Virus is spreading

My Doctor told me that my sored eyes will not spread by "seeing". The virus will only be spreaded if you touch the affected areas and not wash your hands after that and of course, sharing of towels kinda stuff.

I dunno if mine was sored eyes but it was quite bad and it has been 2 weeks, I am still in the midst of recovery -- though it is getting better day after day. Or was it eye infection? Is eye infection and sored eyes under the same category?

It was kinda scary to me when my vision was kinda affected -- blurred. You won't understand how I feel unless you have the same experience as I do :) At one point, I was thinking if this is some new deadly virus and I am going to become blind or perhaps die at a very slow rate. Hmm... ... *My imaginations can run really wild!*

Anyway, this virus has somehow spreaded to Johnson on Tues and his sored eyes or infected eyes is somehow quite jialat. He had MC but due to many important meetings to attend, he had to continue working and strained his eyes even more. He had seen the doctor again yesterday and hopefully he will recover soon.

I supposed the same virus has also spread to my colleague who had also seen the doctor twice and was very worried about her eyes. She has been given MC from last Thurs till next Tues. Poor me -- I would have gotten longer MCs too but I couldn't go away due to the deadline of my event.

KJ had to go on 5 days medical leave too due to his wisdom tooth surgery!

The virus had somehow also spread to my little princess yesterday! She woke up with her eyes alittle red and then became very red later in the day. *Oh dear* Doctor gave her 2 days MC as well but I couldn't go away on Monday because there is no one around in office!!! Timing for all these is just so bad.

I dunno why they all kanna the virus. I was already in the midst of recovery and my eyes were like not really red anymore but they are catching the virus.

It was been like 2 weeks or so when he had last seen my little princess. I guess she probably kanna the sored eyes due to the dust. So much dust due to all the shifting and moving, packing and unpacking... ...

As for Johnson and my colleague -- no idea how they kanna the virus. Was it mine? If so, why did the doctor say that it would not spread thru "Seeing"???

My Relationship

I am having mood swings again. I am starting to have thoughts on breaking up with him again. At times I asked if I am happy with him. I asked if things would turn out better or worst after marriage. I asked if it is a good thing that we didn't get married.

I am beginning to see all my friends (with partners) getting married. Even the last one, among the few friends, had been taken off the shelf. I'm the only one left and I am the only one being mocked about.

Ha. When people used to tell me about how selfish their boyfriends / hubbies were, I used to criticise them and thank god that Johnson is not selfish.

When I used to listen to people saying that their boyfriends refused to settle down, etc, I will wondered why these people are like that and thank god that Johnson is not so.

So many things happened around me and I always thank god that Johnson is not like them BUT I am so wrong. Either I am wrong in judgement or that I am experiencing my retribution -- I am experiencing all that I have heard about from friends around me!!!

Few days ago when I was deleting messages from my hp, I saw those SMSes he sent me. He claimed that I should just sit back and wait for him to propose and that he will do it when the time comes. He told me not to rush and he will plan for it BUT WHAT's noW??? Everything got back to zero though he proposed.

Fortune teller said that once I got married and divorced, I won't have a 2nd marriage. That's probably truth. Initially, I was still very confident to proof the fortune teller wrong!

Whenever I had these mood change, I would think that I should not continue to be with him and that I should just quietly let go. Sighz...

I ever said that if he didn't propose to me by last year, I would break off with him but he did. Just that we didn't get married.

Everyone feels that he is very good to me. How do they define "good"? Am I not good for him? If that's the case then shouldn't we just end off instead of wasting each other's time?

I need companion. He's the only one who can give me most of his time. If I were to break off with him, I would have to be all alone again. How sad. Is it more saddening to stay on just for companionship and feel unhappy within myself at the same time?

Unhappiness

I think everyone in my family is happy except me!

My sis has a room, though Yogi is in there too. Mavis has a room of her own. My brother has his own room. The tenant will get to stay in a room by herself @ a cheap rate of $300. What about me? I had to share a room with my mom!

No privacy! Johnson got to continuing sleeping on the mattress laid on the floor when he comes over. I got to share my cupboard, wardrobes, etc with my mom! I am so fed-up!!!

What's more... I have to pay for the renovation, the furniture (including for that tenant!) and to HDB for all the nitty gritty fees. I will be paying a bigger portion of the monthly instalment as compared to my sister BUT I DUN GET A BIGGER PORTION OF EVERTHING AT HOME!!!

I am really really pissed off with my mom for wanting to sub-let a room out to an outsider!!! Why do I have to buy a 5-room flat then??? *Sighz*

My brother took away the TV that was supposed to be placed in my room. The fan that is supposed to be in the living room was taken away by my brother. Mavis had no fan in her room so she needed a fan and she took sis' fan to use. Sis took my fan and again everyone had a fan except ME!!! I HAD TO SLEEP W/O A FAN ON MY FIRST NITE IN THE HOUSE!!!

WHY? This is very unfair, isn't it? My brother who is not contributing much to the household gets everything in his room. Even the computer in his room was actually meant for me from my uncle!

I cannot share these unhappiness with anyone else. Not even Johnson! So what if I let him know I am unhappy. There won't be any solution and he might even make bad remarks about my family or even if he dun speak up, he thinks bad remarks!

People will comment (prob behind my back) that I am stupid to let them stay in my flat if they got to know these. BUT CAN I DUN LET THEM STAY?? Where should they stay?

If Johnson had gotten married with me, I will probably not have to share room with someone else.

If one day I were to be too unhappy about all these, I will quarrel with my family members and it is going to be very bad.

I wondered if my mom ever thought if I am happy and what do I want?

