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So irritating! So vexed!!!!!

I cannot understand what my mom is thinking! She is in such a hurry to get that mymmar maid and had to resort to me going around to ask for loan! Sighz... I am very headache arh! How long has it been since I last going around asking people for loans?

Everything is me me me me me...

I would rather that we are not on talking terms than having her barking at me for $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

I am so upset!

31.08.11

Today is XS' B'day but the Carebear Group is no longer together. Hence, we've no more such celebration!

As I was listening to Jacky Cheung @ his concert, a few things were in my mind. Blogging, Relationships, WJ, John & our recent Batam trip.

Blogging... I was thinking to myself -- If blogging is about my personal feelings & stuff, would I want someone to read it and know what I'm thinking or how I was feeling towards certain incident. My answer was of course not! But it all depends.. Cos I'm someone who likes attention! "hahaha" but then again, I wouldn't want someone to know & understand me inside out!

29.08.2011

JACKY CHEUNG Concert @ Singapore Indoor Stadium! First time to his concert. Started off with a huge disappointment because they didn't allowed us to bring the DSLR camera! I din manage to capture any nice pictures of him :(

But while listening to the songs he played... My tear drops was almost free flow...

Our Batam Trip [27-28 Aug 11]

Just a week ago thru WhatsApp, the 3 of us decided to spend our weekend over in Batam. It was a quick decision :) Not much of a hassle. We managed to settle for hotel soon and I was really looking forward to it because its the first time going overseas with Anges, WJ & his friend.

After voting, I took a cab over to pick Anges and over to HarbourFront to meet WJ. Finally met WJ's friend. He was so secretive abt his "Friend". Initially we thought this friend was someone he was interested but after observations, we decided that they've ready started on a relationship.

Overall, I enjoyed myself during the trip. Anges was caring, shared with me her beauty products and of course care for me while WJ has been very gentleman. Took care of us, though attention was often focus on his gf.
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This trip & staying in the hotel made me feel even more like we're in 隔离七日情！ especially between 3 of us. *LOL* 哈哈，我想我太入戏了。

Didn't expect the ferry to be packed and we're left with 8.30 ferry so we spent a few hours over @ Harbourbay Mall. Luckily, there were wifi available outside Carrefour n for a moment, the 3 of us were happily standing outside carrefour surfing. INTERNET! A technology which which we relay so much on! -.-"

As there were so much time, we bought some drink n sat down at the tables outside carrefour n started surfing agn. We were so bo liao tt we WhatsApp among the 3 of us, together with Jeff who is in Sin!

Beary waited @ Vivo from me since 5+ and we only reach sin @ 10pm! Sometime he appears nice, sometimes he is so mean n hurting.

I dunno if this trip is health or us but it leaves me emo-ing :( have thoughts in my mind but no one suitable to share.

25-08-2011 [Thurs] -- A simple b'day card

Feeling good! I did a simple b'day card for Nicole (one of my CHRA course mates) sent it to her yesterday. She came back to office today and thanked me for the card. She also said that it was a cute cute card and said that she must print out for her girls to see =)

I feel happy because she appreciates this simple worthless card. It was a Doraemon holding onto a mic and I did a bubble with the wordings which goes something like this "A very Happy Birthday to someone special & beautiful like you".

*haha* If I were to post something like "I'm happy that she likes my card", will anyone think that I feel something for gals? *haha*

01 August 2011

This is so irritating! Each time we come home, he will either sot in front of the PC playing the stupid soccer game or playing with his iPhone or surfing around via his iPhone. No communication between us and each time when I requested to chat, he fell asleep!!!

COMMUNICATION is minimum the moment we reach home!!!

28-07-2011 [Sunny]

This is really long disappearance. The last time I posted an entry was in February 2011 (*_*) It's not that I have forgotten about this place but I have no time to come, especially in May & June 2011 because Beary & I took over the operation of AUK then.

