Smelly Ah Lian

I met this "smell" Ah Lian @ Marina Square Arcade. I was following behind her when she suddenly stopped walking and at the same time, I was making a right turn, my big beautiful bronze bag "touch" her.

Being polite, imy usual reaction was to immediately turn over to her and apologise BUT I regretted so much after i uttered "Sorry" because I found her staring hard at me as if I had threw a stone at her! *TMD*

She stood still and giving me the kind of look that she is ready to pick up a fight. I ignored her and turned away - still feeling stupid that I had apologised to an animal!

Under such circumstances, I would just ignore such bitch. Why should I waste my breath and energy to say anything to it as it wouldn't understand!

At the same time, I thought to myself... ... what if I didn't realise that my big pretty bronze bag "touched" her and hadn't apologise? What would her reaction be?

On the other hand... ... what would have happened if I also stood still and stared at her *appearing as low class as her liao -- unacceptable behaviour!*

Well, sometimes I think I have joined the wrong organisation. If I had joined the Singapore Police Force, what would have happened to her if she try her luck to provoke me? Perhaps, I should ask for an inter-ministry transfer huh... ... Catch all these naughty children a lesson. *wahahaha*

Full of Thoughts

Lately, my mind has been filled with lotsa thoughts (i.e. about human beings, non-living things, relationships, etc etc) and I have been wanting to pen (Oops, i mean blog) down my thoughts. However, I have been so busy and tired + unwell (for almost a week) and that explains why I have not been doing much here (though I frequently viewed new entries uploaded by you, you, you and you :p) -- As the days passes, "newer"thoughts rushed into my mind, causing the "older" thoughts to be pushed behind and eventually I cannot remember the thoughts which I wanted to blog. *HAHAHA*

Hmm... ... instead of sharing with my thoughts, would an update of my whereabouts be more interesting *but who cares about my whereabouts!*

Yesterday, Mavis & I saw the publicity of winning a car thru Lucky Draws @ Carrefour. Mavis then said that if we won that car, she could drive me to work. In my mind, I was thinking if I won the car, I would sell it away for monies. Another thought came "Where would I have such luck to win that car?" -- The devil in me was talking!

Yup, I did win some small prizes (i.e. Free 1-month supply of pizza from Pizza hut, $50 World of Sports Vouchers, Free movie tickets, etc etc) in lucky draws and contests before but I have never won anything big. Suddenly I just feel pessimism about everything and Lilian came into my thoughts.

Lilian often complained to me that nothing goes right for her in life. She could not get a job and has never strike 4D (at least I did strike a few times - though small prizes) and has never won a prize in lucky draws etc and I told her that it's because the time is not right yet and there are good things which had happened to her but she didn't realise. I also told her to be more optimism about life so that things would appear beautiful and good yet here I am feeling pessimistic :( *Devil in me is in action agn*

Sometimes I feel that human relations are tiring to manage. I tend to observe people and tried to interpret them when I first know them. Of course I won't deduce the person during the first few meetings, it would be unfair.

Working environment in office is becoming better ever since Patrina left. Not that she's evil but she is a very strict person and due to some mis-comm and understanding, she is not on talking terms with CC. HOWEVER, the environment would be even better if someone elses leave (okie... it's bad to "make" people leave their job so I will rephrase my sentence -- ... ... if she change into a better person)!

Yes... the person is a SHE! Not nice to mention names in case some idiotic asshole incidentally saw my blog and gossip about it and news spread then ... ... *leave it for you to imagine*

Okay as I was saying... ... if she could just stop trying to "poke/stab" me and leave me alone, I would be happier! I cannot understand why she just couldn't leave me alone when I am just a harmless pig trying to earn a living under the same roof. I dun snatch her portion of salary, I dun snatch her portion of PB or Bonus. Wat's her freaking problem?? *Humph*

Lately I also thought about love relationships. There are some people who thinks that they have been in many relationships and they have already mastered the technics in it and could handle well... ... but I thought "how many experiences are enough?" *haha*

I pondered if there will still be sparks in long-term relationships. Would you still hear your heart beat when you meet your husband / boyfriend of many years? Or would things just move on plainly and wouldn't that be boring? If so, what should you do to make things interesting? Sparks sparks sparks... ... where and how to find?

If feelings get bored and tasteless in long-term relationships, then how do married couples maintain their marriage? Does that explain the high rate of divorce cases? :p

In my opinion, divorce cases are mostly because the men refused to keep their "appetite to one dish". Unfaithful bastards! I wondered if my future husband would be one of them?

Some people just enjoyed new stuff. They cannot stay on to an item for too long -- it appears to human relationship as well. So if one finds his relationship with gf is boring after some time, then how is he going to get married and settle down?

Lousy Conversation on the MSN

On the eve of Deepavali (or already Deepavali as it was 1 plus in the early morning), I was doing doing my project on the laptop. While working on my project, someone in my MSN contact list sent me a msg.

His nick is "the more u love; the more u hurt". Sounds like some innocent fellow who has been hurt by love and some gals would then shower him with attention and care + concern. This person has been on my contact list for many months but I din really reply to his "hi" and would usually ignore him when he msg "intro, pse".