Memories

I was clearing my stuff on Wednesday night and happened to clear a box, that was kept in the store room--out of my reach, where I kept the stuff I used during my secondary school days... ...

I found quite a bit of stuff which I had long forgotten. My mom saw them and said that I have long graduated from secondary school and it's time to throw away those stuff (e.g. O'level 10-year Series, Projects, Text books, etc)

There was this particular group project about “Friends” and it was named "The 6 Musketeers". I can't recall much. As I browsed thru the pages (all photos and captions), I was trying to find out why this proj was done, what it was all about, which subject was it meant for, etc etc. All I could tell was it is a CME Proj (what the hell is CME? Civils Moral?) done in Sec 3 -- *hehe* However, one thing for sure – I was the one doing the compiling and design etc cos it was so "my" style! Though it was a group project of 4 pax (-_-”)

Though I can't recall much, the photos kinda remind me of my fav song -- Memories and I began to hum quietly to myself... ...

Midnight - not a sound from the pavement.
Has the moon lost her memory,
She is smiling alone.
In the lamplight, the withered leaves collect at my feet,
And the wind begins to moan.

Memory - all alone in the moonlight.
I can smile at the old days,
I was beautiful then.
I remember the time I knew what happiness was.
Let the memory live again.

Every street light seems to beat a fatalistic warning.
Someone mutters and the streetlamp gutters,
and soon it will be morning.

Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise.
I must think of a new life,
And I mustn't give in.
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too,
And a new day will begin.

Burnt out ends of smokey days,
the stale cold smell of morning.
The streetlamp dies, another night is over,
another day is dawning.

Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun.
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is.
Look, a new day has begun.

Another thought also hit me while I was browsing at the photographs -- Friendship.

There were 6 musketeers. It was a proj among 4 of us in the class, cannot recall why we added the other 2 into the picture as well. Worst - one of them is more of an acquaintance rather than friends but we were the so-called good friends in the project!!! (-_-")

Among the 6 of us, one of them hated me (and I wonder if he still hates me?). The other 2 were added into my acquaintance list many years ago while the initial acquaintance remained as an acquaintance. The last one had also been added into my list of acquaintance! That total up to 5 musketeers. WOW... I should have a rather long list of acquaintance by now.

I just realised -- everything (and I really mean every damn thing) needs to be taken care of (or maintain) and of cos fate plays a part too, if you believe it :)

I also began to believe that there is no such things as "Forever Friends" like what we used to write in those autograph books when we were very young. I supposed a more realistic word would probably be "be friends for as long as fate decides" or "as we could".

The last thing that I hope were to go away would be memories... ...

YES MAN!!!

Before I embarke on today's topic, I wanna give an update about myself (Yes, I am self-centred!). My eyes should be in the recovery stage -- though still blurred vision and uncomfortable at times. I hope I would recover by Sunday, else I would have to visit the Doctor again.

Busy with CNY stuff at work -- invitations have been increased from 700+ to 1000++ guests (-_-") Hope that KJ & I could complete this project successfully.

I'm the kinda who will think about many things while doing other stuff. Therefore... ...

While I was ironing my daughter's uniform yesterday, I was thinking about the movie "YES MAN". I had multiply thoughts at the same time. Am I a YES MAN? Why should I be one?? How could I be a better YES MAN but not to "harm" myself??? How would I being a YES MAN benefit from it????? Who is a YES MAN? Is so and so a YES MAN?? Is "A" a YES MAN? Is "B" a YES MAN?? "hmm.. maybe!" (and my thoughts just continued while I was ironing) and then I asked myself "Is Cas a YES MAN?" My mind told me that she is a YES MAN (most of the time) but another voice told me she might turn into a NO MAN when more "not-so-good" situations take place in her life or maybe she has already partially become a NO MAN (??).

What I am trying to say... ...
Cas is usually fine with almost everything (of course she has her own stand and will speak up when need arises) but then on and off people took advantage of her YES MAN attitube and then she became fed-up and she will want to turn nasty and maintain a NO MAN attitube. -- then I thought.. that would be sad huh. *I frowned to myself and continued ironing* I told myself I must ask her one of these days... ...

I received XS's SMS this morning to inform that her sis is unable to rep Kenny. The next person that came into my mind was Cas (We had actually asked her to join us for the movie but she didn't want to because she did not watch Part 1.) Therefore, I decided to try my luck and smsed her, thinking that she will reject me and she promptly replied "OK!"

I was surprised and I sent another sms to seek confirmation! *haha* Isn't she a YES MAN? I guess she wasn't really interested in the movie. It was probably more of a goodwill kinda act but I really appreciate it and in my mind, again, I said "see... she's a YES MAN!!!" *haha*

最初的本心

這篇文章分享給每一個在 為夢想努力奮鬥的你，提醒我們在努力追求夢想的同時，
千萬不要忘了最初的本心。

心若改變，你的態度跟著改變；
態度改變，你的習慣跟著改變；
習慣改變，你的性格跟著改變；
性格改變，你的人生跟著改變。

有個老魔鬼看到人間的生活過得太幸福了，他 說：「我們要去擾亂一下，要不然魔鬼就不存在了。」

他先派了一個小魔鬼去擾亂一個農夫。因為他看到那農夫每天辛勤地工作，可是所得卻少得可憐，但他還是那麼快樂，非常知足。

小魔鬼就開始想，要怎樣才能把農夫變壞呢？他就把農夫的田地變得很硬，讓農夫知難而退。

那農夫敲半天，做得好辛苦，但他只是休息一下，還是繼續敲，沒有一點抱怨。小魔鬼看到計策失敗，只好摸摸鼻子回去了。

老魔鬼又派了第二個去。第二個小魔鬼想，既然讓他更加辛苦也沒有用，那就拿走他所擁有的東西偷走，他想，農夫做得那麼辛苦，又累又餓，卻連麵包跟水都不見了，這下子他一定會暴跳如雷。

