we took the hotel shuttle bus to Kowloon Airport Express Station and head towards the HK Intl airport.

After checking in at the airport counter, we went to shop for mooncakes at Wing Wah (榮華). We bought the Snoppy Snow Skin mooncakes and traditional mooncakes as well as the 老婆饼.

Home Sweet Home... ... days resumed back to normal after that.

My Saturday -- 18 Oct 08

I actually plan to engage a make-up artist to decide how my hair should look like since I had an event in Nov before I trim my hair. However, the event had been called off so I decided to look for Louis to trim my hair lo. My hair was way below my bra-length liao. Therefore, I spent about 3 hrs @ the salon on Sat - to trim away 5 inches and add black color onto my hair.

Louis is really skillful wor, after trimming away 5 inches of my hair, it still look good & neat. Actually, I wanted to trim away more than 5 inches but Louis dun want to cut so short for me. Unlike the other hair stylists, my hair didn't bomb even though my re-bonding is gone! Heh... Can I say that I can save $$$ on re-bonding?!

5 inches is quite alot but Oliver and Kareen didn't notice it when I meet them for Karaoke in the evening at K-box. But then, I got to be honest-it's not easy to tell since my hair is still long :p

Anyway, back to our KTV session. It was fun wor. Just 古巨基-情歌王 alone, Oliver and I sang it together for about 4 times and I think it has sank into Kareen's head already! *haha* Buay Tahan! Oh, I think I took a picture too but it's with Kareen.

After 4 hrs of KTV + buffet with the 2 of them, Kareen went to meet JS while the 2 of us strolled to Dhoby Ghaut from Cineleisure. After much discussion and "arguments" (what's new) between Oliver & I, we decided to watch 20th Century Boys. Johnson joined us for movie as well.

In the cinema

Shortly after the show starts, Johnson fall asleep. After Johnson fell asleep, Oliver fall asleep (-_-"') Oliver recommended us to watch the show (though I was reluctant!).

Adapted from Naoki Urasawa's manga thriller "20th Century Boys", Kenji and his friends start to notice a series of odd occurrences relating to their childhood. A mysterious cult-leader named "Friend" is out to destroy the world, and it has something to do with Kenji's childhood memories.

I took a power nap before the show and finished watching it w/o dozing off. It wasn't boring neither was it interesting and the best part was at the ending, I don't know who is this "Friend" and is Kenji still alive. You need to really pay attention to this movie to understand it.

At the end of the show, the 2 guys asked me to tell them what the show was about (^.^) Served them right for sleeping thru-out the show.

Mood Swing or Disappointment

I dunno if it's mood swing or disappointment. I am feeling unhappy once again. I thought I would be back to my usual self after PMS but the bad feeling is back again! I think instead of (Pre)PMS, it's (Post)PMS!

I sighz alot these days. Especially when I am alone at night. The lousy feeling affects my mood and and work. I noticed that when I dun feel happy or depress, I tend to eat alot and i really mean ALOT to make myself happy BUT i still wouldn't feel happy! When I am heart-broken, I won't eat. Perhaps that's a good thing cos it would help me to lose some weight! :)

Everything was okay until he told me he was bringing me somewhere (after we sent Karen home from movie @ Tampines Mall).

Yea.. he said he was bringing me to a place and he was flipping the Street Directory to look for that place. He sounded secretive and didn't want to tell me anything when I asked. In the end, he told me that he was finding out if there was any SPC Petrol Station in Tampines!

What a surprise! I fell into depression agn! He was just pulling my leg when he told me that he was bringing me to a place! I dun think he even know that joke of his wasn't funny and it affected me.

He could see that I was unhappy but I dun think he knows why. No point for me to mention it. It was merely a one-sided affair for me to think that there would be a surprise when he said he was bringing me to a place.

I have no right to be angry with him because he didn't even said there is going to be a surprise. I thought too much about it and was obsessed with that idea and i thought there would be a surprise!

No point for me to even write him any mail. No point for me to clarify more. What's the point? I wrote him an email on 21 Jun 08 to tell him about how i feel about this whole thing but we merely sent a few smses! Issue wasnt resolved and in fact he even misunderstood me. Saying that I want him to do it but I will reject him in public! That shows how much he spent time reading thru my email. Perhaps, he only browsed thru it or speed read it, picking up the keywords! Sighz.. in the end, it will be another big argument. What for? I should just sleep!

Diving

----- Drafted on 07 Apr 08 vide Sony Ericsson M600 -----

--- Entry Deleted on 29 Jun 08 ---

After note: Some things are better to be left in the memory rather to "pen" it out. Therefore, I have decided to delete this entry after some thoughts. If one day, I may forget these due to old age or whatever reasons it may be, we shall just leave things as it is.

My Mother

My mom has been 'hinting' me to get a 4-room flat lately!

It is so irritating! I have already bought a 3-room flat for all of them to stay and I have to pay more money for their comfort?