The conversation went on as follow:

the more u love the more u hurt says:

Hi, what happened to u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:

huh? what you mean?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
Nothing. were u from pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
what were i from?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
do u mean wre is it?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
where u stay

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
very strange lei..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
intro again loh ok

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
u make it sound like as if we are in some irc chat and that we are total strangers.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
haaa u inrto again lhoh ok.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
mind?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
(alittle irritated by him) and why dun u intro first?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
26 m johor
u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
me 26/f/sin

the more u love the more u hurt says:
icic. mind show ur pic pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
yes i do

the more u love the more u hurt says:
nvm

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
(I purposely replied) u havent seen my picture on msn before?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
nope i think

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u got bf ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
why is it so impt to see the other party's picture before chatting

the more u love the more u hurt says:
hAAAA

the more u love the more u hurt says:
you got bf

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
how does that ans affects this conversation?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
so do u have a gf?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
break alr

the more u love the more u hurt says:
2 year loh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
single lonely guy i am

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u want me ??? got gal to intro . i got 2 year no gf loh no touch gal loh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
touch gal? (disgusted by his reply!)

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
touch in what sense huh?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
yes

the more u love the more u hurt says:
ml with gal (he meant "make love")

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha.. so that's all typical guys looked for in a relationship huh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
u got gal inrto ??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
actually they dun have to look for gfs to touch...
pay $$ and can get liao mah

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
nope. You are not suitable for my gfs!!

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
anyway, i have been wif my bf for 4 years plus

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
and am still together with him

the more u love the more u hurt says:
aiyo pay monry i beter diy lah

the more u love the more u hurt says:
you try 1 9 stand b4 ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
what's the diff? girl also mah

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
how can u be sure that the girlfriend u have is a decent gal..
she might have slept arnd with many different guys before..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u tried b4 loh

the more u love the more u hurt says:
got gal intro to me i want try (bastard!)

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
it's your choice to assume, I dun see the need to clarify too much

the more u love the more u hurt says:
sry

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u got gal to intro ??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha... i dun think I have gals of your choice

the more u love the more u hurt says:
then u leh wann try

the more u love the more u hurt says:
hungry wolfe here (Fucking idiot!)

the more u love the more u hurt says:
guy sex??

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
woah.. how "exciting" huh!! I dun have to tried it because I have never been deprived from it

the more u love the more u hurt says:
why leh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
bcos unlike people like you, I am not deprived from it..

the more u love the more u hurt says:
sry

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
sry means apologies?

Well, you dun have to cos you dun owe me anything
we are in the 20s, people ask and do whatever they like as long as they dun violate the law
I can chose to ignore people/conversations I dun like!

the more u love the more u hurt says:
haaaa

the more u love the more u hurt says:
mind show ur pic

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
yes i mind

the more u love the more u hurt says:
me 180 70
u?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
I dun think i am obliged to tell u.

the more u love the more u hurt says:
?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
icic. ok

the more u love the more u hurt says:
can be friend with you?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
can i have ur phone number pls ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
haha... calling me from JB?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
how ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
isnt it far?

the more u love the more u hurt says:
yes but i don't mind
sms also can

the more u love the more u hurt says:
pls

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
nope.. i dun think my bf would like it

the more u love the more u hurt says:
why leh

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
no particular reason

the more u love the more u hurt says:
that mean u canot give me ur phone number loh ?

It is perfectly fine to love someone but ... ... says:
not cannot.. it's more of a I dun feel comfortable and I dun want!

-- then he cannot tahan my kuai-lan attitube and he went offline! haha --

I cannot stand such desperado! So desperate.. go and find means to relieve yourself and not come online to look for preys. Freak!!

Anyway, I deleted and blocked him from my contact list! :p

Schools, Exams, Projects

Today is the last lesson of my ES! Time flies. 15 lessons have passed. I was absent for once and left 1/2 thru the lesson on another occasion. English has always been fun for me because it's something which I use everyday. Lecturer, Gladys Fang, has been good to us throughout the 15 lessons. At the end of the course, I gave her a good evaluation. Hopefully, she will be coaching us on other related HRM subjects.

Lessons over would mean that exam is coming.

Yea... exam is scheduled on 01 Dec 07 @ 0900 hrs in school! *Stress*

I think I should be able to pass my ES but I dunno if I would be able to score well (meaning grade A or at least a B). However, things doesn't look good when I got back my project marks today. We got 17 out of 30 for our ES Project -- the Natty's Convenience Store!

*sob sob* Very disappointed. I really put in lotsa effort for this project. Yet, we only managed to score 17. Gladys was lenient in her marking. Initially, it was just 15 but she added 1 more mark in 2 different sessions and that made us achieved 2 marks more.

Many groups scored better than us. So sad.

I told Gladys we were disappointed - which I really was and I nearly cried when I told her "Very disappointing with our marks"

Anyway, everything is over. Gotta concentrate on my ES exam paper. No point brooding over what has already taken place.

Now we are rushing our QS project, which has not even started and I have 0% confidence for it. As for the exam, it's on 08 Dec 07!!! I sucks in mathematics. How to pass lidat that? Sighz... ... Cannot fail lor. If I failed to make it, I am really useless. Also I have to pay repay $3,600 (or maybe more) to the organisation for sponsoring my studies :(