農夫又渴又餓地到樹下休息，想不到麵包跟水都不見了!「不曉得是哪個可憐的人比我更需要那塊麵包跟水? 如果這些東西就能讓他得溫飽的話，那就好了。」又失敗了, 小魔鬼又棄甲而逃

老魔鬼覺得奇怪，難道沒有任何辦法能使這農夫變壞？就在這時第三個小魔鬼出來了。他對老魔鬼講：「我有辦法，一定能把他變壞。」

小魔鬼先去跟農夫做朋友，農夫很高興地和他作了朋友。因為魔鬼有預知的能力，他就告訴農夫，明年會有乾旱，教農夫把稻種在濕地上，農夫便照做。結果第二年別人沒有收成，只有農夫的收成滿坑滿谷，他就因此而富裕起來了。

小魔鬼又每年都對農夫說當年適合種什麼，三年下來，這農夫就變得非常富有。

他又教農夫把米拿去釀酒販賣，賺取更多的錢。慢慢地，農夫開始不工作了，靠著經濟販賣的方式，就能獲得大量金錢。

有一天，老魔鬼來了，小魔鬼就告訴老魔鬼說：「您看！我現在要展現我的成果。這農夫現在已經有豬的血液了。」只見農夫辦了個晚宴，所有富有的人都來參加；喝最好的酒，吃最精美的餐點，還有好多的僕人侍候。他們非常浪費地吃喝，衣裳零亂，醉得不省人事，開始變得像豬一樣癡肥愚蠢。

「您還會看到他身上有著狼的血液。」小魔鬼又說。
這時，一個僕人端著葡萄酒出來，不小心跌了一跤。
農夫就開始罵他：「你做事這麼不小心！」
「唉！主人，我們到現在都沒有吃飯，餓得渾身無力。」
事情沒有做完，你們怎麼可以吃飯！」

老魔鬼見了，高興地對小魔鬼說：「唉！ 你太了不起！你是怎麼辦到的？」
小魔鬼說：「我只不過是讓他擁有比他需要的更多而已，這樣就可以引發他人性中的貪婪。」

7 Jan 08

What a way to start 2009... ...

I was given 2 days MC for eye infection after my 1st day of work. After enduring with the irritation and pain, thinking that the sored eye would recover (as previously) with the use of antiseptic lotion, the pain didn't go away and in fact, it got worse!

It was so bad that it affect my vision and it actually hurts alot when I tried to work on the computer and it just keep tearing.

It was so painful and sored and affected the other eyes as well and I was left with no choice but to see a doctor. Doctor said that my infection was very bad and if it doesn't get any better w/in 2 days, I should go back to him for referral to a Eye Specialist. He also told me to go back to him for more MCs if necessary.

Today is the 2nd day of my MC. I thought it would be better after all the eye drops etc but doesn't really seems so. Hmm... ... *What is happening?* I woke up early today to prepare for work but like just like ytd, I didn't make it to work. The irritation was just soooooooo bad and it is affecting my mood!!!

Arrrrrggggggg... ...

母亲一生的八个谎话

儿时，小男孩家很穷，吃饭时，饭常常不够吃，母亲就把自己碗里的饭分给孩子吃。母亲说，孩子们，快吃吧，我不饿！――母亲撒的第一个谎

男孩长身体的时候，勤劳的母亲常用周日休息时间去县郊农村河沟里捞些鱼来给孩子们补钙。鱼很好吃，鱼汤也很鲜。孩子们吃鱼的时候，母亲就在一旁啃鱼骨头，用舌头舔鱼骨头上的肉渍。男孩心疼，就把自己碗里的鱼夹到母亲碗里，请母亲吃鱼。母亲不吃，母亲又用筷子把鱼夹回男孩的碗里。母亲说，孩子，快吃吧，我不爱吃鱼！――母亲撒的第二个谎。

上初中了，为了缴够男孩和哥姐的学费，当缝纫工的母亲就去居委会领些火柴盒拿回家来，晚上糊了挣点分分钱补点家用。有个冬天，男孩半夜醒来，看到母亲还躬着身子在油灯下糊火柴盒。男孩说，母亲，睡了吧，明早您还要上班呢。母亲笑笑，说，孩子，快睡吧，我不困！――母亲撒的第三个谎

高考那年，母亲请了假天天站在考点门口为参加高考的男孩助阵。时逢盛夏，烈日当头，固执的母亲在烈日下一站就是几个小时。考试结束的铃声响了，母亲迎上去递过一杯用罐头瓶泡好的浓茶叮嘱孩子喝了，茶亦浓，情更浓。望着母亲干裂的嘴唇和满头的汗珠，男孩将手中的罐头瓶反递过去请母亲喝。母亲说，孩子，快喝吧，我不渴！――母亲撒的第四个谎。

父亲病逝之后，母亲又当爹又当娘，靠着自己在缝纫社里那点微薄收入含辛茹苦拉扯着几个孩子，供他们念书，日子过得苦不堪言。胡同路口电线杆下修表的李叔叔知道后，大事小事就找岔过来打个帮手，搬搬煤，挑挑水，送些钱粮来帮补男孩的家里。人非草木，孰能无情。左邻右舍对此看在眼里，记在心里，都劝母亲再嫁，何必苦了自己。然而母亲多年来却守身如玉，始终不嫁，别人再劝，母亲也断然不听，母亲说，我不爱！――母亲撒的第五个谎