She said that she will not approve my sister to buy a flat on her own because she thinks that my sis is selfish and won't take care of my brother. But why tax on me?

Doesn't she know that it would pose a difficulty if I want to buy a flat with my future husband in the near future?

Kept asking me about my views! If I tell her how I feel, she's sure to quarrel with me and thinks I'm selfish and our relationship is sure to sour!

I told her anything and she said "dun say anything. We must all disc & agree." sigh...

18 Mar 08

-----Entry drafted on 18 Mar 08 vide Sony Ericsson M600-----

Was coughing very badly & breathless last night. My voice worsen due to all e coughing. Decided that I should visit Dr Fok.

After sending Mavis to school, I came back and continued to sleep while waiting for e clinic to open.

While sleeping, I dreamt that I visited the clinic and the doctor didn't issue me with any MC. I, too, forgotten to get it from him so I panicked-cos I could be charged with AWOL! *haha*

Mummy cooked some porridge for me. She woke me up to eat them and accompanied me to see Dr Fok before she went to work.

Bad bad infection! I was given 2 days of MC! A big pack of antibotics, flu medicine, cough syrup & inflamation for my voice box!

When I reached home, I took medicine and stayed in front of the Tv till the medicine took effect then I went to bed.

After sleeping for hours, I woke up and watch TV again. *heh* lately, I've been watching these 3 drama series - 我外母不是人 / 赌场风云 / Safe Guards

If I'm home on Friday nights and had missed the evening episodes, I would watched from 11pm to 2.30am! *crazy*

Actually I wanted to update my Multiply but I have got no energy to do anything. Hence, I ended up watching TV, slp, TV, slp, TV, slp... ...

Dreams

-----Entry drafted 22 Mar 08 vide Sony Ericsson M600-----

People said "日有所思，夜有所梦"

Lately, I just dreamt that another New Year has came but Mr Ngo didn't ask us to perform. Of course he wouldn't! Our skit was so lousy!! Why would he still want to ask us! I was so sad and disappointed with myself!

After I woke up, I thought about the dream and I guess I have yet to get over the CNY Skit failure!

On many occasions, I dreamt that Johnson broke up with me and sometimes he left me for a pretty gal. All these dreams usually woke me up by my cries.

Few weeks ago, I dreamt that Johnson left me for a "Tomboy". Reason being she is a very kind-hearted and nice lady! I was very sad & even attempted suicide! *Gosh* I have always been sensible in "not worth suiciding due to failure relationships but then I did it in my dream! Anyway, my cries woke me up agn.

I was taking a nap this afternoon and I dreamt that Johnson's family asked him to stop seeing me. My cries woke me up again.

Sigh... I have no idea why I have such dreams. These dreams are thoughts torturing! Is it because I feel insecure? Johnson said that it's becos I've got no confidence in myself. I dunno... ... Perhaps I have got 0% of confidence!

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Of course I feel insecure. My boyfriend said he love me but he doesnt want to marry me when asked to. He kept saying the time is not ripe. We are too young. He got 101 reasons to deny from marrying me. Perhaps, he has never wanted to do it in the first place.

05 March 2008 / 5 Years

----- Drafted on 11 Mar 08 vide Sony Ericsson M600I -----

Somethings are just so coincident! Lately, I just found out that Adam & Karen shared the same Anniversary date as Johnson & I -- Just that ours is a year older than theirs!

Jon & I were on leave yesterday, 10 Mar 08. We celebrated our 5th year anniversary - a belated one cos we had been tied up at work.

We woke up around 10 plus, washed up and went Kallang Leisure Park. It was my 1st time there!

Johnson brought me to the Japanese Restaurant, under Suki Yuki Group, for lunch! Full-Up! We went Jalan Jalan around the shopping mall. Many shops are not opened for business yet. We also went to the Games Arcade Thereafter, we went to watch Leap Year!

After movie, we went to a big empty car park, next to the temporary site for Singapore Sports Council employees to learn driving. It was fun.

At about 6pm, we went back to Leisurepark and went for a KTV session - just the 2 of us!! Shiok shiok!

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5 years.

We have been together for 5 years. Time passes by nobody's business.

Is 5 years of a relationship consider long? In every relationship, there are many stages. No idea which stage I am in. We are definitely way over "honey-moon" period.

What keeps a relationship going? Sparks? Sometimes, I think it's the companionship that keeps a couple continue walking together.

Every relationship has its ups and downs. We have our fair share too. Good thing we have survived from them but there are more to come... ...

Thank you for taking care of me all these while, as well as for the love and concern which has been showered on me whenever possible.

No idea how many anniversaries we willl be going through but we can treasure what we have now and eventually if things doesn't work out, we still have many pages of good memories stored.

