Mood Swing or Disappointment

I dunno if it's mood swing or disappointment. I am feeling unhappy once again. I thought I would be back to my usual self after PMS but the bad feeling is back again! I think instead of (Pre)PMS, it's (Post)PMS!

I sighz alot these days. Especially when I am alone at night. The lousy feeling affects my mood and and work. I noticed that when I dun feel happy or depress, I tend to eat alot and i really mean ALOT to make myself happy BUT i still wouldn't feel happy! When I am heart-broken, I won't eat. Perhaps that's a good thing cos it would help me to lose some weight! :)

Everything was okay until he told me he was bringing me somewhere (after we sent Karen home from movie @ Tampines Mall).

Yea.. he said he was bringing me to a place and he was flipping the Street Directory to look for that place. He sounded secretive and didn't want to tell me anything when I asked. In the end, he told me that he was finding out if there was any SPC Petrol Station in Tampines!

What a surprise! I fell into depression agn! He was just pulling my leg when he told me that he was bringing me to a place! I dun think he even know that joke of his wasn't funny and it affected me.

He could see that I was unhappy but I dun think he knows why. No point for me to mention it. It was merely a one-sided affair for me to think that there would be a surprise when he said he was bringing me to a place.

I have no right to be angry with him because he didn't even said there is going to be a surprise. I thought too much about it and was obsessed with that idea and i thought there would be a surprise!

No point for me to even write him any mail. No point for me to clarify more. What's the point? I wrote him an email on 21 Jun 08 to tell him about how i feel about this whole thing but we merely sent a few smses! Issue wasnt resolved and in fact he even misunderstood me. Saying that I want him to do it but I will reject him in public! That shows how much he spent time reading thru my email. Perhaps, he only browsed thru it or speed read it, picking up the keywords! Sighz.. in the end, it will be another big argument. What for? I should just sleep!