男孩和她的哥姐大学毕业参加工作后，下了岗的母亲就在附近农贸市场摆了个小摊维持生活。身在外地工作的孩子们知道后就常常寄钱回来补贴母亲，母亲坚决不要，并将钱退了回去。母亲说，我有钱！――母亲撒的第六个谎

男孩留校任教两年，后又考取了美国一所名牌大学的博士生，毕业后留在美国一家科研机构工作，待遇相当丰厚，条件好了，身在异国的男孩想把母亲接来享享清福却被老人回绝了。母亲说，我不习惯！――母亲撒的第七个谎

晚年，母亲患了胃癌，住进了医院，远在大西洋彼岸的男孩乘飞机赶回来时，术后的母亲已是奄奄一息了。母亲老了，望着被病魔折磨得死去活来的母亲，男孩悲痛欲绝，潸然泪下。母亲却说，孩子，别哭，我不疼。――母亲撒的第八个谎

不论你多富有,不管你多大,到什么时候也离不开咱的妈....

Since New Year Eve... ...

Left office at almost 2pm though I should have knock off @ 12.30pm but I was not the last to leave. Pat was still in office rushing her PMR. 31 Dec 08 is a deadline for many things :)

I stayed back because inputs for CNY addition data only came in @ 12+. However, it was a good thing because at least I get to upload the data into my list and feel at ease that I didn't have to come back on 2 Jan 09.

My bf came to pick me up and we went for lunch @ Vivo Food Republic. The Claypot Laska stall had changed and isn't tasty anymore. *Yucks* Must remember do not eat there again!!!

Meet up with the whole group of Bears @ Holland V after dinner for New Year Count Down. We wanted to go Sentosa initially but decided not to due to the possible traffic congestion.

The last thing I remember @ the bar was me popping 2 crackers (??) @ 0000 hrs and shouted "Happy New Year" and I K.O! That's the results for Free Flow -- I must rest for a while before I start drinking again. Try talking to me about wine and I guess I will puke into you... ... (I'll try to even if I dun have e feeling ;p)

Missed my meeting in the morning *oops* Only managed to force myself up from the bed @ 12+ (or was it 1pm?) and meet up with Lichin & my bf for Porridge. Went Vivo again and bought a pair of shoes on this new year! Had dinner with Casper, Oliver & Johnson @ some Korea restaurant in Novena Sq. I'm still kinda in a daze cos I was still kinda suffering from hang ove... ...

School reopens! Accompanied Mavis to wait fo her school bus. Went for breakfast with my mom and went to our new house to brief the contractor on the lightings. So excited... ... I am moving in real soon!!!

Brought Mavis and my mom to Jurong Point in the afternoon. That place is really sooooo cool. However, we left rather early around 7+ cos mom had to rush to the new place to open the door for Yogi *Irritated*

Went home and played Dinner Dash on my PC till 4+ in the morning :p I could have lasted longer if not because my left eye were irritated for heaven knows why.

Sent my mom to Serangoon North to run some errands in the morning then I had brunch @ Beach Road. Realised that my eye is actually sored. Gotta don on my shades and went to the Pharmacy and was advised to get some antiseptic eye drops.

Watched Bed Time Stories by Adam Sandler and went to M. Barage. Oh... how did I forget that I watch YES Man by Jim Carrey during the Christmas season too. I like these 2 guys. They are just soooooo funny. Jim Carrey has aged over these years. Hey and the show YES Man is indeed a very meanful show. I hope people would be able to understand the meaning and practice it in life :)

M. Barage is a very beautiful place. Though crowded but that place gives me a very comfortable feeling. Many people went there for picnic and some were flying their kites. The scene is just so beautiful. I wanna organise an outing to that place!!! :)

Had Fish Soup dinner with Adam and friends and joined them @ Rhythm, followed by Home Sweet Home.

It's Sunday!!! Woke up @ 11+ and had a cup noodles for brunch. Watched TV and did some work on the computer. Meet up with Casper @ Tampines. Johnson picked us up after his wedding lunch @ Regent Hotel. We went Killiney Kopitiam for coffee and egg as tea break! :) and bought Casper to The Line for dinner as her Christmas gift.

Home Sweet Home. Prepared myself for 1st day of work in 2009!!!

29 Dec 08

The month of December seems like a gathering month for me. I had many oppuntunities to meet up with friends whom I have not seen or heard from for ages. Let me do a recap:

- I meet up with Steve & Lee Ling

- I attended Edmund's wedding and met Darren & Gerald.

- I attended Choon How's wedding and met up with almost the whole ex-PCDians! *Wow*

- I visited Ms Yeo on Christmas

I had a gathering with the Care bears

Due to current workload, preparation for my new flat & weeks spent scouting for Christmas gifts, December's schedule have been rather packed! I have got no time to do many other stuff like making an appointment to do a Hair Treatment which I needed very badly; no time to book a schedule for Mani/Pedi; etc etc. There are friends who have been asking me for dinner but my schedule just couldn't fit them in :(

I made an effort to meet up a friend for dinner last night. It has been more than a year ago since we had a good chat. Distance indeed have drift us apart but I am really happy and appreciates that she has been asking me to arrange time for dinner with her. I was very paisei and had promised to make time to for her after she sent me an SMS last week. Firstly, I kept calling her name wrongly and when I msg her, it was for other purposes – not to ask her out. 2ndly, she said “I thot you wanted to say “llooks like we gotta meet up soon” but ... ... :( -- my actually msg was “looks like we've got to look arnd agn”

Therefore, we meet up for dinner. We did some catching up and she shared with me about her religion and in almost every 5 sentences she said, at least 3 sentences mentioned about her religion. *haha* I am happy that she has found a religion that she has faith in. She also told me that she has changed a lot ever since she joined her religion. She quit smoking and had mellow down on her temper, which is a good thing.