I've so many things to share since we took a break after AUK but I forgotten the "way" here. I lost my way and I only managed to make it here today -_-" Nearly posted on my FB that "I wanted to blog but I couldn't find my blog!" (-_-""") Goodness! Anyway, as I was logging in and waiting for the page to load, I realised that I have an iPhone which has internet access... ... why didn't I blog while i was on the go?! (-_-") Perhaps I should make more use on my iPhone!

Anyway, back to the subject where I have so many things which I wanted to blog about... ...
1. Temporary Operations of AUK
2. Attended a 2-week Certificate of HRM @ NYP & HRI
3. The course mates
4. Beary
5. His Colleagues
6. My future
7. etc etc etc etc...

I should learn to blog more often!

撒了。。。

散了。。。
I just posted this msg on FB. I just browse thru the FB status updates and pictures -- saw many pictures posted by Adam and Justin. There were also status updates on their whereabouts and happenings. We were totally left out from these outings.

不知从几何时, we stopped hanging out frequently with Karen & Adam. They also stopped asking us out. Beary has also highlighted to me on é photos they posted on FB on a few occasions. Even BBQ @ Adam's pl during CNY left us out. Now that I gathered what Beary has been highlighting to me and what I read... I am upset. It appears to me that our Carebear. Group has kinda dispersed. *sigh*

We have no exact details on why we just stopped hanging out together. Was it because Beary is out of job? Or that they prefer the others co? We're boring? Or that we've done stuff which offended them w/o realising it?

Over the past few occasions when Beary brought it up, I dismissed e negative idea but now it seems like I have to really face it. The last 2 outings I've tried organizing failed. I dunno if it's bcos of bad timing or was it the company? Or was it just me?! *Sigh*

I was proud to be part of carebear grp but it seems like é group is dying off. *sigh*

21 Feb 2011

I've fallen ill again. Felt feverish. Body aching. It's exactly the same uncomfortable feeling I had during the CNY period when I fell sick. Not much of appetite too. *sian* Went to the Doc after work and got an MC for tml. Abit pai sei to take MC cos lately I have been falling sick very frequently.

Just took medication and will be going to bed soon.

Beary went to the school with Mavis & I on Sat. There was a brief on the banding and subjects thingy for Pri 4 students. It was a useful session because we learnt that there's actually something similar to "streaming" even though MOE mentioned that there is no more streaming for P4 students. I need to put in more effort on Mavis so that she will be able to study well and make it to Secondary School.

It appears to me that the relationship between Mavis & Beary has improved alot. Mavis seems to be able to accept Beary. However, must still put in effort to spend time with her. Afterall, she is at this growing stage where she needs our attention.

I have reduce the times sleeping over at Beary's place. It's alot lesser but he has been staying over at my place more frequently. I appreciate his effort and company.

18-02-2011

It's actually 0642h on 19 Feb 2011 (Sat). Yup, I haven't wink a single bit since Friday because it's WEEKEND!!! I reached home around 0130h after having a drink @ Chong Pang McDonald with Beary, JH & Dave. Beary & I went Synovate for a brief on Asia Bus survey and continued with our earlier project till 2130h and we pick JH & Dave from Toa Payoh before proceeding to Jalan Kayu for prata. It has been sometime since we last had prata there. After supper, I proposed to have a drink before going home and we chatted about our childhood days -- nice conversation about the cartoons characters and happenings and food stuff when we were young kids. There's actually an "age gap" before Dave & us because there were some stuff which he has no idea about :) We also recall about paying 15c for Feeder service. and the 50c Ding Dang with toy in the chocolate biscuits... those were the days :) -- and this conversation started because Dave and I mentioned about Doraemon.

McDonald is selling Doraemon toys along with their Happy Meals. I asked Dave why did he like Doraemon because I remember that he like Pooh Bear -- Apparently, he like Doraemon, Pooh bear and even Crayola Shin! *hehe* Then I continued to ask Beary if he know why I like Doraemon :) He mentioned that he like Doraemon because he thinks that it is a helpful cartoon character. *hehe* I like Doraemon because it's short and round... and I think I am short and round too ^_^ Fits my description.