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As I was saying in my entry "Expectations vs Disappointment"

Though I keep telling myself not to expect Johnson to propose to me on V-Day and on our Anniversary date, I was still hoping that he will. so of course I feel very disappointed when he didn't. but I cannot voice it out because I promised not to talk to him about it agn. I have already disgraced much after saying so much to him and he has no action... if I were to say agn, it would appear as if I am soooo damn fucking desperate to get married! *sighz* but still I can't stop feeling sad and disheartened

I thought if he really do nothing by 31 December 2008, I should decide whether to move on.

Expectation vs Disappointment

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People said "No Expectation; No Disappointment"

I agree and disagree with this statement at the same time.

People always subconciously wish for (which is already an expectation) something which they hope for, even though they know that it is quite impossible. Thus, one will feel disappointed when things doesn't go along his way.

The only difference is how great the disappointment would be. It is just some kind of feeling which you can't really control.

An example: You are attending a function and you hope to see someone there but you know it well that the person would never appear there. Still... you wish that he would be there and after waiting for sometime, reality hit you then you feel sad - That is disappointment.

Everyone experience disappointments. Neither you nor me could escape from it.

Sighz... ...I had umpteen times of disappointment.I keep telling myself not to expect for it to happen but I still hope that I will be wrong and that it would actually happen BUT I KNOW IT WELL that I will be disappointed once again!!!

Sometimes, human beings kanna so much disappointments til they get tired of it.

Happy Valentine's Day

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It's V-Day again!! Happy Valentine's Day to all, regardless if you are Single or Attached.

While I was on my way to school yesterday, Mui Har told me that there were some advertising for Valentine which cost arnd $3K and your ad for your loves one will appear on TV for 18x. *CRAZY* Pse donate the $3K to me than to throw then into the sea!!

We were also discussing that many ladies would dress up to work on V-Day, including those who do not have a partner. *haha* Of course I did my observation and many ladies looked prettier that day and most of them knock off on time to go for their dates.

I knock off 1/2 hr late (which is quite usual) and went home. Johnson came my place for dinner. My mama cooked my favourite - Chicken Curry Rice *Yumm Yum*

After dinner, we coached Mavis in her homework and ZZZzzzzz.

Well, I would rather spend more money celebrating our Anniversary, which is round the corner, than on V-Day when everything would be sooooo expensive and not worthy of the price. :)

He is gone! *sob sob*

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It was a shocking news to me. Last evening, my sister SMSed me saying that MC King has passed away the day before. She claimed that she read it in the latest U-Weekly Magazine. Of course I didn't believe her. I did not hear any news about it.

When I told Johnson what my sister told me, he laughed it off as well. However, everything was confirmed when I asked my mom just now. She told me it was true and it was published in the papers!! *How come I didn't know!!*

At 1830 hrs, the news had some publicity about his death. That was when I really confirmed that he is dead! He dead while he was sleeping. Some heart prob. Many people die of cardiology prob. :(

As the news was reporting, my eyes turned blurry too. I was so sad about his demise. He is only 40 and he has been a very cheerful and nice guy.

I dunno when exactly did I start liking him. In my memory, I started watching him playing the role of MC King. A cute young man then. He was never popular then.

Sometime last year, Johnson told me that he was one of the DJ in FM97.2 and how funny he and his partner Yongmei were. Then I started listening to their prog from 10am to 2pm from Monday to Friday. I would feel uneasy and not fulfilling when I missed their prog. Their conversations were always so funny and accompanied me thru my working hours.

It was also then I know that he has a blog and I constantly keep myself update thru his blog. He is so optimistic and bubbly. I really enjoy reading his blog.

However, there were changes to the broadcasting in 97.2 and MC King stopped his prog. I remembered faxing in my wishes for him and what a waste that I only started listening to their prog for a few months and they had to stop. He read out my fax. I

n his latest blog entry, he said this "现今的这个社会，事事难料。今天风风光光，明天口袋光光。只要每天努力向上，对得起自己，家人和友人，明天哪怕天塌下来也能即登“极乐世界”吧？我想。" and after this, he was gone.

Forever in our memories *sob sob*

Welcome 2008

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Yup I know I was late in my greetings *heh* but we are still in January (the 1st month of the year) and we are still in the 1st week of the 1st month of 2008! :p

Last New Year Eve we went Vivo for the Countdown Party. This year's New Year Eve, we had nothing to do - no prog! Sounds pathetic huh.

No tixs to Vivo Countdown Party but I witnessed the countdown thru Channel 5! *heh* however, atmosphere is not there. Anyway, Rachel asked us to go KTV but we didn't go because Johnson just kept saying "anything lo" to all my ideas :( *irritating*

Anyway, we waited for mummy to knock off at 7pm then we went down to Tampines to eat Tze Char. After that, we went Sem Pub @ Sembawang-very smelly. Stayed for a little while then we left home.

When we reached home, we watched TV til 0000hrs and Kareen told us to meet her @ Thomson. We went down, Casper & Genie was there too. We had some drinks @ Macau Cafe and ended up at Casper's pl to play mahjong.

Haha... ... What a New Year!