At the same time, I could also feel that she was trying to introduce her religion to me :)

Anyway, I have some thoughts after my conversation with her... ...

1. She highlighted that she doesn't understand why people get so tense when they are invited to church. (Good question!)

2. She was previously a Buddhist/Taoist and she couldn't understand why there are so many different statues to worship? In Christianity, there is only one god and that is Jesus Christ. Isn't it clearer? The rest of the god were created by men! (This doesn't sound wrong. I have heard stories of some deities like Ma Zhu, she was previously a human yah? Guan Yu was previously a soldier and after he was killed, people worship him for some reason.) In fact, there are many of such stories.

3. She also highlighted that people pay too much attention to Christian. According to her, there are people who made comments such as “Why is this Christian allowed to smoke and drink?”, “Why is this christian behaving like this or like that? etc etc... ... She questioned why people doesn't query about how a buddhist behave? When a buddhist failed to carry himself appropriately, people would not make remarks such as “why this buddhist is behaving like that?”. Instead, people will comment “why is this person behaving like that?”

29 Dec 08

The month of December seems like a gathering month for me. I had many oppuntunities to meet up with friends whom I have not seen or heard from for ages. Let me do a recap:

- I meet up with Steve & Lee Ling

- I attended Edmund's wedding and met Darren & Gerald.

- I attended Choon How's wedding and met up with almost the whole ex-PCDians! *Wow*

- I visited Ms Yeo on Christmas

- I had a gathering with the Care bears

Due to current workload, preparation for my new flat & weeks spent scouting for Christmas gifts, December's schedule have been rather packed! I have got no time to do many other stuff like making an appointment to do a Hair Treatment which I needed very badly; no time to book a schedule for Mani/Pedi; etc etc. There are friends who have been asking me for dinner but my schedule just couldn't fit them in :(

I made an effort to meet up a friend for dinner last night. It has been more than a year ago since we have had a good chat. Distance indeed have drift us apart but I am really happy and appreciates that she has been asking me to arrange time for dinner with her. I was very paisei and had promised to make time to for her after she sent me an SMS last week. Firstly, I kept calling her name wrongly and when I msg her, it was for other purposes – not to ask her out. 2ndly, she said “I thot you wanted to say “llooks like we gotta meet up soon” but ... ... :( -- my actually msg was “looks like we've got to look arnd agn”

Therefore, we meet up for dinner. We did some catching up and she shared with me about her religion and in almost every 5 sentences she said, at least 3 sentences mentioned about her religion. *haha* I am happy that she has found a religion that she has faith in. She also told me that she has changed a lot ever since she joined her religion. She quit smoking and had mellow down on her temper, which is a good thing.

At the same time, I could also feel that she was trying to introduce her religion to me :)

Anyway, she left me with some thoughts after our meeting... ...

1. She highlighted that she doesn't understand why people get so tense when they are invited to church. (Good question! Personally, I am reluctant to go into a church because I feel that I am not ready for the religion and the people there are very pushy. Just like when you go for some trial services and they will keep talking you into joining them. If you tell them you need time to consider, they will press you for an answer and wanna know your doubts.)
   

2. She was previously a Buddhist/Taoist but while she was in the midst of switching her religion, she began to question why there are so many different statues to worship in Buddhism? In Christianity, there is only one god and that is Jesus Christ. Isn't it clearer? The rest of the god were created by men! (This doesn't sound wrong. I have heard stories of some deities like Ma Zhu, she was previously a human yah? Guan Yu was previously a soldier and after he was killed, people worship him for some reason. In fact, there are many of such stories.)
   

3. She also highlighted that people pay too much attention to Christian. According to her, there are people who made comments such as “Why is this Christian allowed to smoke and drink?”, “Why is this christian behaving like this or like that? etc etc... ... She questioned why people doesn't query about how a buddhist behave? When a buddhist failed to carry himself appropriately, people would not make remarks such as “why is this buddhist behaving like that?”. Instead, people will comment “why is this person behaving like that?” (I think I have ever made such a comment "Is Muslim allowed to drink?" I think it is not just about Christian. In fact, I have not heard about people commenting about why are Christian like this and like that. Personally, I thought she feel that way because she is very conscious about how people think of her religion.)
   

4. She commented that everyone only criticise about Christian. No one reject the other religion because the demon will not destroy their own kind. (hmm... I respect the other religions and I trust that others should do so too.)

Jingle Bells... ...

Unlike previous years, this christmas was alittle different to me. It was some weird feeling which I can't describe.

It was raining Cats & Dogs in the morning. As usual, John sent me to work but I only reached office @ 9.15am (it's like 1h 15 mins late!!!), which means John reached office even later than me!!! We were stucked in the traffic along Mandai Road because some trees had fallen down and landed on the 3 lanes. None of the cars were able to move. Some drivers who didn't listen to Class 95 had no idea what caused the congestion. Hence, they got off their car with their umbrellas and made their way to the front to find out what happened. I definitely wouldn't get my butt off the car in such weather!

In fact, many people were late (not that they were stuck @ Mandai). Practically all the expressways have congestion. What's new? It was raining!!!

I am so tempted to take leave and just head home to sleep. Anyway, it was already so late... ... and I am so paisei to arrive late for work :(

MA came back from the medical centre shortly after I reached. He have had fever for many days and doesn't seems to recover even though he had seen the doctor and taken medication – Doctor from hospital said that he was suspected of Dengue! Guess he was still feeling unwell when he came to work so he made an appt to see the MO and was given 1-day MC.