Had lunch with YL ytd @ Gombak because she was here for a mtg. She highlighted that I seems to have lost weight *HAPPY* Must be alittle modest... so I surpressed my excitment and replied calmly "alittle only lah" :D *HAPPY HAPPY* I told CC that she, YL & XL are my only true friends because no other friends of mine mentioned about me slimming down at all. and in fact CC said that I had gone down quite abit because my tummy were really smaller as compared previously :)

Hah.. so much to blog but I need to catch a wink soon because I gotta wake up early later to attend a briefing session @ Mavis' school rgd P4 syllabus and banding system **Troublesome**

17-02-11 (Tiring Day)

Had a long day. Today was our 1st day with Synovate. We started on a new project today on mobile phones. Apparently Nokia is doing some market research. Anyway, it wasn't a good start. It wasn't as easy as I thought. I made many phone calls and met many who rejected me. A handful slammed my phone call before I finish explaining. I only managed to complete 2 surveys. One aged 34 while the other is 28 years old. Kind souls. Hopefully, I'll have better luck too.

So tired... 

16-02-2011 (Sunny)

Back to work today and realized that I've still got loads of work to clear - lots of claims to process, upcoming overseas trips to prep and mustering of documents -.-" endless work but why I am still MIA-ing from office?! 真要不得！ must forbid myself from taking absenting from work frequently this year. It's the start of the year and I've took 3 days of leave+2 days OIL, not taking in account the medical leaves I took.

Sometimes, it's a blessing that we don't have an NSF because I realized (on many occasions) that MAs learn to appreciate me w/o KJ. Working relationship with LTC Desmond improved too after I took back my full share of work and I can feel that he appreciates me more and gives better attitude as compared to last time :) I can even feel the change in his SMS. I wonder if it's the arrival of his new baby gal which mark the changes or was it me ^_^

Just as I just formed a bonding with him, he will be leaving in June 11. A new MA will come and we gotta start everything afresh again.

We had an office lunch @ Supsip today. CDF & COS-JS appreciate CC's effort and that is a good thing because in the past, DK would only see his PA's efforts... He'll thank his PA instead.

It's 元宵 tml but we're starting our first day @ Synovate tml. Hence, we had our 元宵 dinner together today. TC actually jio us to watch "我知女人心＂tml but because we had already planned our schedule, hence, the movie outing was cancelled. If this Synovate survey stuff reallt works, we gotta make extra effort to earn more because such deals doesn't come easy. Hope Beary & I will be able to do well and pass the training.

The last time I heard from Alan was in Oct 10. Thereafter, it seems like he has disappeared. I've no idea what happened but I could sense that it has something to with me. I don't remember offending him. What happened? I tried messaging him last night and he only replied once. He ignored my question asking him whe he has kinda disappear.

I sent him another msg earlier just now indicating that I could sense something was wrong though I have no idea why it was so and that I'm hoping to hear from him when he is ready to talk about.

I remember asking PF about Alan and his disappearing act but she just shrugged her shoulders and said she've no ideas. I feel that she is aware of something but she didn't want to share. PF just told me that he has a gd already so not free. Very unlike behavior of Alan. Hmm... I'm really curious What actually went wrong. I may be too sensitive but if the truth is linked with PF, I will be very annoyed.

Misunderstands!!! It's difficult to sleep over it!

Mood Swings

I hate this kinda feeling.

I regretted taking leave today. I didn't have to wake up early today. I had porridge at Tak Po today. I watched Mr & Mrs Incredibles. However, I still feel that my leave wasn't fully utilised. Mood swings?

Not exactly happy with my mom. I have expected that -- it's 15th of the month and she is asking me for money already!!! I was comptemplating whether to give her the monthly "contribution" earlier or on the 10th! At the same time, I was worried that I might overspent and didn't have enough to give her. Maybe I should have only given it to her on 10th!

I have just decided that it is of no use to give her increase the "contribution" when I get my salary increment because no matter how much money I gave her, it is never enough AND SHE is still borrowing from others and asking more from me and eventually needing more money. It has been worst after I gotten her into this apparels business -- which I have regretted getting her in.

