22 Aug 2007

Today is a friend's b'day.

I know her since I was 13 and it has been 13 years!

We used to be very close friends. Sit together during lesson time. Share all our happenings with each other everyday in school, even when the teachers were teaching! :)

However, changes start to take place after our secondary school days. I still remember -- on the 1st day of school in ITE, I feel so lonely w/o her and I shed some tears in the toilet *ssshhh* That was the bonding... ...

When I met her again 4 years later, she took me as a "hi-bye" friend. Sighz... ... We no longer talk and behave like when we were in school. The feelings were no longer there and that was when I know that things would never be the same agn. Someone elses have taken my place in her heart.

Nonetheless, every year of today, I would still send her a b'day wish via SMS - though it's a "one-sided affair".

If I ever stop sending her b'day wishes, it would be that day I took her off my mind... ...

06 Aug 07 [Sunny] - Yucky Day

Slept @ 11 plus last night and "forced" myself to wake up slightly earlier this morning so that I would not be late for work. Managed to take the earlier bus to work but waited more than 15 mins for bus 177 to bring me up the hill - resulting me to report work 10 mins later! It defeats the purpose of me putting in an effort to wake up early, isn't it? *sighz*

Don't know why I feel so tired. No mood to work :(
Did 1/2 day Registry work in the morning. While tidying the documents, I realised that there's a folder which came in on 24 Jul 07 but boss has yet to see it -- Admin lapse! Thought to myself for 1/2 hr about whether I should act blur and leave it back in the drawer or admit my fault and explain. *hehe* Guess what was my decision? -- I owned up my mistake lo :)

Judy went for lunch with Jennifer, Jessie & Hema at the canteen. While lunching, Jessie shared with us her 100K project - It's some Christian prayers thingy. While all these was taking place, I noticed that she has got a diamond ring on the left hand, 4th finger. *Woah* Enagagement ring ar I exclaimed! She was smiling sweetly and replied "it was a proposal ring." Eric proposed to her 2 Thursdays ago before his departure back to Taiwan. :) So sweet.

After sharing with us how Eric proposed to her, she asked "when would it be your turn?" Sighz... ... I didn't really like to answer such qtns, cos I dun have answers for them. Anyway, she told me that Men need to be "stressed". She also "stressed" to Eric that it's time for them to settle down. *hehe* Good that Eric reacted to her stress! I may not be that lucky.

Actually, Jessie doesn't appear to be one who wants to settle down so soon. I thought she is quite career-minded and would only want to settle down after 30. Well.. I was so wrong!

Today our Photographer from Pioneer came to take photos for boss. While waiting for boss to be out from his earlier meeting, they chatted and heard that he didn't sleep last night because he was out searching for his mom-in-law.

His mom-in-law was suffering from senile and went missing yesterday. Seeing him at work today.. I thought his search was not in vain. In fact, he still couldn't locate her. Jialat!

After hearing his story, the 4 women (Patricia, Lynn, Chief Clerk & Judy) were discussing about people who suffered from senile. Chief Clerk also shared her experience about her dad, who was also senile, went missing on 3 occasions. Then the 4 women started to ponder if we were also suffered from senile when we aged! Sighz.. hopefully I wun be a burden to my family.

When you are feeling bad, non-living things will also go against you. I spent 1/2 afternoon trying to submit the recent overseas reimbursement for MA. That stupid system kept hanging and shut down on its own. The most sickening part was that the system just hung when I was at the last transaction to submit the claim! Even a stupid system bully me when I am feeling lousy!

Idiotic!

After what happened on Wednesday, I am still very upset with that stupid Foo Win Tet! He really can feign ignorance and test my patience. I am so fed-up with him that I talked very rudely to him. Most of my statements were either rude or filled with sacarcism! And I still think I am not harsh enuff. I am thinking if there is any other methods for me to GET BACK @ him! *Humph* See.. never offend Women! They are scary animals!

Another idiotic guy is my MA. WBD! In case you didn't know what is it - it's Wang Ba Dan! Anyway, back to the point - He is not an easy person to work with. Given a choice, I don't want to work with him ever agn, after my tenture in this office.

Went out for dinner with that Idiot Foo last night. Had KFC and then accompanied him to buy a green t-shirt. He needed it for his Company's Sports day today - participating in soccer match. What else!

That's why... when the previous worker set a standard in his work, the incumbent must perform better or at least at the same standard. Anything less - people will say YOU ARE LOUSY!

I spent 2 days trying to complete and submit my Cash Advance statement but to nowhere! Sighz... this is my first time doing it and with this MA around, it is slowing my process. He is damn slow in providing with me the necessary info, etc.

Cannot understand why he needs Cash Advance! Make my job alot more difficult! Sighz... ... 6 more months to count down to eligible time frame to seek posting! If he doesn't leave during then, I am leaving! I cannot work with him. Anyway, if he leave but Registry problem still persist, I will leave too! :)

Fibroid & I

I have been experiencing bloated abdominal prior and after my monthly menses over the past few months. I also experienced severe abdominal pain on the 2nd, 3rd and even 4th day of my menses.

Couldn't endure it last week and went to the GP for consultation - also to get MC for that day. The GP then referred me for Ultra Sound at my pelvis @ Yishun Polyclini on 30 Jul 07. I went to the clinic to collect my results yesterday, 31 Jul 07 -- that was fast, isn't it? Hehe...

The scan found that I have got a 2cm fibroid at the posteriro uterine wall. *hmm* GP mentioned that they usually will not do anything about it because it is just 2cm - however, it will grow bigger as time goes by and of course, I would experience pain etc during my menses. Therefore, I was told that I could take their painkillers - the blue tablets they prescribed. -- This sound stupid to me! Too much painkillers is bad for my health and also I have heard many cases that fibroid tends to grow bigger and more as time goes by. Anyway, the GP also told me that if I want to remove it, then I got to seek a Gynae's opinion.

Ever since I went for my scan on Monday, I kept having pain at my pelvis when i touch it (even lightly). Sighz... ... This evening, I sat at the bus-stop waiting for my bus, when I got up from the bench, I could feel my abdominal pain.

When I got home, I got no appetite for dinner also. Told mummy about my pain and she said things like if only... i got a husband to take care of me.. *haha* Say wants mean got one meh. Then she continued stuff like "that Johnson... dunno how to think.. etc etc..."

Actually I have been thinking about our ROM agn recently... :( I come to terms that even when his mom was in critical condition, he refused to marry her when his mom asked to.. let alone now. If he dun want, I think no matter how you force or pressure also no pt.. he will provide 101 excuses to get away.

Again, I was disturb by this ROM thingy so badly that I SMS-quarrelled with him just now. I told him that I am gg to ask him for the last time - if he insist on only ROM-ing next year and he said "yea.. did't we decide on it?" *Sigh* I have never decide on it! He was the one saying and saying... He kept saying that it is too soon.. then when I told him there's really no issue on finance since it's just an ROM, he said he is not ready! Win already lor.. I am sick of it already.