I've served 3 MAs and he is the 1^st one who goes on MC when boss is around. *heh* Anyway, boss stayed til about 3pm before going home. I bet he has forgotten that all employees are entitled to work for 4 hrs on Christmas Eve!!!

I went off around 12.30pm and took a ride from Hsi Lyiang to Ms Yeo's house. It has been almost 2 years since I last meet up with her. I have always wanted to pay her a visit during Mooncake festival but never had the time to do so. I was determined to visit her this Christmas and I did it! I bought some gifts for her and her family. We had a chat but I hope we could still chat longer. I have got so much to tell her and I still needed lotsa her advice. She has watched me entered into this society at the age of 19 and seeing me grew up till 28! When she recalled, she also feel that it has been many years and I have definitely changed a lot. She also commented that I have become prettier and I dress better :) Good to hear that. Recently at Choon How's wedding, Sue also complimented that I have become prettier. Why did they only realise now?? *haha.. shameless me* Before I left, we gave me a hug.

I still remember that the first time she gave me a hug was on our last working day and the feeling wasn't good. Saddness crept into me. The 2^nd time when she gave me a hug before I took my leave, I was alittle relief but alittle sad at the same time too.

No one was around when I reached home. I began to wrap the remaining pressies and start preparing dinner when everyone came home. There were many more pressies this year for everyone :) I thank Buddha that life is slowly improving for us :)

Johnson helped to prepare the soup of the day while I re-heat the Smoked Chicken, Ham & Saugages. Dinner was good but it could be merrier if we had everyone joining us. Yogi had to return to Ipoh as his brother was getting married on that Sat. My brother had to meet his friends for Christmas dinner.

After dinner, it was Santa's time! Santa is supposed to give out pressies to everyone at home :) Mavis bought me a Piglet. *Hehe* I had actually pestered her to buy me one since my b'day in Nov this year! I love the Piglet very much because it is from my lovely Princess!!!

Little Joy had a pressie from us too. I believed she loves her new toy very much too :)

After Santa's time, each of us had a Magnum Ice Cream! *Yum Yum* We began to snack, drank beer (while Johnson had his Raspberry Volka *Yucks* and Mavis sipped on her F&N Grape) and watched TV.

Lastly, Thank you Santa Casper for taking the trouble to purposely make a trip over to my place on Christmas eve night to distribute pressies to us!!! :)

22 Dec 08 -- Blurry Day

Not that anyone is particularly blur on this day but everything seems so blurry to me :(

Give you a chance to be a smart guy -- Guess why it is so???

I left home w/o my spectacles and only realised it when Mavis asked "eh.. mummy, where is your glasses??"

*DUH* I forgotten my spectacles!!! How could I leave my glasses at home and not realising it until someone highlighted it to me???

Anyway, the day still goes on... ... We meet up with Derrick and I bet he must be thinking that I have my contacts on! However, shouldn't he also noticed that I need to really look closely at most of the stuff he has highlighted to me? (0_0)

Grace came and picked us up and went to look for lightings. Shortly after I got onto the car, Grace was so excited and asked "CONTACTS??"

"NOPE! I left my glasses at home!" I ever told her I wanted to try on to contacts but never had the courage to do so and I guess she probably thought I finally tried contacts.

At the lighting shop, the lightings on the ceilings were not that difficult to see as they were neither tiny nor small BUT when I was asking about the price, which was actually nicely labelled (hmm.. about font size 80 on Word) at the corner left of the lightings, the shop owner, Ellen, replied "It's indicated at the corner" (-_-") I didn't say a word and tried to make out what the fuck was written there. Grace told me the price and told Ellen with a grin "Judy forgot her glasses today!"

After everything, I took a cab to my bf's place. The Taxi Uncle wasn't exactly clear about the location, hence, I have to strain my eyes to look out and tell him the directions (0_0")

Afternoon sun was sooooo glaring and I only noticed it w/o my glasses!!! *Headache & Nauseas* My bf then took me to Causeway Point for Burger King and to do more christmas shopping!!!

W/o glassess, shopping becomes a chore! Everything seems so blurry and if I tried to focus too much, I will have headache and my eyes gets tired! TMD!!!

What a blurrrrrrrrry Day!!!

My Lunch Box!

I have been packing lunch to work almost everyday since I returned to work in late Nov. Hehe... ... I'm only taking a picture of my lunch box today because it has my fav Muar OTAK!!!

After a late feast @ Choon How's wedding last nite, I should only have so little for lunch :D

In any case if you are wondering... ... it's my mom who wake up very early in the morning to prepare my lunch box for me :) *Thank you mommy! (though you can be very irritating @ times!!!)

16 Dec 08 -- Exciting Day

I attended Choon How's wedding @ Raffles Swissotel today! 2 tables were filled with people who used to be from PAFF! How could I not be excited???

I left office @ about 1745 hrs today, which is considerably early though my knock off time should be 1730 hrs -- none of my colleagues had left yet! I meet up with Wan Hua @ South Entrance and took a cab down to Raffles City (though my darling had offered to send me to the hotel -- luckily he got the heart wor!)

Upon reaching, WH accompanied me to buy some gifts from MPH while we were waiting for Jen. Shortly after Jen arrived, we made our way to the ball room and it was about 7pm! *haha* We had actually arrived on time because the cocktail session starts @ 7pm.

The crowd started coming in shortly. The PAFFians were arriving one after another too! All the MROs & MRAs were invited. Mdm Ngoh was there too. Oh, Malcolm and Carin were there too :D All of us were busy chatting and catching up with each other. It seems more like a gathering for us :)

The solemnisation started @ 8.30pm -- an hr late :) but I thought Teachers should be punctual ;p Anyway, they had approx 48 tables, which is approx 480 guests! Wow... isn't that many!!