Perhaps one of this day, just perhaps... I will fall into a quarrel with her on money issue. Each time we gave her the monthly "contribution", she will use the money to buy more clothes! The money we gave her is not meant for that! It's meant for household use! AND I HAVE TOLD HER more than ONCE but she is not listening and in the end, she will ask me to help her 'clean her shit'... such as asking me to call whoever to lie about her whereabouts... or to ask me call whoever to borrow money bluffing that it is for my own! I AM VERY PISSED with these!

In the evening today, she called me but I missed her call cos we were in the cinema. She called Beary and he managed to answer her call in time. She asked Beary to call Princess' After-School Care to ask Princess to go down because she's there. Why didn't she call herself? Why did she go up to fetch her instead?

I could get the answer immediately! Because she has not pay for the fees!!! Why did the money I give her went to?? THrew into her business yah????? The more I think of it.. the more angry I got. Why do I always run into financial issues???????

Beary has been complaining to me about how bad he fare for his interviews yesterday and how disappointed he was for not receiving any telephone calls on job interviews yesterday and today. He kept ramping and ramping... ...

I don't know how to reply him. I have consoled him umpteen times and I think it will not work. (Little did I know that my silence because a kind of unhappiness to him! -- MEN... they are hard to please. Lend them your listening ears but they complained that we have no reaction.)

11-02-11

It's the end of Friday! I've been away from work for a week. There must be a hugh pile of stuff awaiting my follow-up. I've been unwell for a week -- kanna allergy reaction on Sunday night and Beary sent me to the hospital. It was worst than previously because I had difficulty breathing and the Doctor had to put me on drip because I was nausea. And they had to give me a few dosage of Ventolin. Was at the Observation Ward from 11+ on Sunday night till almost 3am. Poor Beary had to wait in the cold for me. Was given MC for Mon & Tues.

However, I began to cough badly on Tues night and decided to take my CNY OIL on Wed. Who would have expected me to have fever on Wed itself. Took medication for the whole day but it din work and had to go to the doctor again in the evening. My fever went up to 39 degrees! And was given another 2 more days. The discomfort was equally bad like my allergy reaction. Cough badly until chest pain. No appetite. Fever doesn't go down despite taking medicine timely. Had sweet tooth but just could not taste anything sweet!!! Everything was either salty, tasteless or bitter! :(

Not feeling any better, they brought me to the Chai Chee Shifu. One look, he started his ritual stuff and do prayer for me. Feelingworst and more discomfort! But believe it or not, I really feel much better after that :) but on and off, I still feel alittle unwell. I also believed that I saw some stuff... Which probably caused the sickness. Aunty Shui Lian who was present when I saw that had fallen sick on the same day as me too!!! Co-incident? I do not know. Now my whole body aching and pain :(. Hope that I can recover soon ^.^

09-02-11

It has been a long while sinceI last blog... ... Looking at the past entries, my last blog was in Oct 10 regarding my relationship with my little gal. Good thing that our relationship has improved. However, her relationship with Beary hasn't been really close as compared to previous. I dunno what is the cause of it and she is not willing to open up to me. *sigh* I'm still a failed mother.

Many things took place these few months... ...
From CNY to the unhappiness between JH & Karen. I was kinda upset on the eve of CNY because I still remember what happened a year ago. That may be one of the reason as to why I just wanna nua @ home during CNY period. No mood for other stuff and particular sian when johntalked to me and i hardly send any CNY greetings.

I feel especially emo today. Hmm... Perhaps it's the time of the month to feel emo. With iPhone, I should beblogging more yeah?! *hehe* no more excuses for myself!

Multiply

Tried logging in multiple times before I managed to log in successfully. Realized that I had long forgotten my password =p thought my password should be the default one... *hehe* I probably changed w/o realizing it.

Anyway, who logs in to Multiply these days!? I logged in because I wanted to check if my blogspot is still cross-post with Multiply. Seems like it wasn't.

It has been a long while since I blog. The last one was in Oct 10.