Choon How was very happy too and it is my first time seeing him in his contacts! Hmm... I just realised that I have sort of know him for 8 years!!

As Choon How & his wife graduated from Beijing University (they are specialised in Mandarin!!), the solemisation were in Mandarin while translation were showed on the PPS. It was a serious yet romantic moment. Besides exchanging their wedding vows, they also had to exchange a small paragraph of their loving vows!

The MCs for the wedding were damn professional (of course, they must be teachers!). They talked as if they were the MCs at a Speech Day in school!

As I have expected, during the "Yam Seng" part, besides the people on stage using the mike to say "Yam Seng", none of them at the floor had joined in! *Hehe* Teachers are educated people and couldn't stand noise!! Of course, they wouldn't join in yeah? :D

Besides focusing on the couple, people from the Pang Clan (the Groom's surname) were invited on to the stage to give a short speech and in 2 languages (one after another!) about their Pang Clan and etc etc (which we didn't really pay attention to)! Annoucement was also made that the Groom's dad had actually donated $2,255 (why not $2288??) from the Ang Bao collected to the Pang Clan association. Hmm... for a moment, I was wondered if I had been to a business associate dinner, a charity dinner or a wedding dinner??

WH is a vegetarian so Choon How has specially ordered vegetarian meals for her and some of her dishes were damn interesting (though I have no idea how delicious but ours definitely wasn't that good)!

Anyway, the dinner ended around 11.30pm and my bf came to pick me up and sent Sue and WH home as well. *Home Sweet Home*

WH's 1st dish -- The Cold Plate Combination

This surely look nice to me :)

The 2 balls are fried Potato + Sesame Walnuts

We couldn't understand what's the different between her desserts from ours? (-_-")

Our table has got 3 absentees while one needed to leave earlier

Sue is supposed to upload this picture onto her Facebook :)

The 3Js

13 Dec 08 -- Happening Day (Rainy)

I was hooked on to the exciting motive Evil Care Bear has in The SIMS 2 in my lappy and Elmo's career in Virtual Tennis on the PSP last night till 4+ before I turned in to bed. Slept for less than 2 hrs and we got to wake up and sent my mom and mavis to the tour group pick up point (Yes, they were going for a short trip in M'sia!). We reached home about 7am and continued to laze in bed. I began playing Virtual Tennis agn while my bf was persuading me to take a walk in the park and see those Uncles & Aunties do their morning exercises and to go for breakfast. However, when I finally decided to stop playing, he had dozed off. *Haha*

After playing for a while, I dozed off and only woke up @ 1100 hrs and rushed to wash up *Shit!! we've got an appt @ 12pm!!!*

My bf & I forsaked breakfast and made it in time for our Trial Shoot! We had a fun time during the shoot and didn't even feel a little bit of hunger!! *hehe*

First time I had my hair curled and I thought that it looked damn mature looking weird but then at least it's a totally different kinda image! :D

We only left the studio @ 4+ and went over to my new house -- supposed to collect a TV but also to show my bf how big my flat is :) Had "lunch" @ the coffee shop @ about 5 plus and head home to wash up and prepared for ANDY LAU's Wonderful World Tour Concert!!!

I was really excited and looking forward to this day! It's my 2nd time seeing Andy Lau in person and heard him singing live and talking to all of us in live and I finally got to see his "kids". Wow... ... It's something which I would want to remember for as long as my memory allows :D *I must really thank Johnson for bringing me there! Thank you Johnson!*

After the concert, we went for "dinner" with Oliver @ Lavender and Home Sweet Home... ...

12 Dec 08 -- A "Relaxable" Day

Everyone seems to be on leave or going for short holidays lately. It's the year end mood and I wanna sink into it as well; therefore, I have decided to take my OFF today!!!

My colleague left for Genting today. I sponsored my mom and mavis to Kluang for this weekend. Oliver just came back from Malacca and will be going to Phuket next weekend. *Everyone is going for a holiday* In one of Oliver's blog regarding his weekend trip to Malacca, I commented that I wanna go for a short trip too. *Johnson ignored my reply* so I am still hanging around on the little dot on the globe! :(

SINCE i didn't get to go for a short trip, I wanna go to a faraway place that is available on this little dot! After pestering my bf for weeks, he finally brought me to Jurong Point today!!! *hehehe*

I woke up @ 8+ and accompanied my bf to purchase his Textbook so that he can prepare for his exam which is scheduled next Tues (Hmm... why Clever People can attend lessons w/o textbook and only buying it a 4 days before the exam?)

Upon reaching Jurong Pt, we head to Coffee Bean for breakfast! What a nice way to start our day -- Sitting by the window, sipping my orange juice, chit chating with my darling and enjoying my breakfast while watching working adults like me rushing to work... ... *hehehe* Evil Care Bear in action agn!

Actually, my bf is not keen in bringing me to Jurong Point. He has only been there twice after living in this earth for almost 3 decades and he feels that Jurong Point is a lousy place! I kept telling him that Jurong Pt is a shopping centre similar to Suntec & Vivocity and most importantly, it has everything it should have in a shopping centre because it is built to cater for residents living in the far end of west area -- but he didn't believe me *HUMPH*

After breakfast, we went to shop around while waiting for SISTIC to start operations (and yes, they have SISTIC in Jurong Pt!). I bought some christmas gifts @ Disney Shop. Everything is just so pretty and adorable.

Oh ya... so exciting! Collected our tickets for ANDY LAU's WORLD TOUR CONCERT 2008! I am so damn fucking excited!!! and I will be so excited that I can't sleep tonight!!!

We also catch a movie - Four Christmases. Nice show! There were only 8 of us in a big cinema :D

After the movie, we went to do some banking and continued with our shopping. My sweet bf bought me an anklet and I love it so much!

We also spent about 1 hr plus in a shop purchasing gifts for both of us! The service of the sales gal was good and in the end, we bought something very pretty -- shall only blog about it after Christmas :D

Oh god... we were happily shopping and enjoying each other's company til we forgot to take our lunch and it was already 4+ when we realised it :p

We went to the Japanese Street to buy some Salmon (Belly) Sashimi and Chicken Balls Tori and Asparagus with Bacon Tori. *Yummy*

Thereafter, Oliver called and told us to pick him up @ Upper Thomson Road and then we head off for Laksa Steamboat. *Yummy* We haven't had it for a long long time.

After dinner, we went to Neebo Cafe for ice-cream, drinks and played Taboo! Hehe.. So much fun and laughter.

Home Sweet Home

10 Dec 08 -- Happy Day

It's a happy day because boss will be on o/s leave from tml onwards -- and I can concentrate on my un-finish work and complete them asap.

It's the time of the year agn -- CNY Reception!! I'm happy to announce that I have finished compiling my 700+ invitation for boss' vetting and once cleared, I will start sending out the invites :) *isn't that the most tedious part* (-_-") But I like events!! should have studied corp comms huh :p

It's a happy day because it's the annual gathering session for the MFAs agn and I always look forward to it because they are my good friends (or at least I treat them as mine)!! I have always been thankful that this bunch of friends were there to accompany me thru the years in PAFF.

Anyway, we just realised that our gathering is always scheduled at the end of the year (no idea why it is so too!) It was a fun night and we just keep laughing and laughing... ... Our happy days would always be remembered during our gatherings. Anyway, we didn't take any pictures because Lee Ling had her braces on -- but we shall take it when her braces has been removed :D

Anyway, we have been meeting for 3 consecutive years and I really appreciate their efforts in organising and meeting up with the group -- though there were only 3 (i.e. Steve, Lee Ling & I) of us this time round :) Jerry is still in Texas (where all the cow boys are) :p Rafael is in HK for a holiday while Alfred is in Aus (visiting David -- another one of us). Hmm.. I think we forgotten about Chris and Terrence (heh.. never mind, we will count them in during the next meeting -- Nov/Dec 09)

Talking about Chris -- I have seen him twice recently during my MC period -- probably because he has moved to Yishun -- but I could feel the distance (or probably because it was always in a rush when we met). Anyway, Chris is one whom I used to confide :) Before his ORD, he gave me a little clown (it's one of the figurine collectibles he had) as souvenir and wants me to remember to be happy whenever I see the clown. I placed the figurine in front of my desk :)

02 Dec 08 (Thursday) -- Rainy

I remembered drafting a post on the a/m last week but somehow it was not captured in Multiply. Anyway, I shall re-post my entry agn... ...

“I stayed up till quite late the night before to prepare for my exam which is scheduled today! I didn't study much this semester and I dun think I am gonna make it for this module but then on the other hand, I feel that it is a lot more on common knowledge and therefore, I should be able to apply and K.O. the exam paper! :p

I woke up @ 9 plus and continued with the revision – hoping to remember as much as possible. Heh... If only I could remember the notes thru “burn and drink”!

Meanwhile, my mommy was preparing lunch for me – my fav Tom Yam Soup! Had a quick lunch and set off for school.

The MRT was crowded though it was a weekday. There were many people who were like me -- “k-ing their notes” as if they were also doing some last minute revision. When the train reached Tanjong Pagar, we were all told to alight (for God knows why – it happened exactly a week ago when I was on my way to sch to sit for another paper). The staff (a young lady) walked in and alerted passengers to alight and wait for the next train. When the staff lightly patted on the thigh of this particular guy to wake him up from his nap, he smiled at her. As the staff continued walking thru to the other cabins, this guy continued to smile sweety, looking at the back of the staff and slowly made his way out to the platform. While we were waiting for the next train to arrive, he was still smiling to himself. *Strange* :p After a while, he realised that I was staring at him for a long time, he tried to stop smiling and quietly made his way out of my sight! *hehehe*

After exam, I had a plate of Mee Siam from Toast Box!

I was kinda hooked onto the mee siam but it's considerably expensive but then agn.. everything from that place is ex!!

I went home to change and prepared to go out again. *heh* I head off to Mandarin Marina to attend Edmund's wedding. Edmund also invited Alfred, Gerald, Jen & Johnson. Besides me and Gerald, the rest could not make it. Only 7 of pax filled the table and before the dinner ended, the table only left with Gerald and I!

The dinner only commenced @ 9pm and the hotel were rushing thru the whole ceremony.

We didn't really get a chance to have a talk with the Groom but from his Thank You speech :) we are sure that he hasn't changed abit :p Anyway, I sincerely wish that they have a blissful marriage :)

I was glad that an opportunity was given to meet up with Gerald again (the last time we had a dinner together was Feb 08) & we had a good chat!

My bf came to pick me up after he has attended to his stuff and also to congratulate the couple.

Home Sweet Home!!

27 Nov 08 -- My 3th day @ work

Look at my desk... ... Definitely alot more messy as compared to my 1st day back to work!

Plenty of surprises since my first day back to work. Keep making changes at the very last minute and changes just keep popping up every now and then...

The mood to get down to work is coming back to me. I am a OL!!! *hehe* OL sounds good huh... ... Most importantly, I've got KJ to help me. That's a good thing and he certainly help